Fearing politically

 Another day of almost doing nothing! Granted the day was overcast and looked cold but I understand it wasn't that cold. I could have gone out and done something that I really wanted to maybe a movie or gone grocery shopping. In fact instead of going grocery shopping I actually used the shopping app that I've been working with the last couple of weeks. I got a few things I felt that I needed more juice some vegetables some raw vegetables like broccoli and lettuce and such but I had them delivered to the apartment that is so civilized especially if you're carrying heavy stuff like 98 oz of juice. I watched part of one of my Marvel movies until the new started then I watched the local in the National. I don't know why I do this because the dues is so predictable and so depressing and anxiety producing that it would probably be wise for me not to be watching so much of the news. I think this whole Trump thing is finally getting on me emotionally. Unless something happens unless somebody does really something significant I think this country is going to go down the tubes especially the seniors, those with disabilities and minorities. Sadly I fit all three of those parameters does that make me for sure a goner? I can really see the minorities being wasted by the white upper class Administration it's really kind of frightening. Just looking in and not really testing the water so much but as things get closer and closer to whatever is going to happen you can sense the pressure growing at least I can and maybe that's only within myself but still I'm sensing something awkward in a bit discouraged. It's kind of weird to see those who are legal and Military and folks with power cowering under the local or the national Administration. They're letting that big guys get away with murder in order to save their own skins it really is kind of scary and sad and very unreal. It's truly amazing that this could be happening now in America. I'm just waiting for cuts to start coming down through Social Security and other support systems that I use. I'm really counting on the fact that I am part of the board of directors that administer this building I live in and hopefully we won't be raising the rents so high that the folks who live here can't live here anymore. But who knows what will happen if the power structure that runs Utah non-profit suddenly gets cut and they go bye-bye. Really is frightening I try not to think about it but that's the classic chicken in the head in the sand operation probably totally unhealthy but I don't know what else to do. I'll just keep getting up living the best way I can doing good where I can I'm going to bed when I can and hope that this too will soon pass