It's A Sticky Thing

 

I use this image on yesterday's blog just because because I guess I was somewhat desperate for any image that was even remotely close to the content. However, I really wanted to use the image for a blog regarding sticky surfaces. I don't know that just me but it seems like I can do everything in my power to keep from touching something sticky because once I do the stickiness seems to totally encapsulate my being. I know that sounds a little over the top but it seems true. There's nothing you can do once the stickiness starts except to get something totally out of that universe.

As I indicated yesterday we had a great breakfast at D's restaurant just up the street from my apartment. We been going there every weekend now for almost a year which really been a great experience as far as hanging out with family. I have really kept myself from eating things that need syrup because of the stickiness problem. I do this for two or three months then suddenly I weaken and think that I'm responsible enough that I can eat something with a high (stickiness) quotient and not have to pay the price of being tacky for the rest of the day or even until I have to shower again to finally get the sticky substance off. But I've noticed the last couple weeks I've been ordering pancakes and I should know better but I continue to do so. I try to do different methods of eating pancake without getting sticky. One of course is the use of real butter I can take up hot pancake straight from the grill spread butter on it then eat it like toast. Actually quite good aside from giving a little bit of slippery butter on your fingers is not too bad to clean up afterwards. I've actually even started using my fork and cutting a piece of pancake off and dipping it into the syrup container. When the order pancakes at D's syrup comes as a side in little plastic tubs. Usually they're open so you don't have to take the top off quite convenient for dipping the pancake in and if one is totally careful and not get to generous about how much syrup is on the fork of pancake I might be able to get out of that meal without being sticky too sticky. I must warn you however I must remain hypervigilant and not get carried away because nothing is worse than having one or two drops of syrup on your sweater apparently that is just sticky enough to be tacky every time your hand moves across the the fabric coated with the syrup. Yesterday I was doing pretty good until I went to reach for my coffee and knocked my fork into the syrup and that was it I didn't dare do anything until I could resolve the issue. I don't remember if it was Mark Anthony or Jasmine who reached over and grabbed a set of utensils from the table next to us and pulled me out a new fork which pretty much did the trick. The other table being the other universe. There was the big idea but allowed me to enjoy the last of my pancake syrup stick free for the rest of the day…

Cliché

 

I was actually somewhat productive today that's a good thing. Not only did I have breakfast with my son and granddaughter but I also got a good start on my kid letters for the month. I think I got about half of the done today. So was able to watch James Bond with little or no guilt – – “shaken not stirred”. I'm actually watching the latest James Bond offerings which offers a Bond on the edge. I'm not sure I really enjoy this one is much as the original – – but I'm an old guy that way and nothing as good as the original. Daniel Craig wears me out in his man out of control depiction of 007. Maybe I'm just old.

Regarding my productivity really is not a lot I will do on Sunday, it's a throwback to my religious upbringing and trying to keep the day is holy as possible. It's hard to write James Bond into the scenario but writing letters especially to kids and grandkids is definitely on the list of things I can get away with doing on the Sabbath. Communication with love ones is always high on the list. I need to take a break from time to time when I write these letters however so I don't become mundane and repetitive. Each of the people I write to our individual and they get their own letter hopefully was something special for them. Granted I may cover some of the same area from document to document but it still crafted hopefully with them individually in mind. When I first started writing this was a bit of a challenge but like the blog it's become its own reinforcer, part of my fabric and part of what I do.

It was cold this morning and I headed out to the restaurant at about 8:30 AM. Today of course I was wearing shorts but I had one my red fleece type blankets wrapped around my legs which I'm finding is quite comforting on these cold mornings. Not only does it provide warmth to the legs will also keeps the public quiet about me wearing shorts in the wintertime. So I guess it's a win-win scenario for me. The morning rush and not really hit the restaurant when I got there so I had my pick of tables. They had rearranged our regular table and made it into a large table. I had to talk the seating hostess into a smaller table and to how I liked the chairs. She was new at least I had not seen her before. She had to be trained but she was a fast study and trying to please. It wasn't long before the granddaughter and her boyfriend did Mark Anthony showed up. We had coffee all around and a good time and a good morning sharing our weeks events and plans for the coming week. I can't believe how much I enjoy this kind of prattle perhaps only better if we had a giant house or kitchen or dining room that we all got around the table and really made the experience of Waltons event. I'm just glad for this time together. Is the crazy how it falls into these weird stereotypes? I can't believe it sometimes I believe I'm nothing but a cliché…

Suddenly Saturday

 

I'm kind of unmotivated to do anything. I really hate to confess that but it's true. There's a few things that I didn't get yesterday at the market but I can wait until Monday now. It's midafternoon Saturday I just finished watching a silly James Bond movie. I could plug another movie and really usually kill the rest of the afternoon but it feels like I need to be doing something more productive. I did my arm bike this morning for 30 minutes and I cooked a pretty decent breakfast corn beef hash lite. Just tater tots and half a can a court beef from my buddy Dennis. My goal, this day is to find something else to do that might be labeled productive by my peers. I've been meaning to try to mop the floors for some time. I actually had my home health person, Gloria, pull one of the mops off the the patio last Friday and I really didn't get around to doing much more than the bathroom. I think she thought I was finished with my mopping and put the mop back out on the porch. So now I think I'm going to see if I can find it and finish the job in the bathroom and if I have the energy work in other parts of the apartment.

I was supposed to split a pizza with a friend of mine across the hall this evening but I'm losing my interest in the Domino's pizza. I'm sure could be revived relatively easy it's just the process. Third World countries people are starving and I quibble about having the energy to order a supreme pizza. There's something definitely wrong with this picture. It's late enough in the month that I can actually begin my kid letters for February. I like to get a jump on the first of the month so the letters appear in the first week if it's possible. If I could get most of done in the next couple of days that would be grand.

I was visiting with my ex this morning over the Internet and she's made the decision to stay in Arkansas. This means she has to close the house out which is really going to be an ordeal. This means that she'll be here and Murray to do so for about a week, the same week that my birthday falls in so looks like we may have a birthday dinner at Morelia's one of our favorite restaurants in our old neighborhood. It's kind of bittersweet event if it should happen hate to see Dianne leave but I don't think she was ever really comfortable here in the West. She's a southern girl/woman and shall have the support of her son which I think she's going to need in the next coming months and years as her disease process increases. I think closing out the house is going to be a painful process for Dianne I've already let the place go pretty much. Anything that I really had wanted I think I'd gotten out of the place. Now are just cleaning out what's left in getting out while we can. Aside from making myself available anyway that I can I don't know how much help I can render except support and cheering from the sidelines. Anyway it's another day where I've done very little

Flaky Friday

 

Was a good day. I finally got the gumption up and perhaps the courage to venture out back out to the public. The days are still quite brisk but there's no clouds, but lots of sunshine gives me the illusion of a coming spring.I felt that better get across the street for some provisions for the weekend. I know I could make it with whatever I had the apartment but I felt like I needed something new. Some meat products to get me through the evening and days.

I went to our little market across the street I mean it thinks it's a big market the name like Macy's but I simply have a hard time keeping items on their shelf sometimes. It's not like the 5 o'clock news with pictures of Moscow or other areas were pandemic is been severe but it's just annoying not be able to get what you think you deserve and need. I'm still searching for the La Choy soy sauce. I can't hang the blame entirely on Macy's because I've not been able to find it anywhere in Salt Lake that I've looked. I have this image of cases of the soy sauce sitting on a container ship out in the Pacific or Atlantic or wherever the big backup is. I guess these are just our times and we have to be patient. I'm surviving with Kikkoman sauce. It's a little sweet but doable. The meat products I got report would questionable but two different kinds of beef franks/dogs and some dollar store lunchmeat a.k.a. spam knockoffs. I don't know how good these are but they cost a dollar each and I figure it's worth the crapshoot. If nothing else and their similar in flavor to spam it will be worth it… Open hole can spam just to make a few eggs or McMuffin knockoffs. But like I said meat to get through the weekend. Two kinds of crackers and frozen meat pies one of my dirty little secrets. The little fat bombs but very tasty and nice to be able to pull out of the freezer and be eating and then five minutes. There are sales summary $.79 apiece which is a deal. I even got cookies restocked my supply of vegetable juice and in short maybe feel comfortable and safe for whatever the weekend might bring. I'm still waiting to hear back from the neighbor who intimated that she would be interested in possibly sharing a Domino's pizza this weekend which sounds like it could be fun but I have to admit I'm half tempted to take the bus down to State Street and check out again the Rusted-Sun for either calzone or pepperoni pizza. Actually, I have half a pack of pepperoni's but I still to use. To round out my shopping experience I even got three cans of jalapeno peppers. Probably way more than I needed but like I said when you're shopping for security you can have enough.

I paid for everything with my new credit card. I'm so proud of myself I made it there and back again without losing my wallet. I'll be hypervigilant for the next 6 to 8 months and probably get lax again I hope not. I don't think I could stand going through another wallet loss…

Thoroughly Thursday

 

It's kind of weird but I've been barely out of my apartment all week. I of course am blaming the cold weather, and it is cold there's no question, but I think it's more than that I think I don't have any reason to be going out. I still have all the basic food that I eat during the week enough to get you through till tomorrow or even Saturday. I need some more vegetable juice and fruit but really that's about it I have everything else that I need. Today was the coffee klatch was going to boycott the group this morning pretending I was going to go out and try to get the ID from the state with the photocopies of my birth certificate Social Security card but with my credit card now there's really no need. And besides I was interested in seeing how Rochelle, the resident advocate, handles the group. It was an interesting function. Of course there were no donuts as can a faked out because one of the folks here at the facility had a son go out and pick up some bagels which they commit out when I came around the corner and saw them lying out on the counter. I thought sure donuts and finally, but no that was not the case. We had food bank treats and sometimes that's all you need sugar cures anything.

I thought it was interesting to hear some of the other folks talk about the stress of having to be in your apartment all day because there is either nothing to do or no way to get out. The talk about how nice it is to come down to the group because it allows him to have a reason to leave their apartments. But I keep coming back to the thought though I must really be strange because I'm feeling weirded out because I enjoy my apartment so much and it's kind of a drag to have to leave it for any particular reason. I don't even think I'm getting the reinforcement that I used to when I used to use the trips to the market as my stab at socialization. Now things might be different, I guess if I did not have access to the Internet and to all the world that I do with such a connection then if I did not have this access perhaps I would be in trouble. But luckily, for the time being, that is not the case. Speaking of going to the market I continue to struggle with the concept of home delivery. I just can't pull the trigger and figure out the system of finding a market that will deliver things. This was brought up briefly this morning in the group– – many of the participants use home delivery of one sort or another whether from Smith's, Walmart or Macy's or whatever. They all complain about the market not having what they want to order and how they have to deal with whatever else is used as a substitute I really don't have to go through that if I don't have to. I'm sure once I pull the trigger and start the practice I will just go with the flow and be at home shopper. Maybe, or maybe I'll just use home delivery and worst-case scenarios on them so lazy I can't stand it

Progress

It's funny how one small thing can change the direction of a day maybe even a whole week who knows? Today I continued my quest in replacing my items of identification and payment options and many of my monthly commitments. Feeling a little bit overwhelmed with the Catch-22 which we discussed yesterday in the posting I returned to the battle this morning with renewed vigor. I didn't know how realistic it was but we do have a service coordinator here the apartments in fact she's a new service coordinator. Just last week the service coordinator who was here when I first moved in retired and the new person Rachelle is now in place so I figured what the heck let's give her a shot. So shortly after working out and launch a wandered up to the third floor with a service coordinator's office is at.

I was amazed at how quickly she turned her focus my issues. When I explained to her my need for a new Social Security card as well as a state identification card she went right to work. Again the biggest issue regarding these two identities is to first have that birth certificate. I explained to the service coordinator that I tried to go through the Idaho Department of vital statistics and just became frustrated not knowing exactly how to access the office. It's not like one can make a phone call anymore all these professionals hide behind the Internet in trying to do an Internet connection. Rochelle indicated that she could assist me especially using the weight of her position and cut through a lot of “red tape” which is exactly what I was hoping for. It's really funny just how a name and position can change the whole concept. When I first visited with her she indicated that I had to have my certificate in order to apply for services at this apartment complex. I of course had no recollection of this solar saddle up took the elevator down to the ground floor element to the manager's office and into my file and sure enough there was a copy of my Social Security card as well as my birth certificate! I couldn't believe it. My big issue now is whether the department of motor vehicles, the folks at issue the ID cards, will take a photocopy. What little bit they have on the Internet sources just that they will not and of course you cannot access them through the phone or really get any understanding from what they have on the Internet. What they do indicate is that you have to make an appointment in order to be seen. This is somewhat frustrating in my mind knowing that probably they will not take the photocopies back to square one until I can get a copy from the state of Idaho. And this is just going to take time and patience. But I really think were on the right track and soon I'll have all the items I need to be whole again.

Even if DMV will not take the photocopies I have been reinforced with the idea that somewhere in my apartment this actual birth certificate does exist and I need to continue looking. If nothing else I am making progress

Relief!

 

An okay day all things considered. A little temperature dictate what I did today which is basically stay inside. I tried to pretend I was trying to rectify the problems of losing my wallet couple weeks back. I'm caught in this immense catch 22 as far as no birth certificate which I need for SSA and Social Security card which informs me thatI need to get to my birth certificate for state identification card . I know I have a birth certificate around here somewhere but there's no way in hell and to be able to find it. So, if I contact the state of Idaho I can get a replacement birth certificate but I cannot tell from being scammed or formerly working with the state of Idaho. The least it's going to cost is $45 and probably cost a lot more. This exercise is so overwhelmingly frustrating but I just want to shut down which is basically what I did.

The first two times I went down this morning to check on the mail and it still not come! I cannot believe this I don't know what's happening. I'm sure somewhere down the line will have something to do with the virus pandemic or whatever's going on these days. Too few posts on the subject like that. Then, I went down again after I did my workout and there was mail! All the mail had not come in the last two days and included were two plastic cards one credit, one debit. I felt as Moses coming out of the desert after 40 years on the lean side. On top of this was also my brothers birthday card. My brother insisted that I opened the card as soon as I received it which I did and of course there was five $20 bills! Great to have the cash. I really could have used over the weekend however but I got by Saul the cash goes into my money book. It seems now all at once I'm feeling at ease from losing my wallet.

So the first thing I did after going to the cash and putting it away was that I started contacting my creditors who bit upset with my card not paying the monthly payments. I got Netflix back online, as well as will my medication companies home health people etc. etc. I still have to cover things like infinity and other entities that either charged me before the cards were disabled and will be charged me again soon with the old card number I'll have to replace with the new.. Now the only problem I'm having is that I no longer have a wallet. That is something I really need to figure out so I spent the last part of the afternoon going to my bookcase where I remember seeing somewhere another billfold type of wallet. I finally found it in the bottom shelf of my workstation is not quite what I want but it'll do for now. I put a zipper pull on the zipper and so I've got that part covered. The problem is it's so big and bulky I don't know how I'm knocking lose it. I really do have to check into getting something for chain not I guess. I don't know how that's going to help but it just seems intrinsic that having chain on your wall of, like biker wallets, could be helpful. I'm wondering if I were to do that if I could attach the end of the chain to my backpack or backpack whatever the case should be. I guess that went have to lose the whole pack to lose the wallet. I'm not sure if it's going to work but it might. I've been looking online now for new long wallets may be just the way I should go. I hate to invest in something like that because I loose things so badly. Maybe the big thing is just to grow up and be more responsible…

Like A Needle In A Haystack

 

Why does everything have to be so difficult? I know, I'm the one to blame for this but still it shouldn't have to be this difficult. Today I made the commitment to start the replacement process for all the things I lost when I lost wallet. Perhaps the first and foremost thing I need to start working on replacing is my state identification card. Perhaps just as important or maybe more important is actually be placing my Social Security Administration card are my Social Security card. Because really in this country unless you have your SSA card or you are a nobody. I suppose that's a little over the top drama lies the certainly how I feel. Especially when I started out knowing I got to have something which means them but I have to find it somewhere in my mess. And knowing that I've had to replace my ID before I know that they want to start with your birth certificate.

A long time ago I remember my mom given me my birth certificate before my first marriage. For remember right you had to have your birth certificate to get your marriage license or something like that all I know is I had to have it in my mom made a big deal out of present it to me. I got the marriage license and then promptly lost the verse certificate or action I filed it away thinking out be able to find it when I needed it and doing such a great job I never found it again at least when I needed it. I think the birth certificate did show up at some point in time when I is least expecting it. At some point in time various wives of taking on responsibility of watching over my important papers and of course that's only good as the marriage. When matter to my spouse leaves so does knowledge of important papers, photographs and of course certificates.

You know, they really should the birth certificate the size of typing paper and it should be laminated making up easy to find when you need that document! It's crazy my birth certificate is a little bitty documentand it seems that my mind that it's like a negative black background with white writing at least that's what I seem to remember. I'm sure after the last go around trying to replace my identification card I placed the birth certificate and envelope and one of my many files or folders thinking this is the best place to keep it what I'll need to find it next. In the back of our mind thinking I will never need this document again… I'm so stupid.

The last option I think is going to be actually having to contact Idaho Department of records or whatever is the department that handles birth certificates and see what I have to do to order another birth certificate. This of course will be happening the same time I'm contacting SSA about getting another Social Security card like I said it just never stops

End Of The Binge Sunday

Another perfectly good day down the tubes, will not totally down the tubes, they did get up early got ready and wander down to the restaurant where I met my son, Mark Anthony for breakfast. But seriously that's been the high point of my day aside from a short visit with my ex-wife over the Internet. Shamefully I must report that I finished the second season of Dead Like Me it seemed to me that it ended differently than what I remember the first time through. I guess in my minds eye I wanted all the reapers to get there wings or whatever the transition to wherever they were going. I have not seen plans for a third season in the second season ended quite a while ago. So I guess these reapers are just in limbo.

This the 23^rd which means essentially one more week and this month and normally that's not a big deal except I start writing my letters on the first. Except for this next month, February which is my birthday month which means I'll be 71 this go around. It's not quite freaking me out like turning 70 did. And really 70 was the great freak out just a minor one. I must admit every time I hear something on the news was somebody important dying now it seems like they're always in the 70s sometimes in the 80s or even 90s but right now mainly in the 70s since that's the time of the baby boomers to see a bunch of boomers kicking the bucket the next couple of years and sadly one of them will be me. I'm getting used to the fact. Stop freaking me out the way that used to and I guess that's good that's part of the system working getting ready for the great transition.

This week I really have to put some focus on getting my identification and hopefully receiving the plastic that's been promised. First and foremost Imus contacts Social Security administration and see how I get another Social Security card. I've done this before but it's been more than 20 years of I can't quite remember the process. I'll check into the Internet sure they have I'm sure SSA has

system set up on the Internet. Once I get the Social Security card, I find my birth certificate and two proofs of address I should be good to go get my state ID. If I can get these two processes done, if the cards come in the mail, I will count this last week of the month the success and maybe just maybe I can get into my letter writing early

Binge Baby Binge!

 

Aside from running down to check in the mail this morning updating this blog is the most vigorous thing I've done today. I still plan to do 30 minutes on my bike but I don't know how concrete that particular comment is. And like to do the bike but party got my tool hundred minutes in for the week just seems like a good thing to do keep inform. The washings done, the dishes are basically done floor is relatively swept and to be honest with you all and been doing is binging on “Dead Like Me” that I have on Amazon. I'm watching with commercials about not so bad. I guess it's bad as other party scene the series completely once before first and second seasons. It's such a great concept but I love the 30 or so hours of entertainment over a couple of days. I've done the same with the Umbrella Academy and I just might start watching it again for not careful. I guess if I had to justify my behavior that might be that I'm worried about a possible small skin breakdown on my butt. When trying to lay back in my chair is much as I can to take the pressure off the buttocks. I was hoping I could get my little healthcare provider Melissa here who is really been the only individual, and a long time, who can apply the tape I use as a “second skin”, on my butt. I really found in the past this tape technique really helps especially in the area of keeping me up in my chair and being able to get things done. And there's they Rube, not doing anything anyway getting productive.

I made it home with the cash intact. Now I just have to search the apartment to find my one last remaining wallet. I'm not sure where it's at by know I've seen it over the last year so I don't quite remember where I got it but I seem to have like three of them which kind of makes me think that Dianne may have got them at some point in time. She likes to stock up on things almost as much as I do. So if I don't find the wallet going to have to figure out another way to carry the cash around until I can get my credit cards back. They should be in the mail any day but today I checked and they weren't there. Now, maybe Monday. I just can't believe how thoroughly I've been sucked into the plastic card economy. It sure does make things easier to do however that is a lesson learned.

It's sad but I'll probably go back to the series after I finish and post today's blog. Either that are spent some time visiting with folks on this website of sort of become involved with. It's weird that seems like a large proportion are from Europe specifically England. I'm sure there's a good number that are USA but it's hard to find them. The only been able to communicate with a couple of these folks and they are almost as strange as I am. But we do have a few things in common and many are people with disabilities which I think is very interesting to see how they live their lives compared to how I love mine. What's also interesting in all these places I go on the old guy, I'm the old man. There's another guy on there about 66 that's kind of interesting but I'm not too interested in the guys not really. I would just like to find some interesting folks to electronically hang with.and perhaps the best part about them being in Europe is that they're not going to be surprised me at my doorstep anytime soon…

Fun Friday

 

I can't believe how cold it was this morning. Oh, it wasn't that cold it just seemed cold maybe because I was forewarned by my health staff this morning, Gloria. Wednesday I actually told Gloria that I dated her to come early if she could because I had a meeting at 11 AM. Yes, it was the assist meeting are traditionally have on Tuesdays. That didn't happen this week and Andreas want to have the meeting on Friday which I didn't think much of the time. But since Friday is one of my home health days no way of getting the house anytime before 9:30 AM and 90 minutes just is not make it when trying to get to the bus, train and then to the office for my 11 o'clock meeting. Knowing this, when Gloria came this morning I didn't do anything to hasten our time together. I could probably shave 15 to 10 minutes off my home health experience this morning but I didn't. I really tried but there just does not seem to be away to make that trip in 90 minutes.

I was about 15 minutes late for the start of the meeting which actually did not start until Caroline got to the meeting which was another 15 minutes. So I was good which is good enough for me. We rammed through the names with Andrea's efficiency None of the immaculate detail with which David would've addressed problem is you the poor consumer would've exhibited and then we signed the document. Now it's just a breeze through the signature were off to the next. I'm adapting, it's what I do best. So the meeting was quick for more than one reason. Once we got the signed documents all the way under is actually wanted meeting of the volunteers to discuss ideas for increasing the programs visibility within the Salt Lake City Limits. It seems are not getting enough Salt Lake City folks wishing for services. The five this kind of hard to believe since we signed so many documents for the Salt Lake group but they want ideas we can give them ideas. We got assignments at the end of this ad hoc meeting mine is to contact Utah transit Authority to see about some free advertising Salt Lake City buses. I noticed on the way home that the boards which are traditional points of advertisement on the inside of the bus didn't seem to be on the new buses. So I don't know how we might do this but I well go through the effort to contact what few folks I still have as contacts at the transit authority to see what they can come up with. I'm not holding my breath for much of anything. The idea I continue to promote is to have Jason (the director) or Andrea's who's over Emergency Housing, is to be interviewed on local media channels weather radio or television. These for profit ventures need to have some sort of response to the needs of the community usually served through private nonprofit entities like assist, Inc. These interviews are kind of a joke because these shows are usually on late-night weekends or early early mornings like four or 5 AM. It's like something these private entities can show that they are working for and did need to the public trust. I'm not sure what that means but it sounded kind of good.

Were going to meet again I think next Thursday morning (which should be really good for me since I don't have my shower etc. in the morning on Thursdays). The only drawback for a Thursday morning meeting was that I would have to miss coffee klatch of this might be a great reason for doing exactly that…okay

Changing Of The Guard

 

I was really hoping my new credit cards would come today. It's been a week now but alas no credit card today. I thought about going up to the credit union to get in another hundred bucks – – kind like I talked about yesterday but beside the hold off until tomorrow, Friday and see what happens with the mail then. Once again I don't need the cash right off except it's comforting to have cash on hand for any emergencies that might arise. It's just strange how in the old days people are so suspicious of the credit card concept in cash was the way to go now it's just the reverse. I think would be easier for me to order a pizza at 10:30 PM with a credit card or bank card as opposed to cash. But still I love to have folded money either in my backpack or in my money book hidden away in my bookshelf. I think I've ranted on the concept before that more more stores are beginning to take only plastic. I still don't know if that's illegal with what's written on currency. It's certainly a way to punish people who are low income, minorities and other groups of folks who would have a hard time qualifying for plastic. It's just so obvious how can they refuse authentic currency?

Anyway, I was about ready to suit up for the trip over to the credit union the polls cash when I remembered that it was the farewell social four supports service person Ann. She has been the support coordinator since I've been here and thank goodness of only had a user once or twice but she was supportive and knowledgeable about my questions and helpful to me during my transition phase. It's kind of weird to see her go. I was kind of surprised to find out should only been with the organization about seven years. Ann's placement is a much younger version of Ann a person named Rochelle was also Spanish-speaking which make a big difference, I think, and services to many of the consumers in this building and other buildings she may be attached to. I mean Rochelle is really young compared to other staff and will be real interesting to see how she transitions into support services here at the building. I will probably continue to keep a low profile as I always do. Enjoying my days hunkered down away from the pandemic. I really hope a spring comes on the pandemic will lighten up and make getting out about much easier and less dangerous. Crossing my fingers that no variants arise that could deal the deadly sucker punch which could very well take me out. I don't think I'm being hypochondriacal either. Luckily I had the two shots in the booster when I contracted Covid and what I experienced are very well can understand how I would've been a goner but I not been so involved in taking care of myself and luckily been able to access the resources are needed.

Ambivalence

 

I chose to stay in today. My odometer doesn't even read a mile that I've gone and that's okay by me. It's cold and it's yucky outside and I really didn't have anywhere to go. When I went to bed last night I was really seriously thinking of heading back to the credit union this morning and pulling out another hundred dollars just because I could and just to tide me over to tide me over until cards come. Right now, just because I put away loose change I had before I went to the bank yesterday, I have about $14 to my person – – not counting the two rows of quarters – –. So this morning I got to thinking what I need the cash for? Having the hundred dollars in cash would certainly give me a level of comfort that if I needed to I could purchase what I needed. But I don't need anything as I've gone over and over again in this blog. Between what's in my cupboards including the pantry and in the frozen section of the refrigerator I'm doing just fine. Oh it be nice to have a steak or roast but it wouldn't be worth getting dressed up on a day like today just to buy something to eat. My mystery friend dropped off another load of food last night as a matter of fact grapes, the little round cheeses with crackers, romaine lettuce cherry tomatoes even fixings for bean burritos. I'm going to have to tell her to stop bringing over such treats. I kind of think she is actually splitting her groceries with me. I think she buys in such quantities that she cannot eat what you purchases by yourself in that way she's allowed to share. And I will take it no question but I doubt I have anything to give.

Now, I'm sure the steady reader is actually seeing through my macho exterior. And knows the real reason I did not saddle up and go out to the bank this morning was because I don't want to lose another hundred dollars! Seriously, I really am afraid if I were to get another hundred dollars for the credit union I would lose it too. I'm sure I can intellectualize my way out of this if I want to go through that much trouble. I'm kind of putting my life on hold until these cards arrive. I can't believe how much power of giving these two pieces of plastic. Which as a matter of fact I need to get on the ball and call all my creditors that I have cards linked to my account which pulls out payment monthly. Netflix is already contacted me as well as consumer cellular. Consumer cellular was very gracious about given me till the end of February (which I won't need but it's nice to know). Netflix is not said anything but a better contact them because they might just send it to collections. When I was talking to the consumer cellular person she indicated had we not talked the most likely would've sent to collections had I not told them what was going on. So, that's on my agenda for tomorrow if I don't go out and get 100 bucks.

Mortification!

 

I'm so embarrassed I'm beside myself. I don't even know if I'd relay this I'm so astonished at how stupid I am. I'm going to try. I don't know hundred 500 words out of it but I will try my best.

I was pretty sure that we were not going to have an Assist meeting this week just because yesterday was a federal holiday which means that nobody at assist was working which means that a private nonprofit agency which provides services like assist i.e. emergency home repair are basically inundated, totally swamped with phone calls and people demanding services. Still I called at the normal time a few minutes after 8 AM and got a hold of Andrea's and sure enough no Assist meeting today. Actually Andrea's callback a couple hours later wanting to have the meeting on Friday at 11 AM which hopefully will be okay. Just like clockwork, I listened to the weather this evening and of course a storm is coming on Friday. Perhaps even slow but probably that when I see it. So, I had my day opened up for me and I had a number of things I wanted to do. First I want to get over to the credit union and pull out 100 bucks hold me over until the cards come, then I want a go to Walmart and check Walmart's last and found in hopes that somebody turned the wallet in. Remember, somebody charged $86.40 on my card at 7 PM on the night my wallet was lost.

I'm getting used to wearing a lap blanket these days. I really don't know how much a lap blanket retains heat on the legs but I do feel a little more comfortable wearing the blanket and perhaps it does keep me a bit warmer. I like to say I'm doing the community a favor by covering up my bony old legs. I dug my red jacket out of the closet. A red jacket is very warm on a day like today are much less cumbersome than by great white jacket. And soon I was waiting for the bus. Even though we're still caught it in version the day wasn't too bad with the sunshine out dressed appropriately. Getting quite used to this particular bus trip a right to look community college then transfer to another bus which drops me off at the credit union. Space I was rather proud of myself because I found this great little neoprene wallet full kind of thing that just fit the change I had left from the hundred dollars taken out last week. But I was still excited about point out another hundred just to make sure I could make it. I quite enjoy the credit union the really are good people. Well I got $100. . Now it was back to the bus stop but before I wanted to make sure I had my seatbelt on which I've forgotten to put on the earlier so I went down to the toilet at the bottom of the bank. I never did get the seatbelt connected because my spasms are so significant today that was a little worried I would slide right out of the chair. I had so many coverings with the leg blankets and red coat. I couldn't get enough slack to do up the seatbelt and now I was ruining out of time. Fortunately, I made it back to the bus stop. Once I got to the community College I picked up the 217 and went down to Walmart.

I was hoping against hope but I did stop at the lost and found in the store employee diligently searched through whatever they have back there but there was no wallet. The service desk was really quite limited should even call it the service desk. We wouldn't even sell me a roll of quarters so luckily the person did directly to the bank branch at the market which sold me two rows of quarters enough to get me through wash for the rest of the month. Somehow, this heavy pieces of currency felt good about lap pack. At the time to check to see if they carried LaChoy brand of soy sauce – – they didn't. My spasms continued to be significant about severe. At one time I really thought I was going to slide out of my chair. I was getting to the point where I was sitting all scabby whomp is in the chair would like a real gimp. I picked up some Pringles and some hot dog buns and headed for checkout. Because of my weird and seating it seemed I could barely move it seemed like but I got in line and got checked out and when I went to pay I didn't have my wallet! I was tharn. Double searching myself hopefully thinking that the bill folded fallen on my bag or by foot pedals are caught between the blanket in my jacket that was nowhere. In fact the guy behind me act of the Samaritan bought my dinner for me I was humiliated and brokenhearted realizing that lost 100 bucks! Well only 80 since I still had two rows of quarters but still how irresponsible can someone be. I'm surprised the system even lets me out of my apartment. So, luckily tomorrow I'll be eligible to pull another hundred bucks out but let's see what I do if I even do.

MLK day 2022 Please Pass The Frank

It's Martin Luther King Day today. That makes it a federal holiday no bail, nobody at the front office, everybody off work who seems to work for state federal and private nonprofit organizations who aren't racists. Supposedly the bus system is running on Sunday schedule – – whatever that means – – that's what the driver told me yesterday when I took the bus to the movies. Because the government offices are closed today I am just a sort of hanging out in cooking. I actually took a frozen package of chicken that I got from the food bank probably more than a year ago. The little section on the package said best used by July 20 20 Which Is Way past its use date but seems be cooking up okay. I got a stalk of celery

or a bunch of celery whichever you prefer I found that both are correct and I wanted to make Frank for a long time. Last week when I was still feeling the effects of the Covid one of my neighbors here at the complex gave me a chicken breast wrapped in tin foil. It was very nice but I want to save the chicken breast for Frank and today I used it. The frozen chicken turned out very well to. Added both together it's much more protein than I usually use my make this dish. But I spent a good time mincing up garlic's, onions and celery. It took quite a while that was a bit messy which kind of bummed me out since Gloria did such a great job cleaning the kitchen on Friday. I'll just have to deal with it clean up a little bit before she gets her on Wednesday morning. I guess I could've gone out and done something even if just going to the market. I probably would've if I had my bank card and credit card. But since I'm operating on cash I decided it be best to just stay in until tomorrow when I can INFUSE another hundred dollars from the Branch when it opens again. I really hope my cards come in this week.

Does anyone know why I cannot find any bottles of La Choy soy sauce? I have gone to to stores searching for the soy sauce. Perhaps tomorrow I'll had up to Walmart and feel they have at as long as I'm going to be there about the fraudulent use of my bank card last week. I did pick up a small bottle of Kikkoman soy sauce which is okay just a little too sweet for me. I can use it during a pandemic bowed much rather have the other. The other seems much more salty. I'm sure the Kikkoman will be just fine on my rice and vegetables tonight. Perhaps LaChoy is a victim of the pandemic and all the backed up boats out in the ocean. Can you believe and going on and on about soy sauce? Obviously I'm one of those ugly Americans who has way too much money and spent his time worrying about ineffectual soy sauce. Because quite frankly Frank is a dish is good just by itself the soy sauce is just an afterthought…

Surveillance

 

Dear get the feeling that you're losing control over something that you thought was relatively minimal in your life but seems to take on a life of its own? Kind of feeling that way tonight. With nothing really else to do I decided I would take in a movie today still trying to get as much usage out of that movie subscription deal that I'm involved with right now with the Riegel Movie theaters. I have to be careful however because I don't have any credit card/bank card backup which means I'm basically on the cash economy which is okay but I spent a good hunk of the hundred I took out the other day on this morning's breakfast. So even though the movie doesn't cost me anything if I purchase anything I'll be using cash and then I remembered that tomorrow is a federal holiday and no banks are open's so I can get another hundred tomorrow I'll have to wait till Tuesday. But I can watch a movie and it just so happens that I did have enough cash for a drink and to my surprise I had enough movie points to get a small popcorn.

Just for the exercise was waiting for the people getting concessions I wandered over to the service desk and inquired if my wallet had been turned in. This had an interest in effect and then another manager came out and asked me about what I needed. When I explained to him he got very serious asking me pertinent questions of when and where I was at the movies when this happened. All the time he was asking these questions is focused on the computer screen in front of him and I couldn't tell what he was doing. After a few minutes he asked me what my wallet look like and I explained to him that it was large oblong made out of neoprene or some kind of plastic cloth. It turns out he was scanning various videos of the premises. In fact he actually saw my wallet and then later he actually saw who took it but I guess is illegal things he could not tell me. It was at this time he asked me how I filed a police report and of course I had not. I didn't even think of doing such a thing nobody else brought it up so I didn't really consider it. The theater employee went on to tell me that he can't share any of the visuals with me until I do file a police report and that will allow the theater to get more involved in the case. I don't think so do anything about finding my wallet is. Oh, also he indicated that I need to do the same with the folks across the street at the Walmart because when the individual purchased the items with my credit card he/she was basicallycommitting fraud knows what other offenses. But, I'll have to file a report.

I don't want to file the report. If I do sure as sugar I think that little theater employee is going to get into a lot of trouble. I guess it's not my job to mitigate what happens to a person who took it upon themselves to essentially steal my wallet, when they didn't turn it in,. Then I got to thinking I'm sure the fire the whole person's ass and those what else. I don't think I want to press charges if that's what they asked me to do. I particularly don't want someone showing up at my door threatening me if not more. However if I don't miss this person going to continue in this fraudulent behavior? Like I said I don't know how much I really want to shake the tree on this sucker. Tomorrow, is a federal holiday I don't know if the police department will be open at least for stuff like giving statements or filing a crime report. Tuesday, will be the first working day. Could I told my brother Ross about the situation's response was to just “shoot them” and I know he was being totally serious. I won't go that far I just want my documentation back and forget this whole incident ever happened…

Oops In The Night

 

I lived at this apartment for almost 5 years now quite amazing. In all that time I think I've dropped the hang control to my bed three times. The last two months it has been the three times. One of those times it was getting close to 7 AM . I suppose if I go any further I should illustrate to you what I'm talking about. When I got home from my spinal stenosis operation Dianne had purchased a mechanical bed I suppose is another name for it is better but it was the electric bed that had a number of functions actually raising up and down mattress as well as the foot of the bed raising as well as the head of the bed raising. And as I indicated, the mattress itself will raise from a low position may be 8 inches temperatures high to the height position. This was not by design but because of the ability of this bad I've been able to live independently for the past five years. Essentially I can lower the bad enough in the evening to roll into the bed at night time and then in the morning I can raise the mattress high enough to where I can actually “fall”into my power chair. This hand controls vital to me being able to do these things in it for some reason I can't access the controls I'm dead in my bed.

This morning I actually dropped the controls twice and was lucky enough to be able to use my long hook up the controls and the second time I had the mattress down the floor level and I could actually reach of the bed far enough to grab the controls by hand and save my day. No having to call one of my neighbors, family member or worst-case scenario the Taylorsville fire department. Once again my paranoia begins to bubble up when I start thinking about how difficult it is for me to make this transfer particularly with the new chair. It's hard enough at 70 what is it going to be at 71 and beyond? Paranoia gets worse when I think of how attending my kids are become. Remember I wrote a couple weeks ago about hi sorry got the impression from my brother my older brother about his indication that “there are living situations where you could get help if you needed it”. Of course I didn't have the balls to ask him as he tired of helping me and should not call them anymore. I did not do that and sadly I have begin to really watch what I would ask him to do for me just for that very reason. This morning as I was fishing the hang controls for the bed off the floor for a second time I began to fantasize what I would do when Mark Anthony or Michelle asks me should I consider long-term care or when will I consider long-term care? The kindest with this morning as I was pondering these scenarios but filtered through the light of day may be is not so bad and their honest questions and probably more important than that are questions that need to be asked and how my going to respond when the time comes. My knee-jerk reaction is that I want to stay independent living by myself with as much help as I can forward for as long as I can. I don't know what the answer is and I hope I will know when the time comes.…

Almost There…

I think I do pretty good at living on my own independently. Surprised at how significant independence is in my life. I don't think it necessarily is tied into my disability to lessor feel the same as I did before my accident as near as I can tell but the that's been 50 some years ago. I think about my independence all the time especially since I got the new chair. I believe I've gone over the problem with the new chair number of times far is it not having the handholds or grab bars that the villagers seemed to have which helped me essentially live with it particular getting up in the mornings. Going to bed using our problem getting up I really need assistance pulled myself to where I can transfer into my chair. So the point I'm making is that for the most part I spend my life trying to think it's set up my life that I can do what I need to get done by myself and I usually get away with it however not so this evening

It's Friday so that means my home health person, Gloria, is in today to do the dirty deed in the morning today she was going to do $20 worth of housekeeping. That's basically one hour. What she does I've noticed, which is pretty interesting to me, is that she tends to need $20 at the end of each pay period and ordered for her to have enough gas to get through to pay time. I can remember just how close those days were trying to eke out enough money to survive. It's kind of funny depending on who your home healthcare person is. My other home health people have just automatically cleaned my apartment while they waited for me as part of the hour that they spend with me. Not so Gloria, and I do not fault her. Today however I felt I really got my $20 worth it only did she clean up the kitchen area but Gloria also spent a good amount of time in the bathroom getting my sink area cleaned up. As part of her cleaning routine she also sweeps the floors in the rooms of the apartment. I don't know how it out know if she somehow todaypulled the cord for my here out of the wall.

Salt Lake is currently suffering an inversion. Cold air is trapped at the bottom of the valley. Even though the sun shines out it looks nice very warm but it is not in fact it's pretty cold. Luckily, today was the first day that I didn't go anywhere out of the apartment's. I should of I desperately need celery and some soy sauce. But I elected to stay in and because the sunshine in the apartments I guess it warms the apartment pretty well and I hadn't thought about turning on the heater until later on in the afternoon when I tried nothing happened. I use the heater last night and it was working fine but now the kind of panic not knowing what could've happened. Then I took a breath and decide logically go through the system will ensure enough tracing the plug I found out that something or someone had pulled the plug from the wall. Normally this wouldn't be a problem for me but the plug-in for the heater is in the wall behind the bookshelf which holds my flatscreen. And there's no way I can get back there to plug it in myself. It's the way the plug is resting on the shelf I tried to get a stick long enough to see if I can push it forward into the socket to no avail. I'm going to have to get somebody to monkey around and reach in their plug in their. It's not a big deal and I probably gotten addicted to evening heat beasting but it would sure be nice to have this plugged in. Some of us hoping to get Ted the maintenance guy here but of course he's gone and this is the beginning of a three-day weekend. My best option is probably going to be Mark Anthony if he comes over and we go to breakfast on Sunday morning. I suppose I could call my brother Carl, Mark Anthony or cousin or something but it seems way out of any of their neighborhoods to come over for so little plug-in. I'll just rough it for a couple days and hopefully see Mark on Sunday. But like I said I'm not complaining overall I did pretty damn good being independent…

Aftermath

 

Thursday morning, I'm laying in bed almost making the decision not to go the coffee klatch this week and maybe never again. I'm just not getting anything out of these attempts at socialization. Don't think as a thing to do with me being the only male at the the coffee group just a lot of hubbub and they don't even have real donuts. I'd slept poorly all evening mostly my fault I have a sensor on the side of my chair it is actually a switch which turns on my chair's night running lights. The switch is pretty sensitive and each time I turn in to my chair during the night it switches the lights on. If I rock the better certainly I can turn them off with certainly doesn't do anything for sleep. So anyway, I'm checking my bank statements on my mobile banking system and see that there been $86 charge to my bank card! This of course answer the question of whether I was going to coffee clutch are not. Long story short is I could not call the bank until 9 AM at which time and after significant hold I talked to a nice young woman who helped me stop payment on my cards essentially shutting them down. She gave me the strong suggest that if I were to go down to the bank I would be able to get new cards immediately and not have to wait for the new cars to be mailed out and of course this is what I wanted to do.

Salt Lake the socked in with an inversion right now. The date actually looks nice sunshine almost springlike but once again, getting out in the elements it's a bit chilly however today I wrapped my legs and my red blanket and grabbed my black woolly for my shoulders and back and off I went to the bank. The long-distance just complicated and you have to wait for a bit but eventually I picked up the right bus and got quickly to the's institution of my savings. It was midmorning no surprises nobody else at any of the service Windows. We got a nice young man who basically told me that because I did not have access to proper identification I would not be able get cards replaced today but he did start the process. However he informed me that I could take out $100 a day until my new cards arrived and that's okay with me. That's what I was worried about most. However, I had forgotten that my pharmacy card, insurance cards as well as my Social Security card and photo ID was also in the wallet. I'm just praying that whoever charge the money on the card at the local Walmart maybe (wallet somewhere that'll get turned in. That's almost too much to wish for but let's keep our fingers crossed.

The only positive turn I can put on this whole ordeal is that whoever grabbed my wallet went over to the Walmart across the street from the moviehouse and charged $86 worth of whatever. I'm hoping that it was food for a family that really needed it. I keep coming back to the fact there were three people in the theater when I left counting me. One old guy up in the upper section of the theater who I could not see coming even close to where I was sitting in bed the little guy standing in the doorway who comes in and cleans up after the movies. He's the one who had to seeing the wallet. Is not a native English speaking person when I tried to talk to him about what I needed or wanted. He looked a little cagey but I'm trying not to be too judgmental. I certainly wouldn't want to get him fired or anything so I really haven't pushed the issue. But there just weren't a lot of culprits are possibilities in that room when I left and of course there was nobody there when I got back. The place was swept clean. Perhaps the lesson here is this is what happens when you go to the movies the middle of the day…

Movie Tears

 

I don't know what to think. For the longest time I've been meaning to take myself to the movies way before Christmas. And indeed I want to take in the new Spiderman offering. So finally this morning the day was beautiful, comparatively speaking, and us feeling pretty decent from a good morning shower etc. I was dressed are to go. However not to be too irresponsible I force myself to do 40 minutes on my arm bike 20 minute short film the usual one hour alarm cranking. I realized that today's 40 minutes in the previous two days of 60 minutes each I had achieved by 200 minutes a workout per week is my OT/PT have indicated I need to be doing. I still plan to do a couple of 30 minute sets before the weekends but I accomplished at least that goal for the week. So I felt I was worthy of going to the movies.

Once again the day was not as warm as I anticipated but I had my red blanket over my legs and a good scarf around my neck and I played a game on my cell phone until a bus arrived. I think there is only one other person possibly to in the theater when I took my position. I had splurged and gotten the hot dog (and I should know better because the poor beast had obviously been cooking for hours it was almost jerky as well as the bread itself was pretty old and I'm not one to complain lightly) and I got the smallest Mountain Dew then with in to enjoy the previous until the feature started. At one time immediately after I'd gotten to the theater seating I felt something hit my leg as I was getting situated and realized it was my wallet had fallen free from my black pouch that I carried in around my legs. I didn't stop what I was doing and picked up the wallet – – which I know I should have – – thinking that I will just grab it before I leave the theater. I must admit I enjoyed the movie however a couple of the main characters died which really bums me out. I did enjoy however the inclusion of the prior two spidermen. I did get a bit confused with the treatment of the villains/bad guys and how their fates were depicted but I definitely enjoyed the film.

I figured I'd better hit the bathroom before he went on my journey home and was in the bathroom that I realized I had not picked up my wallet. Now I written about this thing I do it in the movies as far searching for my name in the credits and this I did plus Marvel comics always have a small piece buried at the end of each movie sort of depicting the next movie. So when I left my seat there is only one person left in the theater and it seemed like a pretty old guy up in the upper level. I didn't pay much attention and left. While I was using the restroom I realized I didn't have my wallet and figured that are better immediately backtracked. I got back to theater four Place of been completely cleaned out. I did speak with the person who was the claim that he claims not to found a wallet and kind is suggested the old guy may have had something to do with it but I cannot see that especially since he would just be coming down and leaving the theater. I went back and checked a couple of times I also checked the lost and found nothing there. There is little money in the wall and not worried about that. Of course I am worried about my credit card and my bank card and there was my ID card as well. Those are hard to replace. I'm a little concerned about having to do all that especially stopping our counseling the cards. I hope the wallet up turns up. Something deep down says that it won't I just would like to know what happened. I mean there's only three other people in the theater. And like they always say “it couldn't have vanished into thin air” I just hate the process of replacing everything…

Rusted Sun Pizza

 

Since last week I was totally under the weather due to Covid and I missed my Assist Inc. meeting because at that time I was at my physicians office doing my Covid test, I felt more commitment than usual to make my weekly meeting and indeed there was a meeting today. I confessed up front that I had Covid but I was finished with my quarantine time Andreas indicated if I was masked up I should be okay . In fact when I did get there remain staff group was living so it was just Andreas and me practicing social distancing's shooting through a number of applications. There are a bunch but we worked quickly and I was out of there by 12 PM .

Actually would us testing the temperature before I left my apartment I really felt that it was warmer than being out in the weather for an extended period of time. Luckily, I did take a wrap for my legs, which is something I don't generally do, but was only wearing a fairly heavy shirt on top longsleeve and my cap. For the time I made it to the train station are you are should warm jacket of some sort belly something heavier than was wearing. I actually did take a net crap muffler which really helped a lot. However there is still one thing I had to do and that was deliver an envelope that was returned in the mail to me couple days ago. I sent a friend of mine a monthly compilation of word puzzles that I subscribe to a year ago. I have gotten all 12 editions and I'm still working on the first one so I figured I could send one to Steve. However, U.S. Postal Service once again, conspired against me and returned my envelope as undeliverable. This is BS-I even had Jennifer upfront write out the address on the envelope and it was well done. But anyway since I was downtown and the day looked okay I figured I would take a detour on the way home and drop off the magazine. I actually enjoyed the trip however uncomfortable the cold air made me feel – – haven't been later in the spring or summer would be a great adventure—I found the house with very little effort and of course it's not even close to being accessible – – movie is a cute little house. I tried to call Stephen to let them know I was outside but Stephen did not pick up souls best as I could but tossed the envelope onto the front porch and took off. I was in the area 21^st South State Street on my way back to the train station and I want to get some lunch. There is this little place of ours one to go ever since I was still working at the relevance and even called Rusted Sun Pizza. Like I said the place looked interesting always intrigued me so today I figured I would go in and check it out.

Rusted Sun Pizza, on the inside is much smaller than I anticipated. The place smelled wonderful however tomatoes of every kind it seemed. We offered quite a bit sparser menu went if you understood it. I tend to focus on the fact they had all these fancy dancy pizzas offerings which I just want a basic meat lover, pepperoni or just regular pizza nothing fancy. I immediately noticed the place had a great vibe. One of the best things I saw was the counter was a level I could reach with my chair which I later transferred to after I did feel at enjoy my calzone at the place they put me. That's right I ordered calzone, the first I've ever ordered just because I didn't understand or pizza menu. Later I found they would've built any kind of pizza I wanted pepperoni, Olive or whatever which I think I will remember for next time and it will definitely be a next time. The place is so small you felt you had a working relationship with the staff. I ordered coffee with my pizza which they immediately made a pot fresh. I was worried because I didn't really know how to eat a calzone and luckily I had my rocker knife with me which made the process much easier. The owner was also the cook who is working in the back and often came up to the front check things out. I came later in the lunch hour place is about half-full emptied quickly after the 1 o'clock hour had been reached. I ate about three force of the calzone and they wrapped it up for me dictate the rest home. The fresh coffee was nice and hot and kept me going until is able to reach the warm environment of my apartment, a very nice day…

Little Teapot Big Steam

 

No pun intended but yesterday I religiously kept the teapot filled with water all day long, and teapot religiously shoved moisture into the air all day long. I won't say it was a form of desperation but I'm willing to give it a shot that is increasing the amount of liquid/moisture in the air. The other day when I was visiting with Dianne over video chat she once again encouraged me to drink tons of water then if not that any kind of fluid. I've been collecting bottles of juice from the sharing shelf all year so I figured it was time to seriously do some drinking. One of the reasons I don't ingest a lot of fluids is because fluids in equals fluids out. Which means the whole bathroom process over and over all day long. I have to admit being semi-quarantined as I am it's a bit easier to frequently use the restroom when you're home as opposed to trying to get something accomplished out in the community and really not sure which to review restrooms might be accessible someone use the power wheelchair. Still however I must be honest and say I still have a hard time adjusting fluids.

In one of the many articles Dianne forward to the from the Internet many talked about the respiratory aspect of Covid and the Omercon variant. I don't know why I didn't understand this before but a significant part of the disease process is how to text the respiratory system. I had a very good friend die of Acute Respiratory Distress Syndrome or (A R D S). I might even have a reference or two and some are very early blogs during the late 1900s. Holy cow! This disease process could really tell me! I suddenly felt aware of how much more serious this condition is that I have or understood. However the attempt to figure out how to get some sleep with all of wheezing I was experiencing the talked about introducing moisture into the air – – just as Dianne has suggested – – via humidifier or a good old teapot on the kitchen stove. This was worth a shot in my estimation and so all day yesterday I filled and refilled the little teapot. I didn't use any of the hot water to make tea though I should have this would not hurt me at all particular from the hydration concept. Dianne suggested some of the other items I have available to make tea with which she sent over in a box number of years ago. I assume I still have the items like licorice root and honey which is supposed to be very good on this kind of cough prevention protocols I'm just going to have to do a search and see if I get my hands on some. Until then however fill the teapot and wait until something smells weird in the apartment that madly rush to the stove but carefully remove the hot teapot place it under the faucet , fill with water the look to process begin once more.

A

I was totally blown away this morning \ suffering the past couple of evenings. The hydration of my atmosphere seems to made all the difference! Itself and is hard to believe. Of course, I am the great complainer as well as many other things, I like a dry atmosphere, the dry air, it just feels like I'm pushed myself through with air debate matters worse it seems to make the atmosphere little bit cooler which feels cold to me but that's okay I guess I'd rather deal with those particular issues that listen to myself wheeze all night trying to catch some sleep in between breaths…

The Omicron wheeze

 

I don't plan to make a big issue out of having Covid and probably more precisely the Omicron variant but seriously the variant is what is, driving my life at this very point in time. To be honest with you I really didn't pay much attention to the whole thing until the past couple of days. The actual notification of course of having Covid but the sore throat I had after the initial coughing, sore throat seemed to be ruthless. I could not swallow, really even when I didn't have food or water just swallowing you know in the in between times I could barely do it. I'm so thankful that I did last more than three days. It was during this time began to realize “wow, is this how people die with this infection?”. For the first time I got a little scared of wondering if I would wake up dead. I thought about all those people who actually got the deadly Covid last year who were lucky enough to be admitted to hospitals and still have any symptoms never came out of the hospital. Thank goodness come about the third or fourth day my sore throats begin to lighten up and I really begin to think as I was out of the woods. Had I dodged the bullet? I was still having some coughing which kind of worried me from time to time but overall I was feeling fairly decent.

I didn't pay much attention at first I thought it was just residual from the coughing or whatever. But I was waking at night to wheezing. Just the wheezing every time I exhaled as I lay in bed. It seemed is usually started around 3 AM. I was quite surprised for what I thought was a long time being awake, that when I did get up I felt pretty decent for the whole day. I wasn't necessarily sleep deprived. I thought the wheezing would go away, or at least become less prominent as I healed but that hasn't necessarily been the case. Then yesterday I don't remember quite what I was thinking are doing, may have had something to do something Dianne said but I realized that the wheezing I was experiencing is directly related to the Covid or are pretty much believe the omicron variant. When I started reading up on people's experiences with the virus their reporting about these hellacious` sore throats exactly what I was having. It took me a minute to put two and two together and that is omicron plus some former respiratory distress equals what I've! Remember ARDS or Adult Respiratory Distress Syndrome, a good friend Sheila and died from this almost 20 years ago maybe longer. I'm 70 years old. I'm somebody with a compromised respiratory system anyway because of my spinal cord injury, I better watch out! I am prime candidate for death. This is sobering. I'm so thankful I've got my three shots and that I workout daily on my arm bike. I don't know how much this actually helps me but I know it does not hurt me and maybe, just maybe it will help you get past the the respiratory issues. I even went to the Internet and found the trick if you have an wheezing you can cut down on some of that by pursing your lips together like you're going to whistle and slowly breathe out. I tried that is always laying there and sure enough it did stop the wheezing briefly I don't know if it would be a enough to allow me to get back to sleep and sleep better through the evening or morning but it makes you feel if there's options and there's hope. Dianne counseled me to put my teapot on and saturate my apartment with wet air. So, I've been doing that this afternoon and hopefully that might make a difference. I will call my healthcare provider and see if I need a referral to a respiratory therapist. Maybe I don't maybe I'm doing okay still to be safe I might be something I'm going to look into. I promise to write about other things in the days to come but I have to warn you this Covid thing is the biggest thing in my life right now I'm going to write about it…

Late Late Saturday Night

 

Thank goodness every day is a little bit better than the last as far as this Covid thing goes. Last night was another pretty rough night. I forgot to take the prescription cough medicine at my doc wrote for me. So I coughed all night long a plus I had wheezing in my chest which is kind of weird. Now I'm thinking back about it I don't know how much of this supposedly night for sleep that I had. I did sleep in till about 7:15 AM

and quite honestly I feel pretty decent all day long. It seems to me if I was up and down as much as it seemed that I was during the night I would feel much more sleep deprived particular having Covid. All I know is that tonight and take the pearls.

I contacted Mark Anthony earlier in the day asking if he would be able to go to the market the purchase of citrus fruit for me specifically oranges and grapefruit. I really didn't do anything else to do except wait. Did watch a couple movies is always. I could been more productive I suppose but I was kind spooks just because some physical things that are happening to me. If I'd been smart I would've written this post during the day and not now at 9:30 PM I'm waiting for my closed to dry. Oh yeah, that was the other thing that one Mark to come over about was to do some watch because I'm feeling so peculiar about being out in public when I should be quarantined. Finally later on in the afternoon quite late this market not come yet I decided what the hack but almost 5 days may be more depending on how one looks at when I became infected and that if I got a face covering the stay away from people I should be okay. And plus I had my doctor's permission for whatever that means. Mark Anthony caught up with me as I was putting my close in the wash. I could tell he felt bad that I started the wash by myself but I couldn't wait any longer and if I didn't don't try to have to watch tomorrow we just don't like doing stuff like that on Sunday – – old training coming through and all that kind of stuff.

Okay until I visited for the next hour or so. We talked a lot about his marriage or the failure of that marriage is what he's going to be doing now. He just had to purchase another vehicle and that vehicle so questionable. I think you've got a little bit of buyers remorse but I can certainly identify with that. Every time I've had to spend great deals of money it's always been a knee-jerk situation that I more sorry afterwards. I just don't purchase well think I don't believe in myself as much as I should. I wish I had a better story to tell about my Saturday and how things are but I am in quarantine don't think of God more than fortunes of a mile to be going nuts because I've been running back and forth to the laundry. And that makes for a dreadful Saturday nightokay