The power chair Blues

 

I am really trying to not fall into a deep depression as far as dealing with the power chair that I just got back from the shop. It's the weirdest thing that's the same chair I know it's the same chair but it feels entirely different and I don't know why. It feels much smaller and I can't seem to get comfortable in it at all. I feel I've got to lock myself tie myself built myself into the chair so I don't fall out. In short it's kind of scaring me to death on how I can live in this chair independently.

This morning I was kind of excited getting up in fact it wasn't the excitement I don't know what happened I think it was a spasm but when I went to transfer over to my chair my leg spasmed out and I ended up in a real bad transfer with my legs hanging off what did me into the chair which was a good thing cuz I wasn't falling out but I could barely get to the controls and it took me a good 20 minutes to extricate myself from the chair and twist myself around and get my legs back into the foot box and finally took my chair back so I could totally get it back into my chair. With all that in mind I did get dressed but I did have to have my care person come over and bandage up a major blister that I got on my leg I don't know how except for I think it was when I have my legs bound up the strap sometimes is a little too tight which I think might have caused the friction that caused the blister a big water blister. Plus I had her coming over essentially to put me into my new chair or my repair chair. That was when I started getting my first inclination at something didn't seem to be quite right. Now I'm in the chair and I don't know what I'm going to do. I think my transfer into the bed will be okay little concerned about tomorrow morning early and how I'm going to be able to dress myself. I hoping this will pass and I'll be able to just get back into my regular method of living but I just don't know anymore that's going to happen. It just seems like something's happening to me and I don't like it not one little bit. Luckily I had little problems when I went to the market to pick up a few things for the weekend. It was a nice trip out and was glad to be able to get the things I needed. I was able to use the elevator function for the first time since I got the chair back- - quite frankly I forgot I had the elevator function until I had to put the groceries away. The weather has been perfect for today very warm almost in the 80s. I spent time out in the sunshine till I couldn't stand the Heat and moved into the apartment watched a movie or two nothing new just the age old Marvels that I continue to watch. And that's good keeps me going …