Today is my brother's birthday he is something like 10 years older than I am which puts him in the 83/84 Years range. Fortunately, he is extremely healthy and looks very good for someone who is that age. I've always counted myself extremely lucky to have him for a brother especially since I'm an adopted child I've always felt terribly lucky to have been adopted into the family that I have. They've all accepted me very well over the years and it's been somewhat of a challenge for them to do so I'm a bit of a rascal bug. Since the death of mom the family is sort of become somewhat distant- - at least that's my interpretation of what's going on. Maybe it's all me maybe everybody's talking and talking to each other but I'm out of the conversation and that would not surprise me either. It's certainly not their fault but mine. I don't know why I've become so distant these days. Perhaps it's the electronic communication options we have these days especially things like messaging, emails and such. We can make contact immediately and respond immediately which should make it so much more easier than the old days of when you had to sit down find a pen and paper any other items needed to write a letter let aalone finding the time. The biggest issue I have with electronic conversations and communication is that once they are finished unless saved or whatever they become invisible they vanish. They're gone forever as is the post to receive the documentation.
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My older brother takes care of being a lot of ways. He does not do anything like hovering over me or anything it's just that whenever I need assistance- - and there's a person with a disability I need a lot of assistance from time to time - he has always been there to provide whatever assistance he can do. I think at times I have taken advantage of the situation maybe not so much as getting help that I didn't necessarily need at the time as much as just seeing him and having conversation with him and enjoying his company. However with a power chair like I have and other issues he has assisted many times at horrible hours of the day and night to make sure I'm okay and safe. As she's gotten older I've been feeling a bit more guilty for asking him to do things for me that perhaps I need to have somebody else doing at this point in our lives. Sooner or later I am going to have to do these inroads of assistance with my brother no longer will be able to provide such help. Kind of sad though I do miss contact with him and the history that we shared together however brief that it was before he left the house, join the Army and started a life for himself. It was never the same after that he was still my brother but just a visitor in the house when he came to visit on those times he did visit. So happy birthday big guy! I hope it was a great birthday for you. I love you tons and if there's anything I can ever do for you just let me know you know where I live..
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