Late afternoon coffee

 I had coffee with my good friend LB today and went on and on about how I need to stop wasting my life in front of the flat screen and semi declaring that I will stop watching as much as I have been and then just realized I killed a whole hour watching my favorite Thursday night situation comedies. That I can say that I really liked the other one that's just front of and it's right after the 6:00 news so it's just as easy to watch the first sitcom as it goes into the second and both are season finale. I don't know why I bother because I think I basically slept through the one situation comedy that I like best. I don't know if it's the comedy so much as it's throwback to Thursday night viewing that I used to really enjoy especially from the late '70s '80s and 90s. I can't believe how much I enjoyed watching those Thursday night offerings. Everything from Seinfeld to Hill Street Blues. Not only was it good television but it was the ushering in of Friday and the weekend. The flat screen is off now and I'm enjoying the quietness of my apartment and feeling I'm doing something by updating the blog and my journal even though the creativity is somewhat minimal at best.

 I really enjoyed Hill Street Blues primarily because it showed a work situation that I would have loved to been part of. It was a gritty City operation. The precinct was watched over by a strict but fair boss one that I would love to have had at that particular time in my life. Everybody did their job some better than others but they all showed up at roll call ready to do there jobs. I kind of miss that. I'm sure if I really wanted to go back and revisit those old shows I could find them somewhere on the internet even if I had to rent them I could but my need for nostalgia, thank goodness, it's not that great. It's bad enough that I waste time on netflix, Prime and Disney Plus. These old series would just add another level of time consuming nothingness to my mortal existence that I should be doing more with not less. We had a great conversation with fairly decent coffee at least it was hot, at least mine was to start. We talked about where we were at on our creative universes, the political mess that we're existed in right now in the problems that people with disabilities are going to be facing probably very shortly as the current political Administration continues to route federally fun to support systems people with disabilities in their communities. I wouldn't say we've given up hope but I would say we are realistic ass too what issues might come our way. I really feel people with disabilities are looking at some major problems if and when the Giant Federal support systems get their legs cut off funding wise. We weren't depressed- at least I wasn't when we were finished. Just hopeful that we'd be able to meet again before too long and before any giant Federal hammers fall on us...

 

Special attention

Yesterday I spent at least an hour doing something that drives me crazy which is trying to set up another account so I can read the voicemails which have been left on my cell phone. I know it's not the cell phones part or even the megalith entity that developed the piece of technology which drives me crazy. It's just that you got to have a password you got to have a this you got to have that in order to access the voicemails which have been left for you by individuals who couldn't get a hold of you when your phone rang. Granted I'm using that close enough to the phone when it does ring to grab it and then answer the phone so I guess that's what the person's going to do is leave a message and I suppose that's the way it is for doctor's offices and or other places of business that work directly with you and have to make contact with you or think they're making contact with you at any given time. I usually get around 10 messages on my cell phone and that doesn't bother me as much as when it's something I think I need to be aware of like the appointment that happened today which was my occupational therapist calling to set up an appointment to come out and visit. The phone call came in this morning and I was lucky enough to hold of her before she went out on her visits for the day and set up an appointment to stop by my apartment just before lunch. No I'm caught in a quandary do I tell you about my aversion to getting passwords or my time with Sarah the occupational therapist. I guess I'll save my rent on cell phone passwords and messages for another day- probably sooner than later.

I was impressed that she worked me into her schedule today. She's young and still a believer in the system to the point where she sold me that I too could believe in the system at least for now. She listened to me for some time gave me her points of ideas and then show extreme excitement to be working with me the next couple of days and weeks on strengthening parts of my body that I use for daily living like transferring and such as well as other options that might be good for me and also to work with me on getting a new power chair very much quicker than later which is totally bizarre. She was aware of how bad and how painful look for me to be in my chair and that she would talk to the people in charge of how and when the chairs will be ordered and make sure that I start getting some preferential treatment. Like I said we'll see what happens but right now I want to believe in her a lot she's the kind of person who moves mountains because she doesn't know any better…

Rethinking the movies

 The low pressure system continues to roll around this area bringing damp weather and cold temperatures. Even though we were having this kind of weather I was getting a little tired of being in the apartment all the time and specially today since I didn't have to go down to Salt Lake to go to my regular meeting not until next week. So I sort of felt I was in the middle of a vacation day and I've been promising myself to get back out on the road as soon as I could in this old power chair of mine but it's the one that's been worked on and batteries are really good it looks like it feels like and so I decided later on in the morning I would take off and check the movies out. I actually took a jacket with me just so I can wrap it around my head if I got too cold and I wasn't sure what was going to go on inside the bus because at this point in time all the buses are all the drivers turn their air conditioning on even though it's freezing outside. The same holds true with the movie house many of the people who run the theaters things that summer and so they have their air conditioning systems on too which makes enjoying the movie a real challenge. So, I took the jacket with me in case things got chilly are more chilly than they already are.

I got to the area where the theater is at and there's a Starbucks very close I usually go in there and check out my cell phone to find out what movies are playing and what times they will start. I didn't have time to enjoy a brew seeing that one of the movies I was considering was starting exactly at that point in time or at least started seating which means another 20 minutes will pass before the movie actually starts. They have this giant pile of previews they wander through. So I took off run over to the movie house and got my seat for the movies was fortunate to even find out that I had a free popcorn by the amount of points that I've acquired over the last couple of months. I really wanted to see two movies that looked pretty good they seem somewhat espionage like spy type shows which I think I would really like but I end up caving into a Marvel offering. Something about the new Avengers the Thunderbolts. Now I was kind of disappointed in the whole movie it wasn't as bad as a couple of the other Marvel movies have been but clearly was not of the same caliber and I'm not sure what Marvel's trying to do. I keep an eye on the different information things on the internet to see what other people are saying about the movie I get the impression there's not a lot of other people that are all that happy with it either. I got through the movie and my popcorn and by that time I need to go to the bathroom so I didn't want to try to wrestle my dick out there at the theater decide to go home I was ready. I was just a little sad it seems the movies, for me, are beginning to lose their appeal

Cinco de Mayo peekaboo

 The cold weather, clouds and Rain returned today along the Wasatch Front taking away the hot wonderful calm sky and days that have enjoyed the last couple. That's okay it won't last long it's just the coming and going of the seasons. Of course, I didn't do much during the day. I wasn't really going to go out I didn't have anywhere to go so I just laid low watched movies and cleaned up a little here and there swept the floor off and on tried to be not totally useless. But really not a whole lot going on right now. Each day I'm feeling a little bit more comfortable with my return to chair I still don't feel at home in it as I did before at least I thought that I felt at home in that chair or this chair. I do enjoy the elevator function I've used it a couple times and I just forget how nice that is be able to reach things up high and place things up high. The giant blister or boil on my leg continues to sit there. Melissa put a new dressing on it this morning we decided not to Lance it at this point to see if it would burst on his own accord next couple days as I get in and out of bed and such. My legs are sure taking a beating these days though they look pretty grim. The cool weather is predicted for tomorrow as well however I think I'm going to be going out since I got a text from Lori Brock who wants to do coffee tomorrow afternoon. I don't know if we'll be running into any rain to speak up but the temperature still be cool but I can always throw something over my shoulders I mean that's not really super cold. Hopefully, an adventure to the coffee shop is an Adventure just the same whether it's across the street or down to Starbucks. This is going to be a short one tonight just because I don't have any thoughts or feelings about anything in particular right this very minute. I'm sure as soon as I close out this entry that all kinds of things will flood into my head.

Perhaps the most exciting thing that happened to me today was I was waiting as I usually do on Monday mornings around my table, nude, waiting for my caregiver to get here for my morning routine. I was doing my puzzles and drinking some coffee I hear a tap tap tap on the door and then the doors opens and then comes Tim the little Vietnamese lady who has a very interesting relationship with me here at the building. Nothing weird or anything. I think she knows that I'm naked here in the morning she's always talking about me being naked all the time. But then she freaks out when I start talking to her about it. But today she knocks the door opens sees that I'm sort of naked and backs away but then she's got something she wants to give me which is a plate full of lasagna which is great! Something for dinner I don't have to think about. I took the plate and she zipped away and that was that. I just wonder but she really thought about everything especially me

Springtime Sunday

 I did it! I was worried that I was going to have issues transferring into my old chair that I just got back from the shop this morning. This would be the first morning since I got the chair that I transfer by myself. I know that sounds weird but it just seems that everything is such a challenge these days that nothing works the way that it used to. And I am so freaked out at how different my chair feels now that I'm having to relearn everything it seems like it's almost defeating. Happily however I was able to make the transfer and even later get my shorts on though it was very difficult and challenging but I was able to get my shorts on and one shoe and my shirt so I was presentable by the time it was to go to breakfast. So I guess it was a good morning even though my goal was to get up at 5:30 as opposed to the usual 6:00 a.m. just because I wanted to make sure I had this extra time frame and it served me well. It was good having breakfast with Mark this morning the kids didn't make it but that's all right I think I kind of wear them out to a certain degree anyway. They can only take the old man and small degrees I totally understand that. Sadly, today was not as warm as yesterday and I guess that's okay but I sure enjoyed being out yesterday's Heat. Today the clouds moved in and we did have some good rain in the evening but there was Sunshine off and on during the day but I elected finally just to go in and spend the rest of the day watching my old favorite Marvel movies which I ended up doing to my enjoyment. Later on in the day I ended up visiting with Shelly on the phone which was good to have visited with both my kids today and certainly made me appreciate the Sunday evening.

I think we're in the middle of a low pressure system now and I don't have a lot of faith for the upcoming week as far as warm weather and getting out and doing anything of any value. Luckily I don't have to go into the office this week as far as assist, ink goes so I plan to lay low hang around the area and enjoy the apartments as much as I possibly can. Weather may be just inclement enough that I can use my movie card and take in some walk-in theater movies. That would be one way to get through a stormy afternoon particularly now that I'm in a chair that I trust the batteries to be there for some time as opposed to what I was in. Maybe this would be a good week to also increase my liquid level fluid levels. Oh that's another issue as well. I seem to have more difficulty in trying to catheterize myself in the chair, when I'm dressed then before I had the repairs done. I do not know why this would be certainly seems to be the case. I'm trying not to let any of this get me down but it's sometimes a bit of a battle. I just got off the phone with Michelle and we will talk about issues we're having as far as Aging in place and being able to do what we once did a lot easier.

The power chair Blues

 

I am really trying to not fall into a deep depression as far as dealing with the power chair that I just got back from the shop. It's the weirdest thing that's the same chair I know it's the same chair but it feels entirely different and I don't know why. It feels much smaller and I can't seem to get comfortable in it at all. I feel I've got to lock myself tie myself built myself into the chair so I don't fall out. In short it's kind of scaring me to death on how I can live in this chair independently.

This morning I was kind of excited getting up in fact it wasn't the excitement I don't know what happened I think it was a spasm but when I went to transfer over to my chair my leg spasmed out and I ended up in a real bad transfer with my legs hanging off what did me into the chair which was a good thing cuz I wasn't falling out but I could barely get to the controls and it took me a good 20 minutes to extricate myself from the chair and twist myself around and get my legs back into the foot box and finally took my chair back so I could totally get it back into my chair. With all that in mind I did get dressed but I did have to have my care person come over and bandage up a major blister that I got on my leg I don't know how except for I think it was when I have my legs bound up the strap sometimes is a little too tight which I think might have caused the friction that caused the blister a big water blister. Plus I had her coming over essentially to put me into my new chair or my repair chair. That was when I started getting my first inclination at something didn't seem to be quite right. Now I'm in the chair and I don't know what I'm going to do. I think my transfer into the bed will be okay little concerned about tomorrow morning early and how I'm going to be able to dress myself. I hoping this will pass and I'll be able to just get back into my regular method of living but I just don't know anymore that's going to happen. It just seems like something's happening to me and I don't like it not one little bit. Luckily I had little problems when I went to the market to pick up a few things for the weekend. It was a nice trip out and was glad to be able to get the things I needed. I was able to use the elevator function for the first time since I got the chair back- - quite frankly I forgot I had the elevator function until I had to put the groceries away. The weather has been perfect for today very warm almost in the 80s. I spent time out in the sunshine till I couldn't stand the Heat and moved into the apartment watched a movie or two nothing new just the age old Marvels that I continue to watch. And that's good keeps me going …

Probability storm moves on

Maybe things are looking up. Maybe I'm through this probability storm I've been suffering with the last 2 or 3 weeks. My arm is much better I can pull weight on it now I can lift myself up in the trapeze if I'm very careful and not move my arm any bizarre way. I can tell the wrong move would send me back a couple of squares and trying to heal my arm all over again. Hopefully my doc will call and they'll be able to have me come in and he can look at my arm as well and give me some information and actually I'm hoping to get some feedback from physical therapy when and if they call back and set up an appointment. Yesterday I did go to the dentist which I reported on yesterday afternoon or evening. So I'll be transferring into my chair tomorrow at some point that's okay I'm in no hurry I've made it this far. So I don't jinx myself but maybe just maybe this storm is over for now. My butt still is a little tender and changed my dressings this morning and my PCA indicated that I had no skin breakdown so I'm just hoping for the best.

I even did a good deed today. I try to do good deeds whenever I can it's a good form of insurance as far as karma goes. But there is this lady I can't believe how many people at this facility- - like me old people and many of them have scooters and they just roam around this property here. They're all afraid to cross the street and granted there is a major thoroughfare just adjacent to our building but there's more than adequate crosswalks with good lights but the people here don't trust the traffic lights I don't think. So I promise this one lady who has expressed to me that she would like to go to the market and to the dollar store but it was afraid to and I volunteered that I would help her cross the street so that she would get a feel for how easy it is. We were going to do this yesterday but I got caught up into a meeting I had to go to in the afternoon with the social work person here. I was surprised at how long the interview was and I couldn't find this person after afterwards. So I saw this person again this morning and asked if she still wanted to do cross the street and she indicated she did. I was surprised at how easy it was to cross the street with her. She really did seem somewhat surprised at how easy it was. We went to the Dollar Store got a few things and then she treated me to an ice cream at the food market right next to the dollar store. The question now is that well she continue this behavior on her own. I hope she will I hope this wasn't just a ruse to hang out with me there could be stranger things in life LOL

Front tooth fix

 

Been a very long day. I woke up at 3:28 a.m. roughly and I don't think I got back to sleep. I think I was a little anxious regarding my dental appointment this morning at 9:00 a.m. I wanted to make sure I was dressed and ready to go to the doctor's office. I stayed in bed till 6:00 a.m. as usual the transfer was relatively straightforward I wouldn't say easy but it's been less painful than say last week when there was so much drama with the arm. The muscle system seems to be healing itself I don't know if that's good or bad I haven't seen a physician yet about it. I've been waiting for them to call me with when my appointment should be. I can use my arm more and more I have to be careful and how I do so that I don't destroy any weeks of healing that's gone on sometimes I get close and catch myself the last moment.

I was pretty much ready for the appointment by 8:00. I wish I had said that I would take the earlier time but finally around 8:30 I rolled over to the office and hang out there for a while before going in and getting set up for the Dental intervention. It was great seeing everybody and even interesting was that hit Alan's son is now a full-fledged DDS and is practicing with his dad at the facility he even did a little work on me as far as doing the Novocaine. He's got a good hand and a good skill set I think he'll be a great dentist. They both work well together too that's always good to see kind of jealous admire that they're doing this. Some interesting they're talking about either moving to another building are adding on to that building they're in now which I would rather they do. They are at such a convenient spot. Interesting I was talking with Janet this afternoon and she indicated that she started to go to these guys just because she gave up her vehicle and decided that it's easier just to walk across the street then to have to go all the way back to where her dentist is which is quite a ways away. And I believe that I think that's the way to do it supports your neighborhood businesses. I probably was under the light for more than 45 minutes this morning. They did a rebuild of that what was left of the tooth in the front and they indicated that also that we should seriously consider capping it but that's going to be more than a thousand bucks. I told them I'd want to go ahead and Patch it up for now and then start thinking about going the crown in a year or so. As it was the work today cost like $265 bucks but they were able to put the tooth back together and I'll be able to use it for another extended period of time. Plus I've got to go back and tune for some other dental work major cavities that I've been wondering about. The day was pretty warm I was able to spend significant amount of time out in the elements there was a bit of a breeze plus my butt was hurting quite a bit I sure hope I'm not done any major skin breakdown I'll have to see about changing out the the cushion tomorrow.

Mayday Eve

 I'm a little pensive tonight I'm not really sure why but I've sort of felt a little down all day. Tomorrow morning at 9:00 a.m. I have a doctor's a dentist appointment to see if we can fix the tooth I broke last week. I'm sure we will I'm just not sure how but is pretty skilled and I'm sure he's got some ideas for me. I really like this dentist I mean after all he's right across the street from my apartment so it's very easy to get to appointments and particularly for emergency type things. I don't know if there's cheaper dentist close by there are a couple of dentists however almost in the same block area that my DDS is. I would kind of feel disloyal checking out these new guys just to see what their prices are. That's really kind of stupid because I should look at my medical provider, in this case a dentist, as a consumer product just like anything else and you want to go to where you get the best deal. However, I like this guy like his staff it's a very homey feeling. This guy's been here all of us in professional life as far as I know and then his dad was the dentist, in the same building before him. So the whole place feels very homey plus they have a ramp that I don't think was initially put there for wheelchair Falls it's very steep and I can negotiate it really well with my power chair but I would not want to try it with my manual chair if I still had a manual chair which I do but I don't use it. So tomorrow I have to wake up early just to be sure that I can put everything together by the time I need to roll across the street. My arm is continuing to mend which is good and I think will help me in my dressing in the morning. Now I'm debating on wearing a shoe or not. Because of the injury on my arm I can only use one shoe or put one shoe on I can't get my right leg up high enough to snatch it with my bum arm which I usually do and pull it up the rest of the way over my other leg our knee so I can put the shoe on the right foot but that's not going to happen tomorrow so I'll show up once you on once you off and they usually never say anything even when I show up with no shoes on. Maybe if it's super cold outside but generally just see that's one of my eccentricities.

It's Wednesday so that means it's wash day and that took a lot of the focus of my day. I kept wanting to go somewhere and do something but the matter fact that I had clothes in the wash then clothes in the dryer always kept me pinned to the apartments. This morning was very cloudy with rain but it cleared out by late this afternoon with some decent Sunshine which allowed me to go out and read a little bit but never did feel too comfortable tomorrow it should heat up significantly and reading outside should be much better for the old guy. I just hope that I'll feel like spending time outside after my visit..

Too little too late?

I think I'm getting better that is I feel my gimp arm is healing. Where the arm is healing and not as difficult to tell mainly because I'm afraid to put any pressure on it at all and that's the way it's supposed to be as I understand it. I should not aggravate the tendonitis or the muscle or whatever is the problem- - that is what I've been doing so maybe it's paying off. I still want to have it looked at by a physician sooner than later but all things in their time I guess. I was pleased this morning being able to get up and transfer into my chair with very little issue. I didn't use the trapeze as I usually do to pull myself up as best as I can I pushing everything off on my right arm now as much as I can before I make any major transitions are transfers. I can use the trapeze more and more but I still need to be very careful it seems like one wrong move and all that pampering goes to waste. I must mention that I've started taking ibuprofen fairly regularly and they say to do that as well. So that might be having an impact as well I don't know I'm just trying to touch all the bases be as good as I can. I am such a poor patient.

Along that same line a person with a spinal cord injury- that's probably anybody for that matter - - is encouraged to ingest as much liquid as possible. I don't know if it's been going on with me in the last couple months but I have not been drinking like I should but it hasn't really been an issue I haven't seen anything negative coming from it and I felt pretty good especially the concept of being able to sleep through the night without having to get up in the middle of the night to pee or roll over to pee or whatever I do. I was on the phone for some time with my ex yesterday who always encourages me to Injustice liquid as possible. I'm trying to I Really Am but it's just like liquid in means liquid out and when you're me and you have to go through so much work just to pee you tried to limit that to the point where it's probably unhealthy. The reason I bring this up is primarily the fact that IP just a little while ago which is really the first time since I got up this morning- - and this morning's void was very limited which was kind of spooky and tonight the urine was very dark dare say I it could have been colored with blood! Of course this drove me didn't just half a gallon it seemed like a water right at the bathroom. I just hope it's not too little too late. So now I'll just more liquids and see what happens. If nothing else tomorrow is supposed to be overcast cooler with bouts of rain. I really don't have to go out anywhere at all so theoretically I could do a really maintenance day of liquid ingestion. I don't know if this would have a positive impact or not but as they say I guess I could not hurt at this point.

Severe tendonitis

 I don't know why I did not think of this before but this morning I did a wild search just to see what would happen put my symptoms in the search engine and lo and behold figure it out what's wrong with my arm. I probably torn the bicep area away from the muscle or the bone somehow or hopefully it's not a real tear maybe it's just a strain a sprain or something like that. The information I was reading was pretty succinct it's definitely what I've got going. And I've had this before I know and I've always seemed to cure from it I guess it's taking a long time but I think eventually this will cure itself as well but since I supposedly have some interface with some medical folks in the next couple days I want to bring this up to them as well and maybe they can have an assist with some options for me or at least give me some direction how how to take care of myself during this period of time. One of the big challenges I am dealing with is having to go on with my life when I do so much with my left arm. Right now I'm having the closely guard what I do and how I lift and all that kind of stuff particularly like getting up in the morning and transferring into the power chair. And actually this is how the whole thing started was with the power chair or lack thereof when I had to go to my backup chair and put in a lot of stress on my arm trying to keep myself up right in the chair and doing everything else I had to do to maintain myself in the chair that's when I first realized that something was going on in my left side. Came out pretty fast once I damaged that area. For what I can tell the most effective cure is just rest they even talked about putting the arm in a sling and doing the old hot and cold thing which I could do. I am trying to favor the arms as much as I can through the day and what time up I'm okay but I'm still quite Limited what I can do. I can dress myself to limits usually not being able to do up my shorts but hopefully I'll have shirts long enough to hide my undone pants and hopefully have enough tail on them to hide any obesity in the back. One other thing is that Melissa reacted to my face this morning and Mark or one of the kids I can't remember this weekend also remarked about my face. Belinda indicated that she thought that I might be having a mini stroke. How many stroke is all I would need or a major stroke for the rest of my life. My next big challenge now I was going to be going to and from my assignment at assist tomorrow morning. I call Andreas this morning as I usually do on Mondays and he indicated that indeed there would be a meeting in the morning and I would be welcome to come. I hope I'll make it I hope the chair makes it I think it will I don't see why it wouldn't it might be close coming back but once I'm back I'll be inbound for the rest of the week I'm sure. The weather doesn't look that great so that's good as well just hunker down in my apartment and enjoy the heck out of it

Letters

 

Letters stuffed, sealed and stamped ready for the mail drop

Following almost a week of pretty nice weather, warm temperatures and fairly dry conditions a cold front moved in over the evening and made for a pretty chilly day. True temperatures are like in the mid 50s which doesn't seem like cold but after a couple days of the 70s it felt like we were moving back into winter. The high point of my day of course was breakfast with the kids Mark as well as Jasmine and Jackson showed up we had a good breakfast visited fairly well and pretty much hung out. By the time I got home I was committed to staying inside for the rest of the day which I almost did. I did go out and Chase down a little sunshine really not enough to allow me to stay out for very long which was okay. I spent a good portion of the day finishing the letter project for the kids. I got the letters printed as well as the envelopes and stuffed with the $10 bills for the kids that still received money. Rectum put the stamps on and sent them away. I watched probably way too much television as well I finished the series with the Punisher and already feel somewhat better. Punisher is so violent I can't believe it's allowed to be televised. I watched a couple movies on Prime but that was pretty much my day. This is a little bit with my neighbors.

I wish I could report that my wounded arm is getting better. The bruisiness just about left and to be honest there is less pain than I had experienced earlier but there are times when I try to raise my arm or use the arm as I usually do especially what I'm in bed trying to get up that I have excruciating pain in my bicep area. Hopefully, this appendage will heal itself however if I'm lucky enough to be seen by physical or other therapists this week I will certainly bring this up and see what they say. I really hope there is some sort of RX that will fix this issue that I'm having. It certainly is somewhat depressing. I'm not really totally focused on the end game but seems like my thoughts are getting more and more to that area as this issue with my arm continues to progress. This is really true in the mornings when I transfer from my bed to the chair. It would be so much easier if I could actually use my left arm to hang off the trapeze without aggravating the wound and the bicep area. It really has to be a repair of some sort. I sure like my apartment but hate to lose it. I've been fantasizing that maybe what's wrong as I've torn the muscle off the bone or something and I have to have an operation to restore it and how would I do that? I would certainly try to keep this apartment while I was going through healing and then rehab if that was the procedure to use if so like I said hopefully a professional will be around sometime this week and will be able to progress to the next step. I swear I keep coming back to the idea that sooner or later my regular chair is going to come back to me and hopefully all this stuff will disintegrate and I'll be able to go back to the way that it was though there's something in the back of my head saying you can't go back you can never go back.

Idle arm bike

 Little bit by little bit I think I'm somewhat getting better as far as my injured left arm goes. The bruises are going away and if I don't stress the arm out it doesn't hurt just hanging there and I think that's progress. I did notice last night and this morning that if I tried to really use the trapeze above the bed I really aggravate that muscle system. I'm still somewhat suspect that I have damaged that musculature system somehow. I probably really need to have it looked at and supposedly I have a May appointment with Physicians and maybe I can have them look at it if it's still bothering me. All I know is that it takes me awhile to get up but I'm very careful and don't hang on the trapeze I could get it to my chair and then once there I can negotiate the rest of the transfer eventually. I did fairly well on my dressing this morning I feel that's encouraging. I have my slick shorts for tomorrow so hopefully I can get dressed well within the time limit I have if I wake up at 5:30 or 6:00 a.m.. I still don't even entertain the idea of putting on shoes but I'll just see what I can come up with the time frame that I have to work with. Remember last week Mark had to come over and dress me. I hope I will be better tomorrow at least better than I was today.

I'm feeling a little guilty not utilizing my arm bike like I have been the last couple months or years for that matter. The arm trauma for some reason has really affected my ability to use the crank on the armbike especially doing the push-up part of the hand cycle. Coming down on either side's not that painful but pushing up is another issue. I'll give it till Monday and then try again on Monday to see if I can get some exercise and therefore some better sleep. Maybe I'll have to work up to 200 minute weeks again once I start being able to use the crank more efficiently unless painful to the bicep and other pieces of muscle that seemed to have been impacted by something I've done. The power chair however is not as bad as it was especially since my brother affixed the foot boxes on the chair. I'm putting a lot of stress on the left foot box and I don't know if I can do anything else about that just be more careful. I've inadvertently drove my chair into walls and stuff just getting around in the morning for instance. That's all I would need to do is to break one of the foot boxes as soon as I got them. I think Carl would just about give up on me at that point. Now I have to make a decision on whether to invest money on new batteries or better batteries for this chair I'm in now. I think the batteries are pretty weak charge wise. Today I went to the coffee shop and back and then over to the market and brought me down to about 69% charge. I think it's less than 2.4 MI which I guess actually is not that bad. I think if I have to go into my regular Tuesday meeting I should have enough power to get there and back if I don't do any messing around in between or especially on the road home. Tuesday means I will be dressing myself hopefully I'll be presentable. I just have to make sure that I have a long enough shirt tied my obesity especially on the rear right side.. I have found that if I don't do the top button up or can't do the top button up I can hide it pretty well with whatever shirt I'm wearing if I pull it over the outside of me as well as the safety belt fasten just the right way and then stuffing my cell phone in my pants. Certainly makes it easier in the evening when I need to push my shorts off. I had instructed Melissa yesterday to do that and she did not and I was surprised and quite pleased last night when that button was pretty secure and tight however I was able to maneuver my hands in such a way to be able to push the button from the buttonhole and it didn't take me nearly as long as usual too just rub and get into bed finally.a

My Owee

Im sure all of you are getting somewhat sick and tired of me whining about the physical traumas I'm having to endure at this point in time as a result, as I see it, my power chair in the shop and having to deal with other modes of transportation much less suited to my needs. I believe I mentioned it briefly yesterday but now the wound or whatever is on my arm is just or does not seem to be getting any better. I'd like to say it stasis I'd like to say that it's the same but I must be very careful with it that I don't aggravate it. I don't know what it is as far as what's causing the bruising I sort of suspect it might be something like a muscle issue of some sort I don't want to say a torn muscle that would be horrible and I don't know how that could have happened but something has happened and it's not getting any better I don't think not right now and it's again Friday which means no Services now till at least Monday I don't know what would happen if I went into the ER but I don't know if I would need to regarding this situation. I go to bed at night thinking that perhaps with the rest and such I will feel better in the morning or at least the arm will not hurt as much. But it's when I reach up for the triangle or the trapeze bar that I tend to possibly reinjure the appendage it really is frustrating. I'm not right side however I seem to be adjusting to the chair a little bit better. It's still not very comfortable and I don't think ever will be but I am being able to get from point A to point B. Today I went to Walmart and actually picked up a pair of hair clippers. I found some for $12 and Melissa seems to be pretty anxious but to cut my hair and I truly think she knows what she's doing. She does the whole thing for her son and her son is pretty much into the the current modern haircuts especially for minority kids the fade and all that kind of stuff. And my hair cutting is not super critical as far as critical cuts and straight lines and things like that I just want basically a buzz. There were clippers for 12 24 36 bucks even more if I really wanted to get fancy but it was so confusing because there are clippers for the hair and clippers for the beard and such and I wasn't sure which one to get finally I got some help from some of their folks which greatly assisted me. Sorry I got off on a bit of a tangent they're back to my arm today I had Melissa assist me on my shorts as usual getting them on it was a bit of a struggle but we did it I'd asked her to leave the top button undone but she did not and that caused some stress but I'm pleased to acknowledge that I was able to undo the button. I kind of got spoiled the other day when I spent the day without even button up my pants hiding everything with the safety belt of the chair. Tomorrow will be another challenge to see if I can get myself dressed and make myself presentable enough to go over for coffee or any place else that I go. Disable pull it off day before yesterday so we'll see what happens. I'm beginning to understand this chair a bit better and that is significant cuz I think that allows me to at least know I can sure I can dress myself or pull my shorts up and of course that's the biggie then I need to get it make sure I have a shirt that's big enough to cover all of my possible exposures. It's the 25th five more days April so I'd better get busy working on my kid letters for the month of May….

A little bit of lunch, a little bit of sunshine and a little bit of rain

 I survived the day in this new chair are the chair that we remodeled yesterday with the help of my brother with the foot boxes. Even with these added conveniences for me it's still going to be very difficult too spend any significant time in this power chair. I was fortunate I was able to cross my legs to be able to get my shorts on but it took me I bet you're almost an hour to get my shorts on and I didn't even really get them on I just put them on far enough that I could put on a long shirt to cover the fact that I wasn't able to get them up high enough to do them up as well as on my hip and everything else I guess that looked okay nobody could tell and I asked a number of folks to look at me critically. I had to make sure that I was dressed all right because I was going to lunch with my buddy Dwayne. We weren't going out he was bringing sandwiches in but still I was able to pull it off I don't know if I'll be able to continue to do this hopefully to some degree. I need to get a new cushion or one of my other cushions that's got the jail in it that I can maneuver to sit underneath my butt because this cushion doesn't seem to be doing a lot of protection. The transfer to bed last night was a little precarious because the chair I have now is not as high above the mattress as the other chairs have been making the rollover a little spooky cuz I don't get to fall as deep and so there's higher chances of me maybe falling off the bed hopefully the transfer tonight will be okay.

I was so impressed I got to call early this morning for my physical therapist actually he was the coordinator over the physical therapist from Intermountain Healthcare and he came out and did an evaluation on me just an initial eval he asked me questions and I gave him information about myself but I expected out of a program if possible all that kind of stuff. Sounds pretty positive next step now is that he's going to send out a occupational therapist to go through my living situation and make comments and recommendations and such. He's also going to set up I think someone to come out and look at some of the issues I'm going through physically and hopefully that will have some impact as well. The bottom line and the whole thing is that I feel that something's being done and that's good. The scary part is is that I'm admitting to a lot of people that have lost confidence in myself or I'm in the process of losing it as I'm not able to do as much physically as I once was. Again I hope this is all situational and well return with the return of my chair in a couple weeks. We'll have to see how that works out. Part of this conversation also came up with Dwayne at lunch today that I'm trying to be able to set myself up to accept whatever verdicts might come down as far as living independently in my own apartment, assisted living and worst case scenario in-house living the long-term care facility. It still makes the most sense to keep me in my apartment even with supports it's cheaper than long-term care or any kind of In-House living facility. I don't think it threatens me as much as it scares me hearing all the bad stories of what comes out of long-term care facilities especially the ones that only low income folks could afford- not saying that I'm low income but I'm certainly not a big roller that's for sure. Today was warm I spent a good part of it outside in the back of the apartments enjoying the Sun in between the clouds. I actually took my chair out to the market and got caught in a minor thunderstorm that was just passing through I got a few drops on my head but not too bad the chair made it there and back again I don't think the batteries are that good but I think they're good enough if I use a full charge on a Tuesday to get me downtown to my meeting and back. We're still having really strange feelings regarding my current situation or thought processes are whatever it is call it depression or what but I don't feel as constrained as I did. I may be deluding myself thinking that it's all going to work out but I somehow think it's going to work out whatever is it supposed to work out and I don't even know if that makes any sense..

Football modification

My foot sitting in the new football Edition to the backup chair

I have always kind of prided myself on not really being a person that comes to depression but I have to confess that of late I'm being somewhat challenged on whether I could say I'm depressed or not. If anything it's a situation or depression that I'm sure because overall I still feel pretty good about everything and that everything will return to some form of normalcy- - at least that's what I truly want to believe. This morning I was able to get out of bed into my chair I took a bit of work but I did it and I was trying to get dressed when suddenly the chair failed again I was trapped in the chair that was tilted to a certain degree. I ended up having to call my brother who came over and actually got my chair functional again as well as finished dressing me which I totally appreciated but like I said is really beginning to wax down my Independence and myself concept. Today I was presented with another power chair from my good friends over at u c a t, it's a chair very similar to this one and a bit newer. The chairman now is pretty old and I think that's part of the issue with it. The only problem with the new chairs that there is no foot box and I've come to rely heavily on wheelchair foot boxes and keeping my feet in the Box while I transfer which not only helps with the transfer but keeps me in the chair and not sliding out on the floor dash dash which has happened. This newer chair now looks like a good alternative it'll cost a little bit if I want to purchase it 250 bucks which is a deal but at the same time that would give me two chairs of back up I'll get well I would get rid of this one I'm in right now the bad chair then I would keep the old power chairs being repaired now when I get my brand new chair which should happen at some point in time in the near future. I most likely will end up with three chairs all together at some point which kind of freaks me out. And the big question is am I going to continue to live independently in my apartment or am I going to have to start looking at long-term care? The reason I bring this up is that I think this chair I'm in now because I'm sitting so cattywampus I have to keep pulling myself up with my left arm, which is my good arm, which has become very painful to the point that I can barely use it for things that I need like armbike today I only did a half an hour on bike when I usually do an hour on bikes on Tuesdays. So hopefully rehab are in House Rehab might help at least let me know if I'm actually true and thinking that it's the arm pulling that's hurting my arm and nothing more Progressive. I'm totally hoping that with this new chair that I could get back into my old way of living independently on my own in the regular apartment

Speaking in that vein I did make some phone calls to my physician this morning just to find out what I could do to increase my chances of living independently and I was wondering if he could write up some information about me needed to go into rehab for strengthening and other options for extended living in the community and not long-term care. So much to think about.

Depressed situationally

I have always kind of prided myself on not really being a person that comes to depression but I have to confess that of late I'm being somewhat challenged on whether I could say I'm depressed or not. If anything it's a situation or depression that I'm sure because overall I still feel pretty good about everything and that everything will return to some form of normalcy- - at least that's what I truly want to believe. This morning I was able to get out of bed into my chair I took a bit of work but I did it and I was trying to get dressed when suddenly the chair failed again I was trapped in the chair that was tilted to a certain degree. I ended up having to call my brother who came over and actually got my chair functional again as well as finished dressing me which I totally appreciated but like I said is really beginning to wax down my Independence and myself concept. Today I was presented with another power chair from my good friends over at u c a t, it's a chair very similar to this one and a bit newer. The chairman now is pretty old and I think that's part of the issue with it. The only problem with the new chairs that there is no foot box and I've come to rely heavily on wheelchair foot boxes and keeping my feet in the Box while I transfer which not only helps with the transfer but keeps me in the chair and not sliding out on the floor dash dash which has happened. This newer chair now looks like a good alternative it'll cost a little bit if I want to purchase it 250 bucks which is a deal but at the same time that would give me two chairs of back up I'll get well I would get rid of this one I'm in right now the bad chair then I would keep the old power chairs being repaired now when I get my brand new chair which should happen at some point in time in the near future. I most likely will end up with three chairs all together at some point which kind of freaks me out. And the big question is am I going to continue to live independently in my apartment or am I going to have to start looking at long-term care? The reason I bring this up is that I think this chair I'm in now because I'm sitting so cattywampus I have to keep pulling myself up with my left arm, which is my good arm, which has become very painful to the point that I can barely use it for things that I need like armbike today I only did a half an hour on bike when I usually do an hour on bikes on Tuesdays. So hopefully rehab are in House Rehab might help at least let me know if I'm actually true and thinking that it's the arm pulling that's hurting my arm and nothing more Progressive. I'm totally hoping that with this new chair that I could get back into my old way of living independently on my own in the regular apartment

Speaking in that vein I did make some phone calls to my physician this morning just to find out what I could do to increase my chances of living independently and I was wondering if he could write up some information about me needed to go into rehab for strengthening and other options for extended living in the community and not long-term care. So much to think about.

Hubris

 From time to time I've often written about how I feel about technology and our inanimate objects ganging up on me, for no apparent reason everything mechanical and electrical seem to be ganging up against me well I'm in the middle of another techno storm and it's kind of freaking me out. The worst part of this techno storm came this afternoon and for some reason my power chair stopped working while I was in the reclined position. I didn't have my cell phone I was in the middle of the kitchen because actually I Was preparing dinner so is later than middle of the afternoon it was 4:30ish. I didn't have anyway to Signal anybody and all I can do is yell and scream. Eventually got one of my neighbors Armando who was walking by. I don't know this guy very well though I should we've lived here about the same amount time. It was a rough way to get to know the guy better. Anyway, I was able to direct him to find my cell phone it was on my bed and bring it in to me and is able to call a few people. By this point in time my technical group was off work it was about 5 minutes after 5:00 in the afternoon all the state employees have gone home. I did call my brother he was able to come over and between us be able to get my chair J-rigged and working again. I'm totally impressed with my brother as always he was able to get me going again whether he fixed it or not I'm not sure time will tell for that but he did give me permission to call him if I get stuck again before tomorrow morning. I spoke to my buddies over at u c a t who indicated they would work with me and see if they can get a solution for this problem worst case scenario they'll try to find another chair that I can borrow until my regular chair gets fixed or maybe they can figure out what's wrong with this one. Hopefully I can get this chair going until they're able to get to me tomorrow afternoon or morning whenever they get pull themselves away from their regular jobs to help me out. 

I'm not even sure if I'm going to be able to get this posted tonight for some reason all of my internet connections seem to be messed up. Took me quite a while to get this tablet I'm working with right now operationally connected to the internet that hopefully I can post this when it's time. Like I said it's a technical storm for some reason I'm getting the brunt of it right now I just hope my bed holds out and the chair Works through tomorrow morning so I can get myself dressed and such. I really depend on those power chairs to keep me going I'm not sure what I'm going to do when I run up against the wall and I can't depend on him anymore. I'm almost considering airing up the tires of my old manual chair and using it as my backup. I still have pretty good upper body arms for quadriplegic and before I stopped early using the manual chair I was able to push myself around fairly well at least locally and I wouldn't take it on the bus to try to take them getting back and forth in my apartment in bathroom and back again. I have to admit I've been pretty smart the last couple years having a backup chair as well as my regular chair and all hubris turned around and hit me on the butt to bring me back

Easter concerns

I'm trying not to get too alarmed at the events that are happening and right now I can blame everything or I trying to blame everything on the backup chair that I'm having to use while my regular chair is in the shop. But one thing I've noticed in the last couple of days that I've had to dress myself is that I'm losing my ability to dress myself independently. Today is Sunday of course so that means I meet the kids for breakfast. That's basically getting dressed and driving up the road to Dee's Restaurant and then having breakfast with mark and Jasmine if she and her boyfriend show up. Today for the first time I actually slept in a half an hour. I didn't wake until 6:00:30ish which is very rare in fact, I did wake up at 5:00 a.m. and didn't register it being Sunday morning and actually went back to sleep till 6:30 a.m. today I took my medications and a couple shots of apple juice to get my system operational I didn't have any fresh coffee made I took a couple sips from the old coffee which is okay but I really need the sugar impact I would get from the apple juice. Anyway I went back to the bedroom and started trying to get dressed and for one reason or another I couldn't cross my right leg over my left leg which usually is fairly easy to do. I worked on for some time and eventually I'd used up all my time. Mark messaged me that he was being late and I told him I was having a problem too and I was going to be late. He then asked if I was having some problems and I told him I was and he said he would stop by what you did. I continue to work on my dressing till he got here and actually got the shorts on my legs was pulling them up or trying to when he got here to assist which is about I don't know 20 minutes later. By then I was pretty exhausted and with Mark's help that's quite ready to get dressed and did so very quickly him assisted me with my shoes and helping me off my shirt and off we went to Dee's.

The kids didn't join us with just good we had a great conversation and would have gone longer but Mark had to be gone to one of his events that he hosts or is the DJ for the event. All sounds complicated to me but that's what he does. Following that I went back to the apartment and really watched a couple of Punisher episodes but would go back outside and sit in the Sun. It was pretty warm today off and up when the clouds didn't block the light. I'd go out and lay out for an hour come back in and watch another episode. I thought about reading which I really need to do but it was just easier to turn the TV on and get the episodes out of the way. I finally finished season 1 which was pretty good I think I still have two seasons to go we'll see what happens on that.

Just trying to live with a possible broken tooth.. again

 

You really can't tell from this picture but it's the front tooth on the top side left from The Middle if that makes any sense it still functional however and that's good for me.

Saturday night and it's after 8:30 and the biggest thing I have to look forward to, which is a great thing actually as far as this goes, is having breakfast tomorrow with my son and possibly granddaughter and her boyfriend. Our Sunday morning breakfasts have become somewhat of a tradition. Mark and I usually have breakfast but always feel blessed with the kids can join us. I just love spending time with the family especially Mark and Jasmine. Today has been kind of a challenge for me first off I was disappointed when I got up spent actual time getting ready and getting in my chair and getting my chair squared away so I could at least get dressed. I can't isolate whether I can no longer dress myself like I used to or it's my power chair or lack of the power chair that I traditionally use. Whatever the issue is that I can't dress myself like I used to and putting my clothes on has become a challenge. We usually have breakfast at 8:00 a.m. so I up at 6:00 a.m. in order to throw my clothes on but the last couple of weeks on Sunday morning from 6:00 on I've struggled to get dressed. Hopefully tomorrow things will go smoothly for me and I'll be able to get up transfer into my bed. I have the transfers down pretty good but what's happening now is that I don't know if it's my spasticity is becoming more pronounced or my legs are becoming more overtaken by spasms or maybe I just said the same thing. We'll have to see in the morning. I cannot say that I'm surprised or whatever all I know is that I'm getting older everyday. Hopefully when if my old chair gets back to me I am hoping I will be able to dress and get going like I used to. Sadly, something's happening with my body and I have no control over the outcome.

Now, to make matters worse I must report that I was eating some hard candy, not hard candy like that old lady Christmas candy or something else that I need to write down. I may have written about this at some point in time in the last year but I have a really old box of black cows licorice that Karen or Diana gotten for me number of years ago then went to my my thing drawer where everything lands that is no longer a value or use but it's just too neat to be thrown away. Anyway I do like the size of these basically electric scum drops that of so dehydrated it's self that's the only way you can ingest these gum drops is to just suck on them until they eventually dissolve and fade away. Towards the end of the little hardcore lives they become soft again it's a little chewy I made this mistake of diet cutting or biting into one of them this morning and somehow and I should have known this it listened I think this fake tooth I have in the front that's broken off over the time and the dentist across the street just keeps me going. Anyway a piece of this rubber bike electric candy wedge between my tooth and my real tooth and I thought sure I was going to break a piece off but it hasn't broken but I do since it's loose it up and that's got me worried a little bit I can't really bite down on anything like nuts to eat and hopefully I'll just have to see how bad it is baby next week I'll drop in at the dentist across the street. He might be able to reinforce his work that he's the one that's keeping this tooth going for me I really like the guy. So I've been nursing this possible broken tooth and went shopping and brought the stuff home put away kind of. Now I'm just really chickened about anything I bite into afraid that's going to break the tooth off and I still have Easter to get throug…h

Conclusion

I was a little dishearted this morning when I started roaming around in my power chair and realized that I had slipped off one of the zip ties my brother had fastened around the control box mounted it to the chair itself. This meant that eventually I was going to lose the other zip tie and I would be back to holding the control box again and trying to get around. However, I was bouyed by the thought that Robert from ucat would be dropping by with the possibility of a solution to the problem. I really wasn't too concerned really even if Robert didn't have what I needed I can always go back to Carl and have him just zip tie the contraption again and this time just be very much more careful and how I treat my power chair control system. Today was cold and wet for this time of the year Well actually spring is like spring and that's what it's like this is. There is snow in some parts of the state quite a bit of it so I like to stay inside the whole day nothing to go out for actually I've got everything I need right now. I was so pleased that Melissa was able to get here about an hour and a half I had to schedule around 7:00 a.m. which I kind of requested because I wanted to make sure that I was done with my morning routine by the time that Robert got here. That was really not a problem because he was about an hour late anyway so it all worked out. It was nice however to get everything done by 8:30 a.m. I was done and ready for the day. I was a little concerned because I didn't really make that much of a poop and now I'm going into the long time two days before I can poop again. Such a weird life I live

Robert finally got here about 11:00 and went to work on my chair he brought with him three or four other control pieces only one of which actually fit my chair but that's okay all I need was one. Needs to be cleaned up a little bit and I can do that but what's best is that it's a solid fixture to the Rod that fixes it to the chair. I should be able to use this until the extinction of this particular chair. We did talk about the possibility of trying to find another elevator type chair like my chair is. Robert indicates those are rare birds at this point but he will certainly keep his eye open to see if one might show up if he does he will set it aside we'll figure out a way for me to get it. He just wants to be sure how wide to get it. I told him that the chair I'm in now is probably a little wider than I need and I think that's part of the problem for the pain in my left side my shoulder and my arm by having to pull myself up to Center myself it seems like a thousand times a day. I'm just happy now to have a really functional chair so I don't have to worry about too much. I'm still anxious about the battery but I seem to have enough power to do what I need to do right now I just got to keep an eye on the gauge and make sure I don't over text myself. The storms move out tonight though tomorrow the sun will be out but it'll still be quite chilly I don't know if I'm going out I need to run to the market to get some juice to get me through the weekend but aside from that I'm okay. I pulled all the beef off of the roast stuck at in the refrigerator so I have the roast chicken legs Frank, fixing for a salad so I'm really prepared. I still have sausages for beans and rice and I should be set for a while though I do like the cooking aspect no question about that …

Quick fix

 

One of the most important parts of any power chair is the toggle switch on the drive mechanism which is that box off the arm of the chair that has a toggle switch on that you used to drive the chair frontwards backwards and up and down when you have a riser or an elevator seat. And of course you want to keep that particular piece of equipment guarded so nothing happens. Remember this is a backup chair that I'm in right now so everything's not going to be Prime but it still has to be functional. I noticed the last couple days that the drive box was getting a little Wiggly but I figured I didn't have to worry about that too much hopefully my other chair will get repaired sooner than later but today that came to worry was quite well founded. I've been focused on cooking a roast all day which means I'm in and out and around my cooking area. I have taken out one of the drawers under the shelving area by my refrigerator which allows me to get under the shelf so I can do meal prep food prep stuff like that. But when I do I must remember to gently go under this shelving and to be sure that the arm of the chair is loose so the arm can rise up as it goes under the Shelf. As I've reported in the past chair is a little squirrely in that you can want to stop but it keeps going a few inches many times which I think is just the control box getting old anyway today I went forward not too concerned and I hadn't I'm done the arm of the chair which caused the control box to snap off its mounting which means I have to very very carefully hold the control box in one hand and try to drive it with the other which is very challenging and I think to some degree very dangerous particularly if I were to be out in the world but even around the house or apartment this is a little weird. So of course I called my brother who did the brotherly thing after he had finished spending time with his daughter to come over to my place and see if we could repair this item. In the meantime, since I didn't want to put all my eggs in one basket, I called the boys over at Utah Center for assistive technology and spoke with Robert who works a lot on chairs. Thankfully when I told him the problem and sent over images of the broken control box he put my Fierce to rest indicate that they had a repair for the problem and he would be over in the afternoon tomorrow to make that repair. It only cost me 20 bucks which I figured is well worth it. In the meantime my brother came over and with some great zip ties was able to fix the control box back to its mount which will greatly assist me in surviving until then and he did such a good job, as he always does, that I could just leave it with that if that were the case. However fortunately I think Robert from Utah Center for assistive technology well fix my chair and maybe keep me going until my other chair is repaired… whatever that might be.

But comfort and a whole lot more

 Today's one of the better days for my butt was not in pain like it has been the last couple of days which I think was just tape thing that was on the bottom of my butt and Melissa did a great job changing it this morning and I felt relatively comfortable all day. Still I'm feeling some what responsible to lay back and take the weight off the butt as much as I can and today has been somewhat cloudy and overcast so hasn't been a loss. I did go out later in the afternoon with surprised how nice the day is and fairly warm but that will be ending tonight as a little pressure system Moves In with threats of rain and thunder tomorrow with possible snow today after. Of course the snow will be insignificant but it will be cold comparatively speaking and I really plan to stay in size but as I can next couple of days. I made chicken Frank tonight. Boiled up some rice then opened up a a bag of chicken I've had in the cupboard for some time it was sealed so it's safe. It's white chicken meat but it'll do. Initially I was going to use the chicken legs that I fried up the other day but it seemed like the the package of chicken that I had would suffice for rice tonight. I did not destroy the kitchen totally but it's a bit of a mess. Hopefully Gloria will be here tomorrow if she's not totally depressed and under the weather. That's okay it's always good to see you Gloria when she could make it. You still have an issues with her family and it takes a toll on the girl. Melissa did a great job sweeping up this morning and putting some things in order so I'm okay. I just need to maybe mop up tomorrow a little bit from the cooking I did today. I am thinking very strongly of throwing the roast on tomorrow just so I'll have it cooked it out of the refrigerator but I also have some fun protein for the for the weekend. I wonder if I begin to plan too much. Sometimes I really kind of freak myself out. I didn't do much on the toilet this morning which kind of worries me but I think I'll be able to get by until Friday it's the Friday and the weekend that bothers me when I can't get on the toilet until Monday after Friday morning. So if I don't do a major load on Friday I'm feeling somewhat risky for the weekend. I guess I'm okay as long as Melissa's around and is willing to help she certainly says she will and she always comes through sometimes not as fast as I would like but still she's always been there very steady. All I have to do is have enough food in the refrigerator that she likes and she'll always be here it sounds like. I even did the arm bike today I think I got a little confused but I'm pretty sure I got it 60 Minutes in so that just leaves 20 minutes to get to my 200 Mark but I might do extra just to make sure.

Chicken legs and taxes

It's tax day but I doubt if you need me to tell you that. Did you get them in or did you have to ask for an extension. I never did the tax thing very well I wish I had I wish I understood it better and I wish I had enough money to worry about taxes I guess. Sad but true I really didn't pay any taxes until I got married and then I never really did the taxes she did but there was the first second or third wife. They all did the taxes I never really really learned how. Now that I'm in my retirement I'm not really sure how this all works except for it depends on how much you have coming in and I don't think I have enough to really worry about. At least that's what I keep telling myself and hoping. I wouldn't be surprised if some moment now or not to distance future I get a summons from IRS indicating they want me to come in to talk about all of my back taxes and what I owe. I'll probably have nightmares accordingly now that I've said that. I really think I'm basically okay if they would have gotten me they would have gotten me before now. And now they're terribly understaffed because of the Trump thing so maybe it's even better All Things Considered. It must be nice however to get a refund or to get whatever it is that you get back when you do your taxes the right way. We got money back I never really thought because the exes did the taxes and when the tax return came in it was just blended into the regular family budget. I just pretty much went along with whatever was going on at the time it was safer that way. I don't know how many years I went without filing taxes when I was single. It just sort of evaded me the whole concept.

Remember that tray of chicken legs I got a week or so ago? I really like those trays of chicken legs there's about 9 or 10 of them all Stockton plastic covered paper tray and they're relatively easy to prepare. I guess if I did them right that would be a lot more process but as it is I don't bread them or dredge them or anything like that I just take him out throw them in the frying pan with some peanut oil and let him fry up. Actually I'm a lot more motivated when I see the product in the market then when I get home it's a different aspect and I kind of lose my Zeal for frying the pieces of chicken up. I think the next time I might actually purchase a box of shake and bake and threw the whole bunch of legs into the oven and bake them. I really like to have them around sort of like boiled eggs you always have something to eat and with chicken legs it's more than just one bite of meat that you get a nice little meal there and then if you also cook some rice or something it's quite a treat I think. The peanut oil acts real well as a cooking agent. We'll see now that the cooking is done I've had a couple for dinner and still have the others to put away then I'll be time to fry or watch the frying pad then we'll see how good it did. I went into town today for my assist meeting I was really pleased with the way the chair handled I did okay I'm still terribly looking forward to the repaired chair but as this is I might be able to survive better than anticipated before my other chair gets back my fingers are crossed… 

Aftermath and a new day

I'm feeling a little better tonight than I did last night. I certainly don't have the urgency right now that I had last night it was grim. So hopefully I'll be able to do the 500 Words on this update. Adelaide a pretty good size load in my shorts and was ready to get out of them by the time that Melissa finally showed up. It was late I don't think it was 12:00 a.m. yet but it was getting close but she got me out of my shorts onto the slinging into the shower chair we get hosing me off and then went to hosing off the chair after she got me in the shower and I started finishing the job. We got the job cleaned up as well as we could fortunate that night go at this point was to just get me diapers up and into the bed and getting some shut eye and since Monday is her usual time she would be here and we would be able to clean up what was left.

We fi!nished the routine when she got back here about half past 9:00 a.m. this morning. She did a little more clean up both on me and the shower in the floor of the shower particularly. I went through the whole process and hopefully emptied enough bowel of liquid matter and gas to get me through the day I think. I haven't been anxious today and I haven't felt gastric churning and cramping. I have been ingesting cheese and bananas and any other thing I think might assist me in building fecal matter again that is not liquid. I hope things will get back to normal soon I have to go into the city on Tuesday, tomorrow, for my assist meeting that's all I'm worried about at this point. Since the bow is pretty well empty I think I should be okay until Wednesday let me do the process again. My goal today was to ingest binding matter and basically get through the day. I did go across the street and get a half a pound of coffee would you get me through I think the rest of the month. That was my longest jaunt today I didn't even get a mile distance on my chair today coming in at 7:10 for the evening. I watched movies today caught up on Daredevil and watched Guardians of the Galaxy for the first time in quite a while it was nice getting back in contact with the old guys. I try to sit out in the sun today it was just too chilly even though it was clear skies bright Sun but a chilly wind. I bet he got up into the middle 60s but it just didn't feel all that comfortable. I did catch a few rays and that was good.

Has Melissa was leaving last night I madly was trying to think of things for her to do before she left and of course I forgot a lot the biggest thing I forgot was my hugging pillow. She put me down on the bed with the sling I usually roll off into bed from the chair so I was right on the edge and I was a little worried I was going to roll off I think if I had my pillow I wouldn't have been so nervous. But I've got the pillow for tonight I'm a little excited about hitting the sack when it's time I'm being able to caress my pillow for a good part of the night..