Saturday satisfaction

 Finally a decent day for traveling, although I didn't do much I did get dressed up a little bitheaded out in to the almost clear early spring sky. I wasn't going far just to the market across the street to pick up a few things for this evening- - you know take advantage of treats for the Utah Jazz game. I'm in the middle of it now we're losing of course- - it's halftime and I think we're down like six or seven points. I don't know if the boys will have it in them to climb out of this hole they seem to be making a value of effort however. I haven't seen them make a stupid moves as I have seen them doing earlier this season. I can feel myself becoming weaker as far as self-discipline goes. Remember I indicated I was basically going to use the shopping feature where the Market does the shopping for you and drops it off at your house and some cases actually puts the groceries on the table I think they would even put them away from me if I asked- but I'm not there yet. I asked for my regular box when I got to the market. I always go over to the fresh vegetables and such and I've Got a Friend there who will pull one of the good cartons I can use for lap basket. There's something about an empty lap box that desires to be filled. I had a quasi list when I came in to the market just the usual so fresh fruit, dairy products I eat cottage cheese and ice cream products. Today I got some Asian food which kind of excites me but the packages I'd like to have gotten was a larger package that would have been much too big for the basket. But I thought to myself I should make a note of this so the next time I purchase something for home delivery this is on the list. And I noticed myself doing this on more and more items but I think are too heavy or awkward to carry on my lap and this is true but still I'm beginning to spend more than I anticipated which kind of freaks me out. I soothe Myself by telling me I'm just getting stuff that I kind of need. The heavy things like the fresh vegetables I eat broccoli, lettuce, grapes etc etc things that I would and will purchase myself and not leave for the poor overworked marketing staff. I got chips and Frozen Craven treats. I even got bananas, baby carrots and way too many grapes. I'm such a sucker for the grapes if they're even halfway firm I'll purchase 2 lb. Craven is the company that's associated with the market that makes all the items similar to those manufactured by big name corporations. This group of individuals make parts of the Asian dinners that I've always wanted to try but have been somewhat intimidated. I bought some beef and broccoli as well as generalized Food Group. I eventually wanted to get more of these items but when I feel more comfortable doing the phone purchasing.

It was not a huge trip to the market but I got a better grasp of things I can order via the Internet and I keep saying things like I want to keep doing my own shopping for things that are important like fresh vegetables and such. I don't know how long I'll hold out but I can sense myself even now as spring turns into summer going over to see the food I want to purchase and purchase the food I want to eat. I hope I get to see another winter that would be nice…