I don't know why but I feel my 1 hour arm bike pumps are a great accomplishment in my days. I did a 1 hour pump this afternoon of course and that's because I was exhausted on Tuesday and I didn't do my regular hour then. That was the day that I'd gone to my meeting downtown Salt Lake and the heat it pretty much makes me on the way home. Typically, Thursdays I only have to pump 20 minutes to get my 200 minutes in for the week. But not today tomorrow I will do the 20 minutes to round out my week but still leaves me Saturday and Sunday to rest up before I start all over again next week. I feel fortunate that I could do this. I spent a little time earlier this evening cruising some disability reddit's and I was kind of fascinated about how many folks were talking about and being disabled and trying to be as independent or thinking that they are independent as they were. There was some guys that have been disabled for some time- I didn't run into any that had been gimped out as long as I have but I wasn't looking very closely either. I didn't say all I need to compare. But it was interesting a lot of the new Crips were talking about how they were going to last a long time and probably more honestly at what time in the lifespan do folks with disabilities lose their independence or ability to be totally independent. Not really is interesting I try not to think about it too much but I certainly see it happening to me. Quite frankly I'm totally shocked that I'm still living by myself in an apartment was just the assistance of a person 3 days a week. I remember for the longest time being just totally independent. I could live in a manual chair crawl into the chair if I fell out and go on with my life. Eventually I had to go to a power chair that was quite a big change but the same time I really kind of enjoyed it. Now however there's no way I could ever get myself back into my chair if I fill out or back onto my bed had I fallen out. I could do this at one time I didn't think too much of it now it's major. I was shocked at how quick I went from me and married to single and I couldn't take care of myself by myself anymore. I totally understand but I think it should have freaked anybody out. I'm still impressed with myself how well and that I went through that. And how fortunate I was to blend in the place where I'm living at now. As I said 3 days a week someone comes in gets me on to my shower bench or chair halfway showers me I shower the rest of the way as well as on to the toilet where I do my business and then she dresses me and goes on her way. And I'm on my own till I see her the next time which is basically a day away unless it's Friday then I have to cruise until Monday which is really a long time. I suppose if I really needed to I could pay for another day of assistance but I haven't had to do that yet. I am just amazed again how independent I could be with just a little bit of assistance.









