The clock next to my bed is reading 5:35 a.m. and in reality it's 4:35 a.m. I totally spaced that it was turning your clock back time. Even without the turn back issue I woke up with either real pain or imagine pain in my feet. I may have been dreaming I had the pain I don't know but all I know is that woke me up and here I am, staring at the clock waiting for the time I can get up. I mean I can get up anytime it's just that I need to lay in bed or be up and ready to go and still wait. It's Sunday morning that means breakfast with the kids. That's 8:00 a.m. and I have to be up by 5:30 a.m. at least to get dressed in time to be sure I'm ready to head out to the restaurant. So I've been sitting here actually lying here waiting and threatening about end of life scenarios and is the pain I'm experiencing just a shadow wants to come? I'd never thought about the whole idea as life ending situations. I mean over the long run do the live systems in the body just shut down a little bit by little bit until the great shut down happens? Lots to think about in the lone dark hours of the morning. And that is exactly what I did for the next hour and a half was laying in bed Ponder what will happen to me as I age and get less and less able to take care of myself. I finally got up around 6:00 a.m. I started my process of getting ready and the longer I was up the better I felt then realize it was just some form of like night terrors or whatever that's getting me to think this way. I felt pretty good all day even with the lack of sleep I thought maybe I would have to go back to the apartment after breakfast and lay around for a while. I kind of did this just because it was too early to go to any movies and I'd have to kill time if I were going to go to the movies. So I watched a few episodes of this and that to get through the morning hours and then by the time it was ready to go to the movies I decided against it. I laid out in the sun for a while it was very warm then I rolled over to the park and just watched people for a while and enjoyed the day immensely. In my whole concept of keeping as much labor free Sundays as I can I had a couple slices of roast beef and vegetables for dinner. I tried to watch the Jazz play basketball but when the Jazz were so far behind pointwise I decided against it and watched another Netscape movie.
It's been a fairly active and enjoyable weekend. Again the high point would have been breakfast with Mark and Jasmine and Jax. The evening was a shock since we turned the clocks back last night. By 5:00 it was nearly dark totally amazing. Even now though it feels like 11:00 in the evening but it's only 8:35 p.m.
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