Wuss

Dianne mentioned yesterday that she wants to see fire works this July fourth . I must admit I have become quite a stick in the mud as far as going to firework displays especially firework displays which fall on the even of work days. Really, I am such a wuss. I think this urge to see a fire work display was brought on when we learned that BB&A were headed up to their cabin for the holidays and there cabin is very close to Evanston Nevada where blowing up people and parts seems to be perfectly—the kids even brought back hundreds of ladyfinger and bottle rockets but we have never used them—we tried to once right after we got them but we got intimidated but our neighbors who kept giving us the evil eye and kept talking about calling the police on another set of neighbors with “illegals “. These neighbors were launching real fireworks. So I have been sitting on this treasure of explosives now for going on five years. I really need to blow something up.

Its not like I hate the fire work displays it’s just having to leave my nice little house and co-mingle with humanity and have to co-mingle after dark!! I mean even if we were invited to this trip to Evanston it would necessitate atleast two` hours travel in an vehicle most likely my van; this means being on the roads and highways during a national holiday just begging to be a statistic in the argument of why not go out on national holidays.

Sometimes I wonder if I am letting my chair or my disability rule my life. Do I use to be part of humanity because doing so is just too hard, maybe. But something deep down tells me I would be just as boring even without my disability—I think I am just a home body sad but true==but Dianne does needs to see the event so I am going to try to be involved this holiday season and remember in Utah firework season is a season because the State always celebrates even harder on the 24th. I am not going to beg us onto the Evanston trip but come Monday night we will be somewhere, sitting on a lawn, hanging out way past my bed time waiting for the skies to erupt in fire and smoke and wonder…maybe I’ll even take vacation on the Monday after.