Tuesday's test

 It's going to be subtle, very very subtle. Two nights ago I was watching the 5:00 news and they had a story on about a local ad who has some kind of progressive cancer any severely in need of specialized medical intervention and as of the day they did the interview he had been informed that he was not going to get anymore support because the agency a program that was doing that has been dismantled. The kids going to die there's no question about it it's a matter of time probably sooner than later but the bottom line is the kid is a goner. Aside from the news story coverage on the 5:00 news no one else is going to know about this really except for the kids family and sadly this is going to become more and more the case as more and more Federal programs get shut down. I certainly wish it weren't the case but reality is a Stern teacher and you just can't fight reality. Over the past couple of years I've got on or found a number of disability chat lines or chats or whatever they're called and I tend to lurk on these sites just to see what people are saying. Every once in awhile I will add my two cents to the discussions but I don't do that very often. I was kind of shocked to see how many of the folks out there think the same way that I did or do. I thought I was pretty much alone in the situation smarter than the norm looking past the obvious and checking in to see what really is happening but these folks have a good handle on the situation as well. Today I was looking at a number of the chats about exiting the country. It's then I realized that to exit the country you've got to leave a place where you don't want to be anymore and ask to go to a place to accept you. I guess that's the whole thing about a passport. I thought it was just a document you got so you could go from one country to the next but there seems to be a lot of stuff about that country wanted to accept you in the first place. Oh sure, you can visit but don't expect to live there if you can't be a physical specimen that doesn't take many government resources. It makes sense I can understand this. This made me think I can't go wherever I want to go because I won't have supports to go with me! That means I'm relatively useless as an individual if I go somewhere that doesn't have some form of Social Security or SSI or if I don't have exercise going with me I'm just SOL. The beauty of this form of genocide is that no one has to take responsibility. If there's no social security it's nobody's fault when you show up for a doctor's visit/emergency room visit and they won't take you because you have no way to pay for the services. They essentially tell you to go home and die! Nobody cares cuz no one has to take responsibility and it's just one more disabled person gone from the vision of the world in general. Right now with my Social Security SSI and such I'm living pretty good I've got enough money for food and clothes and stuff plus a decent apartment without which I would probably be one of these homeless guys I see on the train everyday I don't know how long I could be homeless before things really did go south but I wonder when I see these guys bundled up against the weather carrying around some form of mattress to sleep on they are barely surviving. So I guess tonight when I say my prayers before I wander off into sleep on that I think the Lord for the great living situation I have right now and pray to extend it for as long as possible..