Suddenly Sunday

I made it to the weekend without pooping my pants or pooping my bed! It's late Sunday night and I'm about ready to go to bed but I just thought I'd do a few words on how thankful I am that I was able to get through the weekend. I know I'm somewhat fixated on this I'm probably posting too much in this area but I guess if it's important to me that's what I write about. Is that correct? I felt at risk all weekend long which is my excuse for not really doing much aside from coffee on Friday and having breakfast with Mark Anthony this morning. Perhaps that's enough even then I'm spending way too much money. I think I spent more than $60 on home delivery food yesterday. That's okay I've conned myself to believe that because I've ordered all this canned food and such that I won't have to spend any more money shopping and more importantly I won't have to hump the large cans of food home and that's the big deal for me. I, as a rule, don't have  someone to carry all the big canned food pieces home or whatever is too big for me to carry on my lap. I still don't know if I'll continue to use this food home delivery or grocery Home Delivery Service. It's pretty convenient and maybe that's part of the problem I foresee. I could be using home delivery more than I need to but so far that's not an issue. Whatever I decide I have to make a decision because for the first time I'm beginning to worry about how much I'm spending and I haven't felt that way for some time now. It's kind of spooky. I know everyone worries about how much money they are spending and how much money they have all that kind of stuff but quite frankly I haven't had to really. My appetites have been so small that I really have been just spending chump change and I've gotten used to that and particularly a fairly large balance, for me, and my bank account. Now I'm getting things that I might i.e. Clothes and such that maybe I better start being more careful and figure out how to not spend as much. You know one of the big things I've done is basically done a lot of my own cooking and when you do your own cooking you do save a lot of money then buying preferred food, or going out to a restaurant or whatever. It just takes a lot of energy and a lot of commitment to make your own meals on a regular basis. Especially eating all that I  prepare. If I continue to use a home delivery service it will be during the fiercest part of the winter or bad weather. I want to stop getting drenched shopping for my groceries.

Maybe I'm just getting soft as I grow older. I'm just not as tough as I used to be that's it. I don't necessarily know if that's a bad thing or not it's just where I'm at and some things a person just has to accept..