Suffering Sunday

 I kind of freaked out last night. Well maybe freaked out is too strong a word but for some reason I didn't realize I was peeing in my pants yesterday and so I was sitting on a pretty soggy cushioned by the time I went to bed. One of my big fears is going out in public with urine smell on my body. I'm sure it happens a lot more than I realize but I've been around enough other people who smell like pee to know that I don't want it to happen to me. I guess it's really no big deal but the early morning hours before getting up I was kind of making it a big deal in my head. There is no breakfast this morning as usual on Sunday we have breakfast but Mark's out of town and Jasmine's busy with her school stuff. So I wasn't too worried about spelling like pee if I don't or if there's nobody around me cuz I don't go out but if I do go out then I'm kind of in trouble. I was hoping that the order would sort of dissipate with the cushion drawing by the time that I got up but didn't seem like that was happening. There were no checks and stuff by the bed either which sort of loved me out however I finagled the pad that I was laying on out from underneath me and I was able to stretch that over my seating or my wheelchair seat and make the transfer over. It was a little after 6:00 a.m. but I felt pretty decent except for the urine soaked cushion. I was also afraid that the urine had burned my skin more than I anticipated. This was in the early morning hours and sometimes my imagination gets carried away at this point in time once I got up and I was on the pad covered wheelchair seat/ cushion I wasn't nearly as freaked out as I was thinking about what was going on. I got up rolled around got a drink drained my ladder the usual morning things and then I finagled the Paradox underneath me which was a real struggle but I got it done. I may have been a denial but I feel like I didn't smell as bad now as I thought that it would. I still wasn't going out to breakfast I had some great breakfast left over from yesterday that I finished off in a couple snacks here and there I got through the day okay. Didn't see anybody which is probably a blessing but I think I was probably okay oder wise even if I did meet somebody. The day was relatively warm I thought about going out reading in the sunshine but when I finally got around to doing at the heat of the day it passed and it was beginning to chill out with a small Breeze blowing and then of course the Utah Jazz choke again. The jazz is only won one game this season so far. Maybe that's As Good As It Gets who knows…?