Something to Think About

I had to get up at 3:00 a.m. and drain my bladder—this is a real process me. but I have to drain because when the bladder is full I cannot get to sleep it drains. The problem is at 3:00 once I get up, I just about have to stay up but today I did the deed and came back to bed. I got back about 3:30 a..m. and just dozed till 4:30 the time I usually get going—the scary part was that when I transferred back into bed I was just laying on the edge—just barely on but safely on. Getting up at 4:30 was the challenge since I was only partly on the bed I could not get enough stability to make the lift into my wheelchair! I nearly biffed it!! But I eventually drug my sorry butt onto my wheelchair and got on with my morning.

This morning was a close one but I prevailed I don’t know what will happen when I don’t prevail and slide or crash down to the floor. Its going to happen, I am going to fall it is just a matter of time. Until recently, falling was not that big a deal between Dianne and myself we could manage to drag me back onto the bed or wheelchair or some thing. Since Dianne’s back has gone bad she will no longer be able to really help me get back up—so we would have to call Gabe or Mark or one of the neighbor, probably Dan or worse case scenario call the fire or police department which would be really weird but that kind of fall has not happened yet. I spend a large part of my time talking to people who have seniors in their lives who are having these exact kind of issues. It’s just weird when I have to start thinking of these same issues but pertaining to me. I have some ideas but would mean purchasing some more assistive technology and then finding a place to store the equipment until the equipment is needed. Sometimes there is just too much to think about…