Fridays fuss

 I don't know if I would have gone out even if I had a chair that was functional today. It was just too overcast and quite frankly cold. And as always if I don't have a reason to go out I'm not going to go out just to be out though I need to rethink that statement at some point. Because there is a part of me that feels I need to be out just so that I can tell people that I've been out and I'm doing something. I've been experiencing guilt at not living my life to its fullest I guess. I don't know if that's fair to write but that's how I feel sometimes when I don't take advantage of how good the days are and I elect to stay home, inside watching the dreaded flat screen.

Once again I had a wheelchair problem. It came about sometime yesterday afternoon or evening and the left side of my wheelchair, the arm mechanism on the left side it's a very complicated piece of machinery- at least it is to me. It seems, periodically the armrest itself will actually slide out from the Barbara's tray built into the arm itself. It's almost like there was a set screw or something that has come loose and when that happens the arm rest itself are the padded arm rest will slide out of the arm mechanism making it very difficult for me to try to set up and stuff cuz I really depend on that arm being fixed so I can pull myself up all during the day. When the arm comes off it exposes just the hard metal that's really digs into my skin every time I pull myself up to a sitting position or try to pull myself up to a sitting position. I tried to fix it myself which I can never do it's just something I cannot do and finally I elected to call my older brother who is just great at this kind of things. Earlier in the day I put a message on his social media messenger but never got back and finally in the afternoon I gave him a call on his cell phone and luckily he was happy to be at the market not too far from my place kind of and he came right over and with what little tools I had we were able to fix the armrest and get it back into working order at least let me have the rest of the afternoon and evening with an armrest I can depend on to pull myself up into the sitting position as best as I can. By this point in time I was deep into watching The Avengers trilogy and so I did break time to make some dinner which I actually cooked something I have been thinking about for a long time. It's Polly pie type casserole made with one can of canned tamales, one can of chili one can Frijoles and a frozen tamale that I got from Costco. They're really large tamales quite good actually threw them all into the 8x8 pan that I've got and cook them for 30 minutes at 3 50° I covered them with the rest of my shredded cheese as well as Fritos I still had some left in the bag I threw those on. Afterwards I thought about I should have opened up a can of olives and mixed with it as well that would have been really good. Anyway cook them, and had a bowl of that rule for dinner it was pretty decent actually I thought so I'm not even try to use the filling and make some tortillas or a burrito of some sort out of them I don't know if that would work I have both flour and corn tortillas I think that would be decent I'll let you know what I do. That was pretty much it for the day though I don't think I even went 2 miles. It was nice having my caretaker back this morning seems like she had been gone a long time.