I totally fell off the weight watcher
wagon today I feel. I apologize for being so focused on this weight
issue I am involved with. I just couldn't handle annotating every
single thing I ate today. I did not eat that much, I don't think it's
just I didn't have the patience to go through the whole process of
running the numbers to come up with a set of points for whatever I
was eating. I felt defeated on Friday when we did the weigh-in and
realized that I for all the work I did, I only lost two points or two
tenths of the kilogram.
I binged! I ate two wieners in one
setting! I also had about five soda crackers with the hot dogs maybe
a bit more crackers. I think I'm looking at six combined points. The
soda crackers I think are low point counters but I can check. The
point I'm getting to is that I think I might be trying to justify my
bad behavior. Because I think at the end of this day I didn't msss up
too bad but I just don't have those items annotated. I did not write
the data down. I think part of my frustration also came from trying
to write the data down in this little small notebook I have been
using. It just does not lend itself to this kind of data and to be
honest I am messy night right messy and I think that's what
frustrates me too. I'd like my data to be neat, academically neat
but neatness has been a skill set which has eluded me my entire life.
So tomorrow my weight watcher coach
Dana will be here to do my morning routine which well include a pep
talk least Dana seems to every time she's here. She does a great job
and I definitely need the support and encouragement. I will do my
work out some time tomorrow 30 minutes on the bike and I'm trying to
get back into the rickshaw with a couple go at its and I think I need
to build up my endurance to the hundred rep level. I tried so far
I've only gotten to 60 reps. I experienced pain on my right side
shoulder. So apparently I'm out of shape and I will have to work
myself back up. The point being also is that the 30 minutes and
whenever I do on the rickshaw allows me to eat a little more. Just
writing about eating more food makes you feel pathetic and how
dependent on food I seem to be.
Yesterday morning I went over to the
food bank which is right across street from my apartment complex. I
actually got frozen chicken and some frozen ham. I wanted to use the
chicken to make more chicken frank for this week. I never got around
to it because of the bobs I purchased in the “quick sale”
section. I thawed the chicken breast and so it needs to be used.
Hopefully, tomorrow I can get to that. Even if I have to freeze what
I make that's okay I like having prepared meals. I made some rice and
I made Spanish rice out of most of it this morning. Now I just plan
to use the Spanish rice to make some dinner plates of rice tamales
and refried beans.… I have worked at the point value for this dish
is not bad as well as tasty.
I kind of feel like a failure tonight,
embarrassed at how much my life revolves around food and ingestion
hopefully that will not always be the case.
No comments:
Post a Comment