Sizing up Saturday

One of my largest fears regarding losing my Independence is that all happened just overnight, sort of like a stroke or something. This morning I was beginning to think that it happened. My right side arm if not arm the shoulder arm mechanism whatever it's been really painful lately I think I sit weird in my chair push it on some kind of a nerve or something and that has caused that whole side to be somewhat lacking as far as support goes. It took me a while to get up this morning but I eventually did and it took me a bit longer to even get myself squared away in my chair just because I didn't have but seem to be enough strength on my right side. It wasn't so much the strength as there was pain in my right side which did not allow me much ability. I didn't go to coffee because it took me forever to get dressed but I eventually did even doing up my pants shorts. I was so bummed out at that time I spent the rest of the day binging on a series that I'm watching right now. So it's a bit embarrassing but I didn't get a lot of accomplished today but as of this evening the arm is somewhat better A lot better actually pain wise. I'm really hoping tomorrow I'll be able to get up get dressed out to the restaurant on time to have breakfast with the kids. Maybe it's good to have these intervals of non-independence to realize that the end is near and that I need to start making preparations. Like I don't know what I will do when and if that time comes, it's not if the time is going to come. I just have to be adult enough to start exploring the results of the end game.

Our friend president invaded Venezuela today! I usually don't bring in National or international events on my blog just because they're just so big. However this one may have an impact on me because Mark Anthony has been so focused on what will happen to me if things go down. I don't know if he knows or realizes how significant the president's efforts in this area might be as far as how people will be impacted by his efforts. This goes to a certain degree with the first paragraph  about my messed up arm. So things really get nasty when were the other how am I going to deal with this how am I going to get dressed in the morning I'm going to do my ADLs the whole ball of Wax  the whole thing does kind of freak me out.