I'm so tired

 I don't think the Democrats really even had a chance this election. There's just too many things against the possibility. This of course means that Trump's probably going to win at this point I don't know and who knows how long it's going to take before the whole thing settled. All I know is I don't know what it's going to be like living in the world ruled by Trump and it's the world it's not just the USA it's the whole world. I don't know what I'm going to do regarding benefits being cut or anything like that. I know this guy's going to do it he's out of his mind he's a wacko and they're going to elect him it just blows me away. The last time I didn't think it could happen so I didn't really spend a whole lot of time thinking about what might happen but having lived through the four years of his Reign and then gone through this election cycle the guy's a lunatic the guys totally off his rocker which means USA is probably off its rocker as well. So maybe the place is true the country gets the person they want or how are that question goes you get the government you want or you get the governor you want I don't know either way it's we're goiq

ng to get this person and I think it's going to get really ugly- - and who knows I may be totally wrong we can hope so. I'll follow up with this in the next day or so.

Now a little bit back to my reality. Last week I contacted a company that's supposed to know what they're doing when it comes to working on my bed my electric bed remember how it broke on me and I was going to get the company to at least eyeball my bed to see how bad it is. Actually just to bring it up to date funny as it is the bed is actually been working to a certain degree. I have figured out how to very gently raise the top part of my bed- - that's correct the motor for one reason or another will raise the bed up to a certain point and then crash back down. I don't know if the raising mechanism is on a screwdriver something and that's what broke and that it will kind of reset itself then raise up to a certain level and at the end the teeth do longer are there which causes it to crash back down to the flat of the bed. This is very noisy, it's quick and it's always unnerving. But then I think it's totally broken it comes back to life again and now I've learned pretty much how to manage the raising portion of the head of the bed just to the point of where it's going to crash. The best part is that it raises me up high enough that I can make the transfer from the bed to the power chair. I don't know how long-term safe this is. Oh, what I was going to tell you is that when I called the company I purchase the piece from that fixed the bed the last time back in March they said they were going to send the technician out today. Of course, the technician never showed up and I ended up calling them a half an hour after his arrival time was supposed to be and then they informed me that it was going to cost something like $72 for him to come out and check out the bed. Well this was way last week when this whole thing began and I've been surviving quite well and I also spoke with my friends over at ucat and they figure that they can find me a a similar bed for a way way less money than they were charging me. So that stress points past I just hope the bed will continue working until I can get something else in here. I'm tempted to have Carl come over and look at it to see what he might say. I have to admit however it really wears me out…3

Praying for safety

 I have to admit I'm kind of spooked. This is the eve of possibly the greatest election of this century. That really sounds dramatic but it really kind of is true as well. I'm bracing myself for another Trump win. The first time he won it was quite a sucker punch for me because I figured he would lose I went to bed not thinking about anything waking up to find out Donald Trump is the new president of the United states, my president who I didn't want at all there. I suffered through that first term and I should say I even suffered through the second term that he lost because he was such a baby about the whole ordeal refuse ing to accept the the results of the vote. I mean it contested influenced and colored the whole term. I was just aghast. But I woke that morning following the election I thought it was a mistake I thought it was a classic joke. And here I am now totally contemplating the fact that this country, the backwards snowball Hicks who support Donald Trump are probably getting everybody in her duck out to vote and they might just win this election again. I'm not going to do anything dramatic, should that happen, like move to Canada or Arizona or somewhere other than Utah. I of course will not do such a thing for a number of reasons. The disability certainly limits my ability to do something like this cuz if I could get down to Arizona where this support is supposed to take place. I was kind of surprised that's how many people here at the apartment complex are Trump supporters more than I anticipated which I learned early on. Then if the crazy man decides he wants to overthrow something he'll just tell his people to go out and start shooting people or whatever and they'll do it! Just like he did at the Capitol building A couple of years ago. The former president has uttered such bizarre words that he can't be taken seriously he's totally out to lunch. I can't believe anybody on that side of the aisle recognize that this or doesn't care enough to come out and say stop being our representative!

There of course is little much I can do as far as I'm concerned. I did register and I went out to vote and I did vote. I don't know how good it's going to do but I filled in the spaces and I think that I held it up right and it should just hang out there acting as back up to the other items. I think the former president and his supporters really see this as a giant game that they really can't lose as long as they play. For the longest time I thought that there was no chance that he would come back and he would actually get the votes needed to win this competition. I could save my hook or crook but that would be an understatement. I am just totally blown away at how seemingly bright intelligent folks have jumped onto the Trump bandwagon and are trying to visualize what a another four years of the presidency might render. I don't I will go past the boundaries of this state- - I just don't have a way to travel, sad as that is. I watched the Jazz game tonight and son of a gun the team didn't win what a shock!  I would love it if the country can keep this momentum going and thrash mister Trump down into the grass where he couldn't rise up again. The whole country is worried that he's going to challenge the vote and surge his troops forward after the obvious comes to be calling that nobody wants him particularly in this position. I pray every night it's just something that makes me feel decent and good and believe me I need that. Tonight I'm going to pray for safety in this silly election and hopefully we'll be able to be a better Nation..

Slacking Sunday

 I'm a little upset because the weather folks said it was going to be a horrible Sunday especially this morning. Last night I contacted my son to inform him that we were going to cancel or I was going to cancel the Sunday morning breakfast that we usually have. I did this primarily because he was feeling sick he's been ill for the last week and he was still doing his little side hustle job but I didn't think you needed to be up early in the morning if you didn't want to or have to. He really needs to rest take it easy for a little bit. My granddaughter who usually joins us on these Sunday breakfasts is on a cruise with her boyfriend and some other friends. And I know the weather is going to be as good as it was I probably would have gone to the breakfast but I stand by my decision to keep him out of the cold and early morning air. He really does need to rest. However, because of that that leaves a big hole in my Sunday. It's not like I win anywhere. That wasn't eager to get out in the cold weather and it's now cold tonight it's going to be in the 30s supposedly. And I don't want to be out in the weather anymore than I have to. I spent the day basically watching my big flat screen enjoying Gray's Anatomy reruns and the documentary or two. I enjoyed breakfast actually. I do miss making breakfast for myself. I usually don't do that on Saturdays which I should cuz I really enjoy the cooking or on Sundays but that hasn't been an issue for the last year or so. But today I did scramble some eggs with cheese had some toast and opened up a can of spam fried up a couple pieces it was a grand breakfast I thought totally enjoyed it made enough eggs that I have another breakfast for tomorrow should I desire. But that's been about my Sunday not a whole lot but the important thing was that I was able to watch these pieces of entertainment while sitting back in my chair taking the weight off my butt but still being up and being able to move around should I need to or want to. Return the clocks back last night it was kind of strange to see how dark are quickly it got dark or how early they got dark that's the whole thing of daylight savings and going back to real time. So it's not a bad day just to relaxing day and maybe that's what it's all about..

Saturday at the movies

I felt a little antsy this morning felt like I needed to get up and do something. I knew I had coffee so after getting dressed and such I headed over to the coffee shop and Janet was there a few minutes later we had a good discussion and gossip time over coffee. The day was deceptively nice this early in the morning as I rolled back to the apartment I figured I didn't want to end my day just yet and spend the rest of the day inside hunkered down watching the flat screen are doing housework. I wanted to go out and do something so I got one of the heavier hoods wrapped around my neck and took off to the bus stop. I checked the movie schedules and the one movie you have been meaning to see and just have not been able to get around to it concave was about ready to start at least they would start seeding people I still figured I had good 30 to 40 minutes before the movie actually started so I caught the bus and got there in time actually it was just barely starting. I thought it was a pretty good movie I probably should sit through it again just to see if I've missed anything - - which I'm sure I did. After all those Catholics are pretty intense. I'm not sure how much I missed as far as understanding what's going on that's why the second viewing might be worthwhile but I just don't know if I have the patience to sit through the whole thing again. It's kind of a slow moving movie but they did kind of cover the selection process and I think if I sat through the movie again it would give me better feeling for what's going on and what they did in that movie. Seemed a little convoluted to me. I was so surprised when I got finished with the movie and I checked what other movies are playing that the other movie I wanted to see with Tom Hanks the new one called here was just about to start so I rushed up paid my ticket and rolled in and sat through that show which was okay I wasn't all that impressed with it as much as the people who put it together were impressed with themselves. It was kind of weird because the whole thing was shot with one camera and one basic scene just evolving from one scene to the next it was a little scattered but somewhat enjoyable. I do think that Hanks did a good job in the movie though again like I said it was a bit disjointed for me but I'm sure everyone else is going to love it. I don't think I will sit through this one again probably not even if they paid me but never say never. As is always the case when I got out of the movie the weather was much different than when I went in. Cloud said moved in the temperature dropped and there was a threat of precipitation. I didn't feel like I wanted to wait for the bus in the cold weather so I basically wrapped my hoodie around my neck as best as I could and took off and pretty much got home without incident but I felt comfortable going in and then just turning on the heater and just slowing down for the rest of the evening. Basically I was waiting for the Jazz game to start that's a late start off at 8:00. Of course they're choking at halftime they were way behind and I don't know if they're going to be able to bring it out. Anyway Saturday night that's what it is tonight sitting down watching the Jazz drinking some coffee and maybe a cookie or two …

November now!

 That's it the calendars changed an hour into another month. The first of November this is really the gateway to the festive months of the year I think at least at the end of the year. You guys know how I feel about the 4th of July the 24th I love that part of the year but this is the end of the year the cleanup months. Holidays the big boys gift giving and gift-taking, parties festivals everything this month plus possible snow snow cloudy days and days to be inside with no judgment about have I done enough. Probably the most significant thing I've done today was take my rent check down to the office and cover my basic living space for the next month. Other than that are pretty much just stayed inside for the whole of the day. It's cool outside I wouldn't say that it's really cold actually now that I remember I did go to the market to pick up some mushrooms a can of actually a couple cans of and some bananas. I made spaghetti tonight. I've been wanting to do that for some time ever since I browned the hamburger. I kind of made a mess in the kitchen but that's what happens when I cook but it was fun I enjoyed it. It was dangerous of course but nothing happened I handled the boiling water with care drained the spaghetti out of the spaghetti sauce and the brown hamburger stirred rigorously and now I'm set for the rest of the weekend at least dinner wise or food wise. I still wouldn't mind ordering the pieces somewhere before there's lots of cheese still a little worried about my pooping when and where and how much. I'm on the long stretch now from this morning till Monday morning now I don't poop at least not scheduled. What used to be somewhat terrifying for me now it's become somewhat acceptable and basically if I poop my pants I poop my pants simple as that I figure out a way to get cleaned up and go on with my life maybe that's the lesson I really don't know. Sometimes I think something's changing with me again I've noticed the last couple days it's getting more and more difficult for me to undo the button on my shorts at night when I go to bed or I get undressed to go to bed. I don't know if this is something new or is that exactly what but I haven't had this difficulty in the past I've always been able just to get my thumb underneath the button push up and then it releases itself from the other pants other side of the pants shorts. Now it's not so easy I have not gotten to the point where it's undoable if I stick to it long enough I'm able to undo the buttons or button. It's just another thing to worry about I also seem to have a little bit more trouble pushing the pants off of my body when I get undressed it's not as quick and Swift as it used to me. It's easy to blame my chair which I do. But I think in reality something's changing and I think it's me.