November now!

 That's it the calendars changed an hour into another month. The first of November this is really the gateway to the festive months of the year I think at least at the end of the year. You guys know how I feel about the 4th of July the 24th I love that part of the year but this is the end of the year the cleanup months. Holidays the big boys gift giving and gift-taking, parties festivals everything this month plus possible snow snow cloudy days and days to be inside with no judgment about have I done enough. Probably the most significant thing I've done today was take my rent check down to the office and cover my basic living space for the next month. Other than that are pretty much just stayed inside for the whole of the day. It's cool outside I wouldn't say that it's really cold actually now that I remember I did go to the market to pick up some mushrooms a can of actually a couple cans of and some bananas. I made spaghetti tonight. I've been wanting to do that for some time ever since I browned the hamburger. I kind of made a mess in the kitchen but that's what happens when I cook but it was fun I enjoyed it. It was dangerous of course but nothing happened I handled the boiling water with care drained the spaghetti out of the spaghetti sauce and the brown hamburger stirred rigorously and now I'm set for the rest of the weekend at least dinner wise or food wise. I still wouldn't mind ordering the pieces somewhere before there's lots of cheese still a little worried about my pooping when and where and how much. I'm on the long stretch now from this morning till Monday morning now I don't poop at least not scheduled. What used to be somewhat terrifying for me now it's become somewhat acceptable and basically if I poop my pants I poop my pants simple as that I figure out a way to get cleaned up and go on with my life maybe that's the lesson I really don't know. Sometimes I think something's changing with me again I've noticed the last couple days it's getting more and more difficult for me to undo the button on my shorts at night when I go to bed or I get undressed to go to bed. I don't know if this is something new or is that exactly what but I haven't had this difficulty in the past I've always been able just to get my thumb underneath the button push up and then it releases itself from the other pants other side of the pants shorts. Now it's not so easy I have not gotten to the point where it's undoable if I stick to it long enough I'm able to undo the buttons or button. It's just another thing to worry about I also seem to have a little bit more trouble pushing the pants off of my body when I get undressed it's not as quick and Swift as it used to me. It's easy to blame my chair which I do. But I think in reality something's changing and I think it's me.