The long table- finally

 I did not intentionally start out to realize one of the goals I've had in mind for the last couple of months but it just happened quickly before I knew what was going on. I've gotten up quite early this morning not being able to sleep but I was able to get up get dressed and even make my breakfast in time to get over to the coffee shop much earlier than I usually do. It was actually somewhat sparse population wise when I got there in fact all the small tables that I usually sit at were taken. The big table where the guy said that I quasi envy was open so I scooted up to the edge of the table and put my coffee there and started screwing through my cell phone - - as I usually do. I suddenly surprised when the crew started coming in sitting down at the table. Sad all around me and one of them even said hi to me but they sat around me like I belong there I was kind of shocked. The blonde lady which has been very cordial to me over the last couple months came in later on with her husband and sat down and she welcomed me there as well. I was pretty surprised but I was messing with my cell phone and listen to the conversation which I thought was pretty interesting. Luckily for me these are they seem to be Democrats and so they had quite a discussion on events from the ice agent who shot / murdered the individual the last couple days the general rants on the president and all that he's been up to in doing. It's quite surprised a lot of them talked and spoke of all the trips they had taken as far as places they had been in other parts of the world that seem to have dovetail with the conversations that we were talking about at the table. One of the folks indicated that they were employed by the state of Utah which made me perk up a little bit and introduced myself to him and we had a pretty decent conversation we knew a lot of the same people which I thought was pretty cool. I still felt quite out of place and I never really did get comfortable in this setting but it certainly was a big step up for me I thought. Now I don't know what I'm going to do next week should I take a spot at the table or go back to my small table if one is available? That'll make me look so strange one way or the other.

My older brother called me today. We've been playing phone tags for the last couple of weeks and he had mentioned in one of his messages he left that he had been having to go back and forth to the Veterans Administration Hospital where he gets all of his health care. Finally he advised me that he had cancer a house cancer I don't know if he's told me this before I wasn't sure I just didn't know how bad it was the thought maybe it was getting worse. It's not necessarily getting worse but it's still takes a lot of time on his part to maintain his level of action as far as maintaining taking care of himself. He's not in any pain there's only uncomfort is all the time it takes away from his hunting and going out with his son fishing and such. It's difficult for me to communicate with him because he's such a Republican if he is that he certainly not a Democrat that's for sure and so I have to endure a little bit of racist comments and such. But he is my brother and I got to stick by him