All pooped out

 Today has not necessarily been good but then again it is not necessarily been bad either. During the night I pooped the bed- - again!? What is going on with me? I don't think I had diarrhea or sick like that but I did what I did there's no question about it. This morning about 3:00 a.m. I woke up having to pee badly- - I try to hold off as long as I can but I figured I was going to have to use my bag so I did so but then realized the back of my hand was covered with poo I couldn't believe it. I am usually totally aware of any time I have an accident like this but not last night. It must have just happened but it shouldn't have because yesterday's bowel movement was pretty significant. I thought I had pretty well evacuated the bow this morning or yesterday morning. I thought sure I was good for at least one night and day. Luckily I had a bunch of pads next to my bed that I keep there for situations like this so that I can isolate the issue at least maybe get back to sleep or something. I kind of dozed off and on I even sent a text to my caregiver. She did not get back to me till much later in the morning. I wasn't sure what I wanted I didn't know if I wanted her to come over and clean me up this morning or just what. Then I got to thinking I'm not going to see her again until Wednesday morning tomorrow. If I could isolate the poo and then get myself up and get myself somewhat cleaned up I could just hang out at the apartment all day. I was supposed to go to assist this morning for my regular meeting but I was no way going to be able to do that. Didn't want to necessarily spend the money for Melissa to come out and do a special clean up on me so I decided to wait it out. Must find the contact me indicating that she would not be able to make it over till 3:00 in the afternoon that's what I really made the decision that my then wouldn't make much difference. So eventually got myself up and luckily I wasn't too messed up so I eventually got dressed and pretty much hung out the rest of the day. I'm just hoping that I'll be able to get through tonight without any more issues maybe get myself back on schedule tomorrow at some point especially after my regular meeting with Melissa for my shower and my regular bowel movement. Hope I'm not going through a major change...

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