Numbers end

It's another one of those days for I should just be whipped for not taking more advantage of the day that I did. Seriously all I did today was watch the flat screen it's quite enjoyable but still I should be doing more with my days than just watching something on a big old flat screen though I don't know if it would make it any difference than watching on the big old screen at the movie house. The only difference would be the age of the movies I'm watching and the fact that I didn't have to get cold to watch the movie on the big screen in my apartment. However though I do have some guilt for basically poo poo in the day away. I am feeling a little unsettled however I don't want to be too far away for the bathroom but that's not it I could have gone wherever I wanted to especially with the new batteries had really need to see how well they work and what kind of range I get from them but that things I can do next week hopefully. The high pressure system should be over the area for some time meaning the days will be clear more or less and then the 40s temperature wise not a bad temperature for cruising in. I do admit my butt is a little tender however I need to be careful.

I got a text from one of my old friends Almost Al, one of the older friends I have here along the Wasatch Front. We used to work together decades ago at the Independent Living Center but we've just never really totally lost contact. In fact most of the contact we do do is over the internet and perhaps that's best. But, he made the comment that this year has family has given up on him and he didn't get any invites to Thanksgiving dinner. I can certainly identify as far as the family giving up on us. Mine probably would have done a lot sooner had my mom not been in the area here she has a way of twisting arms and guilting people into doing what she wants them to do. But with her gone things have gotten a bit LAX it seems like I would have been dumped a lot earlier if mom hadn't been around to twist arms to make sure I was included in stuff- I may be totally wrong but it just seems that way anyway I understand what Alan's talking about. Luckily I didn't have to deal with that this year thanks to my grandkid he seems to really watch out for me- - which I truly appreciate. I haven't really responded to my friends text yet but I'm really cuz I really don't know what to say. They're fairly knit closely to family it seems to me but actually I listen to a podcast the other day and it was an interesting discussion about pretty LDS families and if you don't fit in maybe you just don't get in. Really interesting podcast however and seems to be this exact same thing of course I'm in denial thinking that this isn't the case with me there are too many other issues that make it difficult to hang out with me because of the power chair and being able to get into people's homes and stuff that's the reason. You guys are probably right I'm in total denial and not even close to Egypt.

Friday's folly

 It was so good be back in my chair for the full day today. My butt feels so much better it's unbelievable I really thought I was getting some skin breakdown from that other chair. The cushion just doesn't protect as well for one reason or another as the chair I'm in right now. I really didn't go anywhere today except across the street for some fruit at the Macy's Market. Feels great to have a chair with new batteries. It probably runs just the same but it feels a lot more spunky than before. I hope it's not just my imagination I don't have any plans for any major outings in the near future just because it's so cold outside. That could be the  wuss se inside me me talking an hour. Even though they temperatures are supposed to be pretty cool on the trip over to the store I was dressed in my heavy hoods I did okay so as long as the high pressure system holds maybe it will go out and do some tripping around if I get totally motivated. I don't want to histrionic but yesterday and today but having these fairly severe pains off and on and by left arm. It's not anything too dismal I don't believe and I think it has something to do with the fact that my left side I'm always pulling myself up into the right position in my chair and somehow I've sprained something. But that's all I would need is to lose one of my arms in my basic living scenario I don't know what I would do. I'm getting these thoughts more and more they're only that somewhere out there is a number and I will eventually have to figure out what the next step is as far as independent living then going to more dependent lifestyle I don't know how I would make that transition but I guess everybody has to if they live long enough. Of course my biggest issue would be the cost involved and if there will be any money left at that point in time. I was going through a few postings in the internet this morning or this afternoon and people are finally talking about what the new president's budget might mean for people on Social Security and similar benefit programs. They could be coming to a close as we know them and I'm not sure what the the new answer might be if answer at all.

I was so pleased, for dinner I a complete Thanksgiving dinner again. I even had whipped cream on my pumpkin pie. I was kind of surprised how quickly I went through the leftovers I still have a few left over a lot of turkey however. I might freeze a bunch of it for later on. I have enough left for another dinner at least or lunch and perhaps enough for a couple sandwiches. This morning I put the letters into the envelopes that I printed yesterday. I put the letters in and I put the money in those that get it are getting money and so that is going to be finished when I drop them in the mail either tomorrow or Sunday I don't think it matters actually. After I sealed and stamped the envelopes I sent them aside then watched a number of movies that I'd need to finish then got to my blog. I hope your day after Thanksgiving was great mine basically was…

Holiday stress

I'm really not trying to be paranoid but I think electronics are out to get me. For one reason or another I don't know but my power wheelchair, the backup chair, has all the sudden began to malfunction. Luckily it's not where those malfunctions where it just stops going and becomes a piece of rock or something like a 300 lb Rock but what is happening is that the electronics seem to be somewhat messed up and it keeps flashing weird signs on my driving mechanism and throwing me out of various functions for example my Forward Motion function becomes somewhat invisible as well as the chair placement modality whether I'm at a tilt or raising up and down are raising my foot pedals Etc. I think the functions are all there but they're being masked by these signs that flash up and cover everything on the viewing screens with my drive mechanism. So I can actually drive the chair but it's a hit and miss proposition trying to get the computer on a chair in the right position so the chair will either drive forward backwards are well rise up and down. It's very frustrating and I would really be frightened especially since this is a holiday weekend of course which means there's nobody that can pay attention to me. The only bright spot is that remember yesterday they picked up my chair- - that's the reason I'm in this chair- - and they will be bringing it back this evening sometime between 6:00 and 9:00 p.m. which really doesn't do me a whole lot of good right now until I can get myself transferred back into the chair which is a whole nother trauma sense tomorrow is Thanksgiving and I would have to find somebody IE family or someone else who could operate the lift to transfer me out of this chair move this cushion and stuff over to the repair chair and so forth. It's all doable but it's going to take some fast talking and some real sacrifice of folks too interrupt their holiday enjoyments to help out the poor guy in the chair. And did I say I was going to do all the food prep for the holiday tomorrow today. Well that's not really getting done and the apartment is a mess hopefully the grandkids will look past this since they're basically doing this Thanksgiving dinner event for me anyway so maybe it's just as well still kind of frustrating. I'm just holding my breath that everything works out all right and my regular chair comes back as promised .

A bit of an update it just so happens soon after I finished this morning's blog I got a call that my chair was being delivered in a few hours. That's great because my regular chair was really going cuckoo I could barely get it to engage so I could drive the chair. That part of the problem finally settle down and my chair did arrive but now I have no way to get into it because I have to get the cushion I'm sitting on into that chair and then have somebody lift me up in my sling lift to set me down in that chair. Maybe I can get my grandkids to do it tomorrow if they show up for Thanksgiving. As for that that's a whole nother posting. I've just got to stop getting myself into these volunteer situations that I can't pull off anymore and actually maybe I never could pull them off in the first place without a lot of help from people around me that I never really thought through. I had two things to make green bean casserole and the dressing and as of tonight very late I have the dressing made it's not very pretty and my apartment looks like a bomb went off. Maybe the kids will just drop the food off and leave I don't know what their plans are and I can't get a hold of anybody. I think I was happy when I just had this do myself the holiday all by myself. I really must be broken...

Tuesday's post

This is an image of my power chair waiting patiently in the hallway just outside of my apartment waiting for the driver from the wheelchair shop to pick it up to go in for repairs. We'd scheduled to have this chair picked up between 10:00 and 3:00 today but obviously that did not happen. It's Tuesday so of course I was supposed to go into the shop for my meeting but last week we indicated that there wouldn't be a meeting today. Then I was contacting last night to indicate there was a meeting which eventually turned out to be a mistake. Still however I did not go anywhere today wanted to make sure this chair got into the shop and got the work done before the holiday. That'll also means I'm sitting in my backup chair which is really quite an inferior piece of equipment compared to what I really need particularly on my butt. In this chair I sit up way too straight and puts all the weight on my right issue butt tissue which always terrifies me that I'm getting skin breakdown- which I probably am but my caregiver always says I'm okay and I'm always taking her word. There has been no skin breakdown yet. So I don't know where the driver's at and whether my chair will be picked up tonight. Oddly, I just answered my cell phone and sure enough there's the driver 10 to 15 minutes out to pick up my chair so everything's good. Of course I'm too lazy to trash this entry since it's no longer viable but still it'll express my concern for them not letting me know that they were going to do a later chair pickup.

I'm dictating this entry quite earlier than usual. There's a jazz game on tonight that I will be watching to see if they can replicate there when that they did a couple nights ago. They actually won a game against the New York Knicks I was really quite surprised. So tonight I will be watching and hoping they continue to keep their winning streak going. They have been doing well this year at least it doesn't seem like it to me. I hope they do well tonight just because I really want to be part of something that's winning. There's other things I should be doing or could be doing. I want to put together some oatmeal cookies not because it's Christmas time or Thanksgiving or whatever but because I would like some real live homemade oatmeal cookies. I've gotten tired of the ones I buy from the dollar store that's that's what are not bad but they're not really good good either. Maybe I just want something from the old days in the old ways. I've got raisins and I've got walnuts so if I add those to the mix I should be a happy camper and then cook them until they're very cookie-like. I don't like soft cookies not really. I just want a nice round well cooked cookie with a lot of flavor and a lot of crunch is that asking for too 

TG Jitters

It looks like a nice day but it was terribly cold least cold to me. I'm beginning to feel the pressure that I've got myself into and p1lanning and thinking about having a Thanksgiving dinner. I'm beginning to sweat the whole idea. I started getting an ingredients together for the different items I'd like to have. I got a couple of backup onions today from the market as well as celery and some carrot sticks. It's amazing carrot sticks cost as much as regular carrots and they're already processed pretty interesting. Solid tray with celery sticks carrot sticks at olives and who knows what else. I've got the bakings for dressing the turkey dressing. It's basically just a box of stove top dressing that I want to dress up with real dressing items like onions and bread or butter and chicken broth items that you need for hopefully a tasty sage dressing. And that's really all I'm really supposed to do I guess. I just hope this thing turns out and going to see if we can pull it off for the big room. We've used it before that turned out basically okay no it's just a matter of bringing it and putting it all together.

I've had my back at church charging all day so the batteries, what they are, should be stoked up for the 100%. Melissa will be by Tuesday Morning / tomorrow and we'll do the transfer into the old chair and we'll get the new chair and this chair ready to go back to the shop for some more working and hopefully to trade out the batteries. I didn't go far today and I don't have any indicators that I'm losing power so I'm okay for tonight and if I don't think I even need to charge it because it's just going to be going from here to the truck and for the truck to the shop and then they're going to trade out batteries hopefully I'll have to do course I'll be back able to do some real distance rolling hopefully soon. Not get this got a call from Jennifer this afternoon indicating that if it's too wet tomorrow too snowy not to come in for the meeting. Meeting!? I made a point last week when we finished our assist meeting that we won't have another meeting they said they weren't and when I left I yelled Happy Thanksgiving to everybody like I went to see him again until afterwards and now they're thinking of having a meeting on top of everything else I scheduled to have the chair picked up tomorrow and I'm not really sure when that time is going to be except it's going to be probably in the mid-afternoon but I don't want to have to go to the meeting and back again and try to do it all under some kind of time frame and to do it and pour gunky weather I just don't need that. So I'm going to have to tell him that I'm not going to be able to make the meeting tomorrow. And I can't think of why they're having a meeting there's not enough folks to be adjudicated for a meeting I don't know it's pretty complicated to me sometimes anyway. It's been a day a good day I had my coveted beef chow mein that I've been saving for weeks tonight for dinner and boy is it salty certainly not to dish that I wanted it to be but it wasn't bad for a dinner anyway tomorrow we're closer Thanksgiving Day

Happy Thanksgiving week!

 

My granddaughter finally got back from her 10-day Cruise, she was one of the maids of Honor at a married marriage on the sea of whatever best friends and so she was able to meet with us for breakfast this morning. Was really great to see her. I missed her actually she's become part of the Sunday breakfast crew. Just granddaughter has really taken on the challenge of looking after her grandfather in various ways one in particular is making sure that his door is decorated properly for whatever season/holiday might be in Vogue. It's been one thing I've kind of been interested in since moving to this apartment complex since everyone seems to Delight in dressing up there entryway. I guess it's a small thing but the people around here are totally enjoy dressing up their doors and I started to do the same. We had meant to do this earlier than today we had decorated the door for summer and then for Halloween with the wreath, spiders and skeleton. and I wanted to have something for Thanksgiving and we did the door today even though it's just Thanksgiving week now and it'll be over and a few days that's okay it'll be enjoyable to do that for a couple of days but then we'll have a shoe in for the Christmas time door decoration. 

Following breakfast the kids came over to the apartment complex and we worked on the door for a couple of hours. It was really great fun sit around the kitchen table with construction paper cutting, coloring and gluing various aspects of the decoration. I did find that I needed to get more construction paper of different colors especially if this is going to be an ongoing thing. Couldn't find a glue stick I know we had one cuz we used it for the Halloween Construction project. So I need to invest in glue sticks colored construction paper and maybe a colored felt tip art pen set. I wish I had taken some images of the kids as we worked on the decoration but I neglected to do so fortunately however I did have the wherewithal to roll out in the hall this evening and take a couple images. I don't know how they'll come out and I don't know if they'll show the writing on the inside of the wreath which says Happy Thanksgiving. Of course you'll notice the wreath is the same one we used for the Halloween exhibit/decoration. Not that it really matters but it's kind of nice to be part of the door decoration group here at the apartment complex. It's kind of a new experience for me I'm usually not part of the group effort on something like this but now things are important to me that perhaps haven't been so much in the past. I don't know which is more exciting to me decorating the door or having this incredibly fun social time with my granddaughter. I worry a little bit that the other granddaughters will feel a little bit jaded because I'm not spending more time with them but it's a logistics thing I guess in a different world perhaps things would be different. I do however enjoy their letters and whatever Communications we do enjoy. This whole grandkid thing is pretty interesting…

Sailing through Saturday

 I was on my own today I got Communications last night that Janet upstairs Janet was not be joining me today for coffee over at the coffee shop. This is not a big deal it basically just means I go over and sit by myself at the coffee shop for an extended period of time listening to other people talking their little groups and such. It was a regular Saturday morning at the coffee shop usual amount of people sitting in the two big rows yapping and yammering about who knows what. After about an hour I'd had my fill and ended up going back to the apartment where I stayed for the remainder of the day. Today was actually kind of warm but cloudy and overcast making the perfect day to stay inside. I spent the day basically cleaning up, empty and garbage cans taking oversized bundles of garbage out to the dumpster and trying to heat it into the dumpster. I'd let the kitchen garbage can get too full and I take responsibility for that. That was kind of stupid. I had Melissa dump the rest of the shredded shreddings into the garbage she did a good job packed up pretty tight but they're all loose inside the garbage can of course when I tried to take it out it was too heavy for me to lift I dragged it and of course eventually tore a hole of the side a lot of these shreddings escaped especially with the brisk wind blowing. I made a major mess, luckily my neighbor Betty came by helped me throw it into the dumpster. What was left cleaned up the best one I could let the wind take care of the rest which it did quite admirably. I bake the pizza this evening, the Pizza that I got from the market couple days ago. It's a cheap one but it's good enough for me for Saturday night. I mean sure I could have ordered a Domino's Pizza which I would have adored but it's way too much food and I don't know if I can keep myself from not eating too much. It's a few days still before I get to poop again and I still have breakfast to go through tomorrow at least before Monday morning. Hopefully I'll make it. I did eat one fourth of the pizza it was pretty good for what it was I kind of overcooked the thing but that's okay that's the way I like it I still have enough to get with you a day or two. Mark's been on contact and looks like we'll be doing breakfast in the morning so that's taken care of. I don't know if Jasmine Jackson will join us in the morning it's hard to say but at least I'll be able to hang out with Mark for a little bit. The weather supposed to take it down turn get colder and wet for tomorrow so it looks like it'll be another day of staying inside. I've got the pizza to keep me company and who knows maybe I'll even make a cake.

JFK day?

 If my memory serves me correctly I was standing in line waiting to get a hamburger or hot dog or something from The Grill at The Hornet's Nest, a small soda and grill shop next to our Junior High School, East Junior High in Boise Idaho. The place gets crowded at lunch time totally stuffed with 7th 8th and 9th graders trying to grab lunch in the conversation and be seen at this cool little shop. The radio is always going playing Hit Radio songs from the 1963 era when all the sudden the music's interrupted and a radio voice starts blabbering over the crowds General Roar, a little bit by a little bit however the crowd quiets down as a subject matter of the announcer becomes clear John F Kennedy had been shot in Dallas Texas. Within seconds the entire shop was dead silent nobody knew what to say nobody dared say anything because this was just something on the radio it wasn't really real… was it? Quietly we waited out the rest of the lunch hour and return to our fifth period classes and it was then that the principal over the intercom announced that the president had been shot and was indeed dead. I think I was at math class or maybe it was some other math type class and the girls started crying I couldn't believe it. The guys just looked around dumbfounded and minutes after that they closed the whole school down. Buses were ordered and soon we were on the way home. I can't believe it's been 61 years since that day. I still remember it just like the crochet says just like yesterday.

Such a controversial event I'm totally surprised even now there's never really been a JFK day, a national holiday. I don't know if November could deal with another holiday since I've got two national holidays to begin with a third one might be just too much particularly since it was a Democrat. But I think everybody who was there or Alive at the time and cognizant of what was going on thinks the same thing why hasn't been more done with the whole event. Maybe I'm just naive I don't understand things that are too powerful or possibly explosive. I wish my family had voted for him but we were Republicans- I didn't really understand the differentials too much then all I knew was that for one reason or another I no longer sat with my best friend John who has a great Catholic and a great Democrat. Remember once on the bus right after the event that for some reason my pencil dropped and rolled down the eye of the bus tell my friend John picked it up looked at me and broke it. Such a small thing but totally broke my heart for some reason. I was in the 7th grade at the time. Junior High felt like a universe away from grade school and I just figured crisis like the assassination of a president went along with the turf of seventh grade..

AI just leave me alone

 I hate to sound paranoid but in actuality I think I'm becoming more and more paranoid of the whole AI thing. Hopefully I'm not saying myself up for being spied on by a local AI but who knows? These AIS are popping up everywhere and I don't know how to battle it. There's been an AI who's been pursuing me on my equipment my electronic equipment of course. Seems like every morning when I turn on my equipment the AI is there begging for me to use it and I just refuse to use it and I try to eliminate the AI by deleted it from my tablets but they show up again the next day. It really is beginning to sound like a Twilight Zone episode. What kind of worries me every time I do this is going to offend the AI and if so what kind of Retribution will he/ she/it rain down upon me? I know this sounds a little farceful but the more that I go through this exercise of elimination the more I begin to feel that I'm being scrutinized far more than I ever thought that I should and if you elect not to use the AI does it become offended and then turn that hurt feelings into Revenge. At this point it's all just kind of sarcastic on my part or whatever but I have to admit I'm getting a little uncomfortable having to look in my message folder, which says I have and message in there, and realize it's just the AI trying to get itself noticed by me. Telling me how much it wants to serve me and telling me how much it wants to do searches for me it just doesn't sit right with me. It's the stuff TV movies are made from maybe even high budget movies actually don't forget 2001.

The day today was absolutely beautiful which is difficult to say in the middle of November or late November now. I overdressed where a heavy Hood and I went to the credit union in my area. At the assist meeting on Tuesday I was pleasantly surprised when I was presented with a stipend check. The new director of assist who's been there now for a number of years so I guess he's not new anymore has really changed the situation as far as stipend checks we used to never get them maybe once a year possibly but as a rule we didn't we served for free what's the way I wanted to do it since I got time off from my office to attend these meetings cuz it's part of my job. But now every couple months I get to stipend check it's not very much less than $100 but it's nice to get one to be notified of how important you are to the organization and the other is just a few extra dollars you don't have to pull out of the of my bank regular account. I can actually cruise on the change until payday which is kind of fun and I was able to pull a row of quarters out of the stipend. But more than anything else it was great being out in the outdoors in the warm days of November

Pre Thanksgiving feast!

 Today was the annual pre Thanksgiving Thanksgiving Day dinner which is a potluck pretty much with the main protein serviced are provided by the agency that owns the property. That means that someone gets to be elevated to some sort of leader type of the project and then everything goes to hell. There has been Thanksgiving dinners in the past that have been frightful but today's went off relatively well they're just a little bit of chaos that's to be expected when they try to have two lines go down the food Channel to fill up their plates and you're mixing seniors very old seniors with people Wheelchairs and Walkers and all kinds of other things that get in the way of people who can barely walk and let alone hear each other or speak. Anyway that was the function today. I've learned over the years just let everyone go in front of me and it's not as nearly as threatening us trying to Corn myself in front of everyone else and today I Almost Got Away With It. The problem today was Big Jim. Big Jim's is Old Brooklyn Teamster who is really an interesting fellow and I like I like him quite a bit. He's not totally deaf he's not Stone death but he has a hard time hearing and he's pretty old one of the older guys here and pretty much thinks he knows the way things are to go. Now over the years they've had people come into these functions and sit down at tables and once everyone's sitting down at the tables they try to have one table at a time get up and go through the food line get the food come back and sit down and then the other table gets up well today by the time I got there almost the tables were taken and I was just trying to figure out where I was going to sit but the first table right next to the food was empty and that's because they started the whole process so they are all up and in the chow line but it looked like that table was empty and that's what Jim saw and he started waving me over and it was a mess I told him no that's okay I'll come over here but he wouldn't have it he wouldn't take care of the disabled guy and that was me and I swear I was going to sit and so then the old ladies came back so it's happening sort of figured out what was happening and they all ended up finding someplace else and so Jim and I were sitting down there at the table. By this point in time the food was pretty well cold by then there's still quite a bit of food left though I got some pretty nice dressing, couple pieces of pretty decent turkey and some nice pieces of ham plus mashed potatoes which are pretty cold and so was the gravy that went on top but they had big giant pies from Costco so I loaded up on one pie ce of pie. It was relatively quiet chaos a lot of shouting going on because a lot of people just can't hear but I would probably give it a 85% over years past when some really mess ups have gone on. I got a couple cookies filled up my plate as much as I could one last time and headed for my apartment in hopes of having a second Thanksgiving dinner in the evening. Would have been better if there's been a Utah Jazz game tonight so I can watch them lose but enjoy the free holiday treat…

Back on the bus and Train

 It seemed all the what the guys could talk about last night and this morning was to be how cold it was going to be. How the temperature would be down below freezing and we all should be careful and I kind of bought into it actually- - and I'm smarter than that seriously I am. So I was kind of surprised this morning when I took off and rolled out of the morning sunshine and boy it was brisk and I had on my red warm coat I wasn't too cold actually and I rolled up to the bus stop and hung out there in the Sun for about 15-20 minutes before the 47 came to pick me up and it wasn't too bad. There was no wind and we're no clouds to block what little radiant energy was coming down so I just sort of laid myself back in the chair and enjoyed the morning watching the Jets come in from the East 5 to 10 minutes apart as long as I was sitting in the bus stop. I really believe- - and I've talked about this before I know - - that the weather guys just try to dress up the weather as much as they can to make it as significant to them and they're viewing public I guess but kind of is a disservice. Now, the cold systems passed and the next couple days are going to be warmer than normal which is pretty exciting to me because I don't think I have anything scheduled so maybe I can go out and do some rolling to a limited degree because I'm seriously suffering from Battery fatigue. The good thing about my battery fatigue is that I got word today that I am approved for new batteries as well as some upgrades to the chair that needs definitely to be fixed. Of course, that also means I have to give up my chair for a 24-hour period which means I have to schedule time with my caregiver to get me out of my chair the night before they pick it up. Turn around will be 24 hours so I won't be that big of a deal. They're picking up my chair 3 days before Thanksgiving and should have it back bye Thanksgiving not that matters but having some extended battery time would be great. Today I went just under 3.5 MI before I started getting the flashing signal that I'm running out of energy and I should be charging fast luckily I was nearly home when that happened and I was able to charge up enough during my arm bike hour to give me enough charge for the rest of the day since I wasn't going anywhere and just hanging around the apartment. Unless I get called out for something else in the week like a restaurant run or or something I need from the market I don't plan to be out too much unless I end up taking my charger with me. This is certainly awkward but doable. What I would do like if I were to go up to watch the movie or something drag the box with me then plug it in while I was at the movies to make sure I had enough power to get home. I might be overreacting..

Ps this image has nothing to do with today's post except that I stopped at fast food joint after I had finished my volunteer time at ASSIST inc you can't see it but there's a corn dog buried underneath the packets of mustard of course which I cannot use but the onion rings are great as was the corn dog

Mondays chill

 It's cold outside feels like winter is finally arrived. I really wouldn't know because I haven't been outside today. I've spent the day trying to stay warm looking outside the window of my apartment. It's not like I haven't done anything. I worked out on my own bike pumped for an hour then I had my friend/cleaning person come over worked on my kitchen for a little bit I made my place look a little bit more presentable. Between my caregiver in the mornings and my cleaning person I kind of keep a fairly decent apartment. There are nooks and crannies however where things get so piled hot these folks refuse to touch it. So one of these days I'm going to have to just get a trash can or bag and just start going through these nooks and crannies and throwing crap in the bag. I have been trying to go through all my stacks of mail much of which I've never opened and feeding it directly into the shredder. I have a small Shredder and so I often worry I will burn the engine out by feeding in too thick of pieces of mail so sometimes I will take the time and open thick pieces of mail like from the government or the insurance companies and feed the shredder much more edible pieces. Trouble is it's not a industrial Shredder so the little bucket that the shreds fall into gets full quite quickly and then it's a matter of waiting around till the naval body person is around that can lift the bucket of shreds into some sort of garbage disposal thing that I can get on with my shredding. This means again I have to wait until one of my people shows up who can assist in this project.

I love the time right after what am I clean people get done with part of my apartment. I like to sit in the clean space and pretend that I'm not going to mess it up but sooner or later life gets in the way and entropy begins to take its toll whether it's me piling stuff on the table when I come in from the market or tipping over crackers, cookies are potato chips by the computer/ flat screen which eventually falls to the floor where I will further Crush the item adding to the chaos which entropy renders. But for the first few moments, hours the apartment is a delight to sit in and enjoy the clean Stillness.

As I remarked earlier it's cold. Tomorrow's Tuesday and I've already been notified that we will be having a meeting of The Advisory Board tomorrow which means I need to dress warmly and head into the city. A roll to the bus stop then a bus trip into the train then to the library across the street to assist ink. Yes, it'll be cold but I think I can dress warm enough to get through the next couple hours it'll take two go to the meeting and Back Again.

Sunday shorty

 I had to take a break from the television screen / flat screen because the Utah Jazz are looking like they're going to choke again it's not pretty but it's the Utah Jazz. I muted the screen and decided I'd go ahead and update the blog for today. I actually did two things today to count as Sunday socialization. First I went to the restaurant up with Marc Anthony and we had a great breakfast and some great conversation and then I went to the coffee shop and hung out there for about an hour visiting with a few people. Following that event I just basically came home and hibernated the rest of the day watching my netscape, Disney Plus accounts. Couple interesting movies one that I've seen before and the other I'm still sawing through. I thought about jumping the bus and going up to Walmart and pick you up a couple power strips but that didn't happen. I figured that rather than go out and spend some money and make somebody work on the Sabbath I would wait till tomorrow if tomorrow looks like a good day then go up to Walmart to see what they've got in that selection. I would like to pick up at least two power strips and maybe three. That way for sure I'll have enough power to get done what I need to have done. This is going to be a short one tonight. For some reason I'm exhausted I'll finish watching the Jazz lose and then hit the sack more tomorrow…

Something special

 I cannot believe that it's Saturday night and once again I'm sitting home quietly waiting for 8:00 when the Utah Jazz Hall tip off another basketball game. At least I guess that's something to look forward to. I don't know if I like basketball or the Utah Jazz but I'm finding them somewhat entertaining even though there's somewhat disappointing at the same time. This seemed to be a bit of a loser team for one reason or another whether it's players that are on the sick list mending trying to get well again enough to play or good players being traded out or however that's all done the other teams leaving us with folks that seem they could be great but just don't get around to becoming great. Perhaps I'm being too naive and too impatient for them to grow into greatness or grow up into something that some of the team wants to purchase away from the Jazz. It's Saturday night that means I have to get up early tomorrow so I can meet Mark and the kids for breakfast so I'll watch enough of the game to let me know what's going to happen. If the Jazz could generate enough lead they'll probably win I hope. Otherwise if it's halftime and they're down 10 20 points I just shut it down go to the bed so I can have enough sleep to get up tomorrow morning to meet the kids for breakfast. Either way it still leaves me home on Saturday night not doing anything better than watching the flat screen and I'm thankful for that actually. Luckily for me Mark was able to come by and fix it up the other night.

I actually don't feel as bad as I usually do when I don't do anything on a Saturday or a weekday or whenever. This morning I got up early enough dressed ready to go and went I'm at my friend Janet at the coffee shop where we enjoyed some coffee and did some gossiping about the people we live with. I was waiting for this big snowstorm to wander through which never really did and later on in the afternoon when I figured that the storm was not going to come in I saddled up and went over to the market looking for a few things to get me through the evening. I was going to go to Walmart and get another power strip but that didn't happen. I was able to get some popcorn however which I figured would be my treat for the Saturday night. I actually got a bag of popcorn as well as a box of microwave popcorn. Remember years and years ago and I moved in here I purchased a real life popcorn popper pan the kind you put over a fire or the heat of a stove and it pops the popcorn just like it used to do in the old days when I would have popcorn on Saturday night with my big sisters and watch how we Patrol when it was first done? Maybe that's what I was chasing today some of those feelings of the old days of popcorn in the doing something special on a Saturday night…

Finally Friday

  I am so frustrated I just finished the seven hundred and fifty word blog and lost it all when I went to transfer it over to the online blog. I haven't done that for years it seems like. Somehow when I went to copy the document and erased itself- - I'm sure it's something that I did no question in my mind but still it's so frustrating I ain't never get another blog as good as the first one but I'll try.

It seems I rattled on for some time about how I woke up early this morning around 3:00 a.m. worried about the president-elect and how fast he's filling out his cabinet and with some of the weirdos he's put in there. I mentioned how weird it was to wake up early in the morning and be filled with Dread and somewhat Terror of the thought processes you having about what's going on in your life only to realize that they may not be as terrific as you felt that they were on first waking. I think my waking was direct result of visiting with Marc Anthony the night before when he came over to work on my electric setup and my power strip that failed and he spoke about how Rudy was about the country and the new president and he seems to be doing to the country. Luckily is the day goes on I begin to put things back into perspective and the fear that I was having tends to evaporate and I'm able to get on with things. I do know however people are really quite concerned about what's going on and well they should be. A visit with Diane this evening for some time and she's quite concerned about the whole electoral situation. I let her know about one of the shows I listen to on educational radio about Mormons in the heavy duty Mormon states of the West and how they're going after the Democratic Mormons who put support signs in their yard. That was pretty interesting segment that's on Radio West if you're interested in it and it would be end of today's date. I guess if I really knew my stuff I would be I would put a an electronic link onto it but I'm not going to go through that now after losing my first writing of this blog for tonight.

The afternoon was pretty nice actually kind of warm comparatively speaking especially when the sun was out. It was quite Breezy however with the new storm coming in tonight over tomorrow, the storm is not huge but it will snow and rain and be miserable for a while. I went to the market so I would have provisions to get me through. I seem to overreact on these kinds of things to make sure that I have enough food to get through these days of weather stress. But I got some things that will make it enjoyable to get through the next couple of days. Tomorrow I still plan to go to the coffee shop with Janet even if she doesn't meet me there it would be fun to drink coffee and watch the snow …

My chaos corner

 

The chaos you see in tonight's image is what I've done today trying to re-establish connection with my internet and television/ flat screen. This morning when I tried to start my system so I can listen to the morning news and such it was on for just a second that suddenly that whole section of the room was off. I have a lot of devices plugged into a power strip I have secured to my tray that I work off of and I think what happened was a power surge or something came through and knocked everything off the power strip. In an attempt to at least get my flat screen operational again so I can have some sort of contact with the local news and stuff at least visually I unplugged the flat screen from the power strip and tried to connect it straight to the wall which I found a plug that wasn't being used. I tried all morning I moved everything away from the walls much as I could and I just couldn't get the plug into the plug in I even resorted into dragging one of my neighbors over who has really good hand function to see if she could pop the plug in to no avail. It's just these little things that quadriplegia really messes up quality of life. Actually I can't complain too much I do quite a lot with what I've got and I truly am thankful for the options that I have open to me but sooner or later they run up against the wall and I have to ask for help. So this Thursday evening and patiently waiting for my son to stop by and see if he can get some of my things operational. I noticed on the power strip there's a red reset button on the end. I'm hoping that if I can get Marc Anthony to push that little reset everything but of course this is a two-edged sword does this also mean that it will power off again the next surge it comes through it may. I just have to be patient and hopeful. I also have to get on the ball and do some major cleaning and reorganizing this corner as well as a large part of the rest of the apartment. I have my quasi cleaning person maybe coming in on Monday and she'll do a little bit of cleaning and that'll be great but if it's going to do some real deep cleaning and start throwing away a lot of stuff that I've dread along the last couple decades.

In a bit of a side note I might mention I did get reconnected to the internet and at least I'm able to dictate on my various handheld devices around the apartment which saves me having to try to put this stuff on my little cell phone which I must admit was a champ...

internet frustration

 This is going to be a short blog tonight because somehow I've lost connection with the internet and so I'm having to write this document on my cell phone which leaves a lot to be desired as far as trying to write something of any length. Something happened to my internet connection that I have hooked to my table by my flat screen. I think it has something to do with the power strip I have connected to the table. I confess I may have it overloaded and it tripped the power source to the the internet. It's too late to try to get anybody over to try to reset the modem and there's just no way I can get there with the disability being as it is. I'm really surprised I haven't written down the place to be honest with you. I just had to figure out a way to be more independent that's all. I guess this is a blessing because I really do have that power strip overloaded.

All it's been a pretty decent day. I actually got out on the bus and went and had my podiatrist appointment which is quite a jaunt especially with the condition of my batteries. I was totally surprised I was able to get there and back again before the warning light started flashing. I was able to get home plug in and be able to work out at the same time and charge the battery enough to get me through the rest of the night. I've spent way too much time trying to figure out what's wrong with the flat screen television which I have connected to the internet. So now I have to calmly just get ready for bed and hit the sack without having to wait for the end of a show or something. Sadly it must also confess that I didn't fold the clothes like I should have. I just didn't have the time following my visit with my caregiver and been able to go catch to the bus to get to my appointment on time. Clothes can be folded tomorrow. I have one major appointment that will take me out of the apartment to a meeting uptown. Worst case scenario I attend the meeting over the internet.. oh crap I guess I can't do that if I can't get on the internet huh? I guess I could try to run the whole thing through this is silly little cell phone. I'm surprised at how well it seems to be holding up.

I had roast beef and vegetables for dinner tonight they were great. I was a little worried I didn't know how well they would refrigerate but they seem to do just fine. I made a cute little plateful of the roast, carrots potatoes and of course onions. I flashed them in the microwave and had a bottle of horseradish standing by which really rounds out the dinner. That was a little dismayed the horseradish was not nearly as hot as the bottle led me to believe it would be. But the taste was great the flavor was perfect the heat was missing but that's okay enjoyed my second roast beef dinner this week..

Snow day cook day

I am so glad that we canceled the assist meeting today, they canceled primarily because the meeting would be coming off the national holiday which means it would really put a lot of stress on the folks to get ready for the meeting so no meeting today and that is a major blessing because of the weather. Low pressure system came in last night drop the temperature down about 10 points and provided a lot of rain and snow even down on the valley floor. Not a lot of snow but it laid down a little bit and it would have been cold had I been out trying to get back and forth to my meeting so instead I enjoyed myself in the apartment, in the kitchen prepping and cooking my brains out. I cooked the roast I purchased on Saturday and it was a lot of fun actually as far as the prepping went it was hard. I can see it's getting harder for me to do stuff that kind of freaks me out but such is life. I'm just having a more difficult time peeling potatoes and even carrots than I used to. My first knee-jerk reaction would be it's the wheelchair it's making me difficult to sit up and let allowing me to peel these vegetables as I used to do without nearly the problem that I had today. I got the vegetables peeled however and chopped pretty much. I was able to use the carrots that I purchased yesterday are Friday Saturday I mean. I peeled them toss them in the vet then did the same with the taters. The taters are a little hammered but they tasted pretty good in the end. I ran a couple hours on the low temperature then I ran a couple hours on the high temperature which I finally got the roast finished. I had pieces of roast and vegetables for dinner it was a nice dinner and I felt accomplished having dealt and done something. I don't know how much I enjoy eating the production as much as actually doing the production. And I guess it would be nice to have somebody around here to do cook for but I'm happy with what I've got and I'm happy I'm able to cook these items. I am also spending a lot of time on the kitchen too trying to clean up after myself and do some washing of dishes and cutting boards and things of that nature which I've sort of let get out of control last couple weeks. I don't know if it's time to call Gloria to see if she's up for any cleaning but I may be getting close. I haven't heard anything from Gloria in a long time which kind of worries me I hope she's doing okay and I hope she's not in trouble.

Diane has been in the boot for the last couple days spending the last days with her mother. It seems like the whole family came together which is good. I got a couple of emails from DD this morning indicating that Mom seemed to be getting weaker and weaker and then this afternoon I got words  mom passed. DD's mom was a good person who I liked writing to once a month. She was always good to me and I'm glad to see that she's left she was in rough condition there towards the land I wish that she rests in peace …

Veteran Day vulnerabilities

 You know what's weird? It's Veterans Day a national holiday and really in Salt Lake you would just about think it's a regular day. Early on I noticed the buses were running chances are they're probably running on a weekend schedule but they're out there running and that's okay because if I need a bus I want to make sure there is a bus. Even the place next door whether redoing the park I was surprised when my caregiver indicated they were hard hats out there working on the project. I told her no they could not be because it's a holiday, a national holiday! What kind of Unions would let their people work on the national holiday? But surely my caregiver was right once I focused for a little bit I could see the white helmets that all the workers wear and some of their Orange vests that protects them I guess from wayward backhoes and other Earth moving devices. I was totally shocked but see in the white helmets. Granted, these working veterans we're not working very hard. They look like they could be on vacation the one sort or another but who am I to judge? I don't think I mentioned it yet but they've opened up the sidewalk to the park that's been being remodeled. The project has been the focus of our attention for some time. And with the opening of the sidewalk means that they are getting close to finishing this project which will be great but that's another rant for another day.

What really kind of threw me however was I looked up my old high school or rather I checked on it to see if they were going to have the old Boise Borah game today. The Boise Borah game has been across town rival for decades. This was the way for a long time because they were the only two high schools in town. Boise high it's been there since the turn of the other century and Bora has been there since the fifties. Such a classic and they would battle out the crosstown rival ship every year on Veterans Day. It was a big event for Boise after Capital High was built things begin to unwind on that level they tried to keep up the tradition but with capital having to fill in the bill every third year or whatever just wasn't the same anymore except for the fact that the B&B game was tradition and the two Rivals still had strong feelings against each other. However I noticed this year the game was played in late September which means it was treated just like another high school football competitor. It's kind of sad but I think it's the way things are Everything Changes which I think and of course football changes too.

Tomorrow is Tuesday of course and that's the regular day I go in for my volunteer board at assist ink. However, due to the holiday, we're not meeting tomorrow which is good for me. There's a storm coming in, a small storm but promises to bring much cooler temperatures and rain and possibly some snowflakes. I'm thankful because I didn't want to go out tomorrow in the elements. My stomach's gurgling tonight that's not a good sign. I'm going to see if I have any anti-diary stuff and see if that will get me through till Wednesday but Melissa will be here in the morning to do the toilet thing..

1 Sunday morning breakfast

 I made garbrock this morning! The making of this dish, one of my favorite dishes, was the high point of my day. The weather lady said the day was going to be beautiful and it looked like it was actually from what I could see out my windows of the apartment. I made garbrock because I didn't go out to breakfast this morning cuz the kids are gone on vacation and Thanksgiving dinner- ing. I was feeling pretty good because I woke up and the clock said 7:00 a.m. and even though I went to bed around 1:00 a.m. finally I never sleep that long uninterrupted. I wish I knew if this could be programmed into regular sleeping Cycles cuz it was great. Because I've been doing this breakfast thing with the kids for a bunch of months now haven't been doing my regular morning Sunday morning cook thing. I do like to cook and many times on Sunday mornings it seems like the right thing to do on that part of the day.

I us used e the Frozen hash browns type potatoes in the freezer actually tater tots, and frozen broccoli. Typically I like to use fresh broccoli but I bought the frozen broccoli specifically for a test to see how well it worked in my dish. It's been up there for 4 or 5 months now and I'm glad to report that the frozen broccoli work just fine now I want to use the other half of the package to see if I can make some beef and broccoli Asian. I love beef and broccoli from the restaurants when I go Asian I would love to know how to make it. I did come across the recipe couple days ago on my internet feed that looks like it wouldn't be too hard. The only drawback is that I gave away my Asian type sauces that I've been carrying around for decades I've never really used. Now I'm tempted to go out and buy at least the sauce that isn't fish sauce per se. I wish that didn't intimidate me so much the fish sauce. I think I would try to use flat steak or flank steak. Maybe marinate it the night before and soy sauce or are the Asian Sauce and see how well it works in the broccoli and beef. I was thinking I could even use just a can of gravy and mix in the Asian Sauce and how about that would really work well with the broccoli and beef make a pot of rice and I would be set. Now I just got to get up the courage to do the whole cooking thing. Tomorrow however I plan to bake a roast or roast a roast or whatever the verb is for processing a hunk of beef sitting in my refrigerator. I need some carrots I should have got some the other day and I don't know if I will get them tomorrow before I start the roaster start the roast run across to the market and pick up four or five carrots and then threw them in the Crock-Pot when I get back. I have the taters and whoever else I think I might need. I'm not sure what's provoking this severe strain of Domesticity maybe I'm just prepared for winter…

Securely bind me

 

Once again it's late Saturday night and I'm only now doing my blog. It's close to bedtime but I realize I don't have to go out to breakfast in the morning since the kids are vacationing and traveling for one reason or another. So if I were able I would sleep in in the morning enjoy the time. I can almost guarantee you now that I won't be able to sleep in, I've never really been able to sleep in unless I'm just way tired from the night before. I might want to do some cooking for breakfast I have ingredients for one of my favorite dishes garbrock. Not as much garlic as I would like but I think I have enough garlic to get by. I could just have cold cereal which would be good too cold cereal and toast with lots of butter- - that would be kind of a treat. I don't necessarily like cooking or doing a whole lot of work on Sunday, I think I've gone over that before a little bit in the blog, but for something like Garb rock or something like that it would be fun and I wouldn't be too worried about breaking the Sabbath rules of work. I did purchase a roast today and again I would hate to cook it tomorrow but maybe I will as opposed to the holiday on Monday. I think it would be nice to have a cold roast peace on Monday.

I went shopping today at the market down the street. Groceries basically like I said I got the roast, juice, fruit like bananas just a number of awkward things to the point where I was beginning to look like a grocery basket myself with all the food piled on top of me and my leg binder kept coming apart when that happens my legs widen spread wide and I lose a lot of stuff either between my legs or on the side of the chair. Today I dropped hot dogs or sausages, roast, and a couple other items that I had to wait around till someone came by that I could ask them to pick them up put him back on my lap. I think I really did look quite pathetic. I didn't take my black basket I wish I had I did have my sock with me or grocery bag but that didn't have anything in them at the time. I've got, and I think I've spoken about this before, three leg binders all together all for the same company and only one or two work decently. The one find her that does look like it should be the best of the three is really the worst. I don't know what's wrong with the the velcro attachments or whatever but when I try to use the good looking binder my legs just come apart at the least appropriate time usually when I put some weight on them like groceries that's what happened today. I came home from the grocery shopping and ultimately switched out the new reminder for the old binder which I knew at least would keep my legs together for the rest of the day. Invariably when I haven't used the new binder for a period of time I always think it's going to work but after a few minutes to an hour or so using that binder the vehicle seems to let go and my legs spread and I  become a great example of self-loathing.  I'm even toying with the idea of sending for yet another binder to see if that would act better and have a stronger grip. There are some thoughts in the binder community that suggests that if someone were to vigorously wash or rub or brush the binder pads they might get a better grasp. I haven't gotten that route yet I think I would invest in a hard bristle brush like a paint remover brush or something to scrape the pad off the velcro binder. It's kind of a happy problem. I would just like to have a binder a leg binder that holds tight until I don't need it the whole tight so like having a shirt tail on it short sleeve or long sleeve garment that won't show any body Flash. Sometimes I think I'm just really weird..

Let them eat cake!

The sun was out today quite bright as I left the apartment for my trip to my bank to get cash for the coming month. It's hard to believe that the month is nearly 1/3 over but I was feeling pretty good after a good shower and dressing and in my chair I thought I'd get the chore done early in the weekend. I was wearing one of my heavy hoods, I learned from yesterday that or maybe Wednesday that even though someone says that it's cold enough to go with something lightweight it's best to wear the heavy garment if you've got it. I've got it I've got a lot of foods these days more than I've ever owned before in my life and a couple very nice heavy ones. Even in shorts the weather was not bad especially with the sun shining. I didn't have to wait long but I was still glad to enter the bus and it's Heat.

Before I stopped at the branch for out the cash I went over to this store not far from the bank branch it's a super discount type store more than a dollar store however. This place has lots of interesting items that could be used for gifts and such. It's all pretty cheap but I like going through what they have it's all one of a kind. You got to buy it now or you'll never get it the chance again. I really buy anything from this place I just like to roll up and down the aisles seeing what's to be had. Once I was satiated with cheap Goods I made my way over to the credit union pulled out my cash and went back to the bus stop. It was a bit of a longer wait then the bus coming over but the good old vehicle pulled up and once again I enjoyed the Heat Rush which comes on boarding UTA bus in the winter time. I was excited, I am still excited this morning when I went to the bus stop from the apartments I noticed that the sidewalk which had been torn up report and then fenced off was now available for use. I was having to cross the street first going up to the corner where the light is at crossing the street then back tracking to wherever I was going whether it was the market or to catch bus 47 inbound or outbound for that matter. But now the sidewalks open again and I'll be able to go straight to the bus stop. Today however I caught the 217 which takes me straight into the Community College where I can pick up Route 47 westbound or outbound which takes me directly to the credit union. That way I let the gas powered vehicles do most of the transporting saving my battery for my own transportation and today I spent a good amount of time traveling and yet my batteries are still intact almost as a full charge this is good.

I've had a box of cake mix out for the last couple of days with the idea I was going to bake a cake. I was just having to get everything out where I could reach it primarily the cake pan/ dish this morning I had Melissa Fish Out the cake dish and I was going to bake the cake afterwards but she went ahead mixed it together and then stuck it in the oven and it cooked while she was working with me in the bathroom. This is great! I gave her half the cake as payment for her added work assignment. I don't need a full devil's food cake with white frosting. I just want to taste of something sweet and Rich and covered with white frosting …

Sleepy, why not?

 I woke around 3:30 a.m. this morning and I couldn't get back to sleep. All this it is besides a little yawning and stuff haven't felt that bad today- - I felt a little sleepy that's for sure and there's days when I get better sleep I feel better but today wasn't bad. I think the biggest reason I couldn't sleep was that last night I realized I still had clothes in the dryer - - didn't I discuss this a little bit and last night's post? . Anyway I wanted to make sure I got up early and hustled down to the laundry and get my clothes back to the apartment . I hate it when the washer or dryer I want to use is being tied up by somebody who's not there . I was able to get the clothes and it didn't look like anybody had been in the room since I left it last night after I started my clothes on the second dry cycle . I did notice I wasn't able to interact as well with the folks at coffee that I usually do when I get better amounts of sleep but today wasn't that bad either. You seem to be a bit of a contention? I'm not sure what I would call it but not contention but I stifling quietness perhaps I think from the results of the last election. I know that for sure there are a couple of Trump people there but everybody was civilized nobody brought up the election at all I thought that was kind of sleepy. I think I'm ready to move on myself and not try to focus on the loss. My friend who is a big Trump supporter was acting very quiet as well during the coffee session. We talked amicably and kind of enjoyed each other's time but I don't think we just knew how to communicate regarding the results of the election and how they affect us. I was open however I would gladly visited with anybody to let them know how spooked I am regarding Mr Trump's next try it being presidential. And I didn't hear of anybody else bringing up the election either. I think if we're going to survive the next couple of months everybody's going to have to do exactly that forcibly open up channels of conversation and have those conversations and assess whatever the president's going to do. 

I had a conversation this evening with my old boss and friend from Blackfoot Idaho and a number of decades back and we talked in depth about not being part of a electoral backlash with the way that the election had gone especially in contrast to what happened during the first Trump election. It would be great if the whole thing just blew over and things went on their way but with election of trump along with losing either the house or the senate or both it's going to make a very very active couple of months politically speaking. I don't think we fear the Revolution and fighting in the streets as we had anticipated had the president lost but still there's a lot of stress bubbling out there and I don't really want to be part of it..

Powerless

I'm sorry I'm sitting here hooked up to my charger trying to get a fast charge to make sure I have enough power to let me finish doing the things I need to do around my apartment before bedtime. I only need to let the charger work for an hour that will give me enough juice to make sure that I don't get stranded somewhere between here and my bed. However because my chair has run down on power as quickly as it has I have a load of blocks in the dryer waiting to be picked up that I will not really consider picking up until tomorrow. I think I'm okay regarding the safety of my clothes unattended in the dryer. I'll just sneak in there tomorrow before coffee and get my clothes in the basket and drag it back to the apartment and fold the clothes sometime tomorrow afternoon. My odometer are mileage whatever reads I've only done 2.1 miles today and I charged it all last night. Fortunately those miles took me up to the bus stop into the hospital where I met with my physician and home again. That's all I really wanted to go to today it's really cold outside however still that's really not very far for a full charge on the batteries. So tomorrow one of my phone calls is going to have to be to the wheelchair shop to see if they've got an approval on another set of batteries. This should not really be a problem with this what it wouldn't tell me giving up the chair again for another night while they take my chair in and stall the batteries and bring it back. Seems like it's always something really gets tedious.

I suppose you've heard the news Trump won last night and that really is kind of dreadful if not frightening. I'd like to just shrug my shoulders and say oh well that's politics but that being politics is that it just might get me involved in the backwash. If this guy does what he says he's going to do or what he wants to do which is basically carve up the social services programs in the country IE Social Security that could have a major impact on me in my lifestyle. I just don't know how far the idiot will go. In fact I'm thinking of ordering a number of my supplies just to make sure I have a year's supply in case things get little dicey. I'll have enough stored away to be able to develop a survival plan if there is one- - survival plan. Everything from housing to transportation to Medical could have an impact on me if things start being cut. I think I'm most hopeful that my housing will stay intact. I think I'm okay with my pension as far as some of the money goes again the big issue is going to be Social Security and well let's stay intact and if they start cutting how much are they going to cut? I've got my my food supplies in my closet is most of you know so I think something were to happen I'd be okay that way and I can live out of cans for a while. Medication could be an issue hopefully I'll be able to get by. Hey saw my position today we went over some of my reports I've gone from  diabetic the diabetic. I'm not hardcore and it seems like I can still maintain with drugs and that's cool. I am going to have to start looking at possible Lifestyle Changes particularly in the area of food as far as starches and sugars go that could be a pain in the ass.

I've been charging now for about 20 minutes I think I've got enough to get through the rest of the evening and let it charge all night and hopefully I'll be okay tomorrow. I've pretty much got all the things I need to have done out of the Apartments done for the week. Only have to go across the street to coffee with Janet on Saturday then up to D's restaurant for lunch with Marc Anthony on Sunday. I'll get by..

I'm so tired

 I don't think the Democrats really even had a chance this election. There's just too many things against the possibility. This of course means that Trump's probably going to win at this point I don't know and who knows how long it's going to take before the whole thing settled. All I know is I don't know what it's going to be like living in the world ruled by Trump and it's the world it's not just the USA it's the whole world. I don't know what I'm going to do regarding benefits being cut or anything like that. I know this guy's going to do it he's out of his mind he's a wacko and they're going to elect him it just blows me away. The last time I didn't think it could happen so I didn't really spend a whole lot of time thinking about what might happen but having lived through the four years of his Reign and then gone through this election cycle the guy's a lunatic the guys totally off his rocker which means USA is probably off its rocker as well. So maybe the place is true the country gets the person they want or how are that question goes you get the government you want or you get the governor you want I don't know either way it's we're goiq

ng to get this person and I think it's going to get really ugly- - and who knows I may be totally wrong we can hope so. I'll follow up with this in the next day or so.

Now a little bit back to my reality. Last week I contacted a company that's supposed to know what they're doing when it comes to working on my bed my electric bed remember how it broke on me and I was going to get the company to at least eyeball my bed to see how bad it is. Actually just to bring it up to date funny as it is the bed is actually been working to a certain degree. I have figured out how to very gently raise the top part of my bed- - that's correct the motor for one reason or another will raise the bed up to a certain point and then crash back down. I don't know if the raising mechanism is on a screwdriver something and that's what broke and that it will kind of reset itself then raise up to a certain level and at the end the teeth do longer are there which causes it to crash back down to the flat of the bed. This is very noisy, it's quick and it's always unnerving. But then I think it's totally broken it comes back to life again and now I've learned pretty much how to manage the raising portion of the head of the bed just to the point of where it's going to crash. The best part is that it raises me up high enough that I can make the transfer from the bed to the power chair. I don't know how long-term safe this is. Oh, what I was going to tell you is that when I called the company I purchase the piece from that fixed the bed the last time back in March they said they were going to send the technician out today. Of course, the technician never showed up and I ended up calling them a half an hour after his arrival time was supposed to be and then they informed me that it was going to cost something like $72 for him to come out and check out the bed. Well this was way last week when this whole thing began and I've been surviving quite well and I also spoke with my friends over at ucat and they figure that they can find me a a similar bed for a way way less money than they were charging me. So that stress points past I just hope the bed will continue working until I can get something else in here. I'm tempted to have Carl come over and look at it to see what he might say. I have to admit however it really wears me out…3

Praying for safety

 I have to admit I'm kind of spooked. This is the eve of possibly the greatest election of this century. That really sounds dramatic but it really kind of is true as well. I'm bracing myself for another Trump win. The first time he won it was quite a sucker punch for me because I figured he would lose I went to bed not thinking about anything waking up to find out Donald Trump is the new president of the United states, my president who I didn't want at all there. I suffered through that first term and I should say I even suffered through the second term that he lost because he was such a baby about the whole ordeal refuse ing to accept the the results of the vote. I mean it contested influenced and colored the whole term. I was just aghast. But I woke that morning following the election I thought it was a mistake I thought it was a classic joke. And here I am now totally contemplating the fact that this country, the backwards snowball Hicks who support Donald Trump are probably getting everybody in her duck out to vote and they might just win this election again. I'm not going to do anything dramatic, should that happen, like move to Canada or Arizona or somewhere other than Utah. I of course will not do such a thing for a number of reasons. The disability certainly limits my ability to do something like this cuz if I could get down to Arizona where this support is supposed to take place. I was kind of surprised that's how many people here at the apartment complex are Trump supporters more than I anticipated which I learned early on. Then if the crazy man decides he wants to overthrow something he'll just tell his people to go out and start shooting people or whatever and they'll do it! Just like he did at the Capitol building A couple of years ago. The former president has uttered such bizarre words that he can't be taken seriously he's totally out to lunch. I can't believe anybody on that side of the aisle recognize that this or doesn't care enough to come out and say stop being our representative!

There of course is little much I can do as far as I'm concerned. I did register and I went out to vote and I did vote. I don't know how good it's going to do but I filled in the spaces and I think that I held it up right and it should just hang out there acting as back up to the other items. I think the former president and his supporters really see this as a giant game that they really can't lose as long as they play. For the longest time I thought that there was no chance that he would come back and he would actually get the votes needed to win this competition. I could save my hook or crook but that would be an understatement. I am just totally blown away at how seemingly bright intelligent folks have jumped onto the Trump bandwagon and are trying to visualize what a another four years of the presidency might render. I don't I will go past the boundaries of this state- - I just don't have a way to travel, sad as that is. I watched the Jazz game tonight and son of a gun the team didn't win what a shock!  I would love it if the country can keep this momentum going and thrash mister Trump down into the grass where he couldn't rise up again. The whole country is worried that he's going to challenge the vote and surge his troops forward after the obvious comes to be calling that nobody wants him particularly in this position. I pray every night it's just something that makes me feel decent and good and believe me I need that. Tonight I'm going to pray for safety in this silly election and hopefully we'll be able to be a better Nation..

Slacking Sunday

 I'm a little upset because the weather folks said it was going to be a horrible Sunday especially this morning. Last night I contacted my son to inform him that we were going to cancel or I was going to cancel the Sunday morning breakfast that we usually have. I did this primarily because he was feeling sick he's been ill for the last week and he was still doing his little side hustle job but I didn't think you needed to be up early in the morning if you didn't want to or have to. He really needs to rest take it easy for a little bit. My granddaughter who usually joins us on these Sunday breakfasts is on a cruise with her boyfriend and some other friends. And I know the weather is going to be as good as it was I probably would have gone to the breakfast but I stand by my decision to keep him out of the cold and early morning air. He really does need to rest. However, because of that that leaves a big hole in my Sunday. It's not like I win anywhere. That wasn't eager to get out in the cold weather and it's now cold tonight it's going to be in the 30s supposedly. And I don't want to be out in the weather anymore than I have to. I spent the day basically watching my big flat screen enjoying Gray's Anatomy reruns and the documentary or two. I enjoyed breakfast actually. I do miss making breakfast for myself. I usually don't do that on Saturdays which I should cuz I really enjoy the cooking or on Sundays but that hasn't been an issue for the last year or so. But today I did scramble some eggs with cheese had some toast and opened up a can of spam fried up a couple pieces it was a grand breakfast I thought totally enjoyed it made enough eggs that I have another breakfast for tomorrow should I desire. But that's been about my Sunday not a whole lot but the important thing was that I was able to watch these pieces of entertainment while sitting back in my chair taking the weight off my butt but still being up and being able to move around should I need to or want to. Return the clocks back last night it was kind of strange to see how dark are quickly it got dark or how early they got dark that's the whole thing of daylight savings and going back to real time. So it's not a bad day just to relaxing day and maybe that's what it's all about..

Saturday at the movies

I felt a little antsy this morning felt like I needed to get up and do something. I knew I had coffee so after getting dressed and such I headed over to the coffee shop and Janet was there a few minutes later we had a good discussion and gossip time over coffee. The day was deceptively nice this early in the morning as I rolled back to the apartment I figured I didn't want to end my day just yet and spend the rest of the day inside hunkered down watching the flat screen are doing housework. I wanted to go out and do something so I got one of the heavier hoods wrapped around my neck and took off to the bus stop. I checked the movie schedules and the one movie you have been meaning to see and just have not been able to get around to it concave was about ready to start at least they would start seeding people I still figured I had good 30 to 40 minutes before the movie actually started so I caught the bus and got there in time actually it was just barely starting. I thought it was a pretty good movie I probably should sit through it again just to see if I've missed anything - - which I'm sure I did. After all those Catholics are pretty intense. I'm not sure how much I missed as far as understanding what's going on that's why the second viewing might be worthwhile but I just don't know if I have the patience to sit through the whole thing again. It's kind of a slow moving movie but they did kind of cover the selection process and I think if I sat through the movie again it would give me better feeling for what's going on and what they did in that movie. Seemed a little convoluted to me. I was so surprised when I got finished with the movie and I checked what other movies are playing that the other movie I wanted to see with Tom Hanks the new one called here was just about to start so I rushed up paid my ticket and rolled in and sat through that show which was okay I wasn't all that impressed with it as much as the people who put it together were impressed with themselves. It was kind of weird because the whole thing was shot with one camera and one basic scene just evolving from one scene to the next it was a little scattered but somewhat enjoyable. I do think that Hanks did a good job in the movie though again like I said it was a bit disjointed for me but I'm sure everyone else is going to love it. I don't think I will sit through this one again probably not even if they paid me but never say never. As is always the case when I got out of the movie the weather was much different than when I went in. Cloud said moved in the temperature dropped and there was a threat of precipitation. I didn't feel like I wanted to wait for the bus in the cold weather so I basically wrapped my hoodie around my neck as best as I could and took off and pretty much got home without incident but I felt comfortable going in and then just turning on the heater and just slowing down for the rest of the evening. Basically I was waiting for the Jazz game to start that's a late start off at 8:00. Of course they're choking at halftime they were way behind and I don't know if they're going to be able to bring it out. Anyway Saturday night that's what it is tonight sitting down watching the Jazz drinking some coffee and maybe a cookie or two …