Monday's perspective

 I spend it for the day trying to get my head around this whole issue of what I'm going to do regarding on file Social Security years. I try to think of discussions I can have with us Social Security official about why didn't I file even if I didn't know anything. All the excuses with some pretty lame because they are. The best excuse I have right now is that my significant other and whatever relationship I was in of the three marriages took control of that particular event and such type of things that had to be done- - and done right. I would see them do these bureaucratic things and just wonder how they figure things out. I think it's all still part of my system trying to grow up and be the adult in my life. That's really a sad comment on my life. I could blame it on the wreck and that basically stopped my interior aging process when I had the trauma on or in my 15th year. Never had a real job ever anything like that for most kids start actually learning how to do all these basic things like paying your taxes or filing your taxes. I never really had to do that since I didn't have a job during those formative years but most kids are doing this kind of stuff. That's a great excuse to me but I don't know if the feds are goin-g to buy it. And I really don't want to play my hand before I'm ready. There's a part of me deep down saying I'm really making too much out of this whole idea of that they're going to really come down on me hard. I was visiting with my old friend who used to be my boss in another world and another time. He's been living as a out of the country America and Mexico the last couple of years almost a decade. Who is not far from the border so he can go across the border to do is American Business stuff when he has to. I was enamored with his whole life process living as in strange to American in another land. I thought he was kind of living the good life. Couple days ago things went crazy in Mexico when this major crime Lord boss was murdered. The city and state has seemed to explode with the cartels and mob bosses literally stopping vehicles on the street, pulling the drivers out and whoever else might be in the vehicle and torching the vehicle. My friend is now terrified to leave the house for fear that that might happen to him. He's questioning his decision to live in Mexico under the radar. His fear on returning to the USA would be what does he avoided? Has his Excursion into the Mexican Countryside been legal and what has he got to catch up on US citizen wise and probably most important how's he going to get out of a hot country even if it's Mexico and get back to good old San Diego? After hearing his story kind of put mine into perspective. I may get some good tongue-lashings and maybe even significant finds but they're not going to pull me out of my chair throw me on the street and sit fire to my power chair. My problems aren't happy problems but they're not dangerous problems either everything's.. perspective.