Saturday night ramblings

 You know what kind of worries me? I really could stay in my apartment all day long and not be worried at all or anxious or anything else like that about being cooped up in a small space. Granted, my apartment is not that small it is compared to the house that I came from but still I think I have more than enough room for my little self in what meager possession do own. I really see myself very fortunate to be where I'm at and doing what I'm doing independently- - all by myself. I know a lot of people are really bummed out to be alone and to be disabled and alone. I Marvel at a lot of the posts I see on Reddit disability and stuff how sad a lot of these folks seem to be about their disability and where it's left them and how minimal their lives seem to be. I mean seriously if you want to have a big life go out and have a big life. I think a lot of these people have never had to really develop anything around your life and the disability is just really focused this in on there mental abilities I guess Are For the First Time realized how alone they might be and that's a shame. I feel a little bad because this person has come into my life unintentionally. She has appeared at the coffee shop that I frequent on Saturday mornings. She is related to one of the people that sit on the long table that I've written about over the last couple of months. I think she has some kind of a disability related to a stroke as such. She's ambulatory highly verbal at times seems a bit distant but she is sought me out at my little table where I sit by myself at the coffee shop on Saturday mornings. We ended up Trading our contact information ie messenger for example, and now she texts me and of course I feel I need to text her back. I think she waits with bated breath sometimes for me to come in on Saturday mornings. She keeps talking about she's only here for a few weeks and she's going back to some place like Tennessee or something. She is currently bouncing off different relatives for a couple weeks at a shot and I think looking for a place to become more permanent. She has a cousin or something that she lives with here in Salt Lake she doesn't live with them she stays with them periodically she has a brother I think in Utah County who is very conservative. She seems to live for Saturday mornings and she can escape to the coffee shop. I'm becoming quite gun shy I've even going to the coffee shop because when I do she's zeros in on me sits at my table and we chat periodically. Now I'm thinking that she wants to chat even more but I try to keep our messaging fairly Limited. Maybe this will all change when she moves to Tennessee, if she moves to Tennessee. I guess I tell you this just because I'm not a lonely guy or if I am alone I kind of enjoy it and I don't know how far that's going to go but anyway that's my rambling for a Saturday night. I will be meeting the kids tomorrow for breakfast and hopefully get back to some kind of normal existence. I've got to realize however that I'm still in the middle of Hang Time that period between Christmas and New Years that is not very normal and are regular at all. Soon however we'll get past the first and on to the regular year..