Why is it the moment a person takes action against a particular issue or problem everything changes?
I have suffered with a decubitus sore I got swimming about a year and a half ago. I have suffered with this wound for a year now after a six week bout of actual physical therapy. Dianne has worked to clear this wound up all year and then last week I make the appointment to be seen by my health car provider and magically my wound begins to heal. Granted, Dianne found a somewhat miracle ointment which seems to have done the trick. So the rear end I present to my health care provider (HCP) is essentially free of problem. Don’t get me wrong. Seeing the HCP this morning was important. Dianne has developed a bunch of questions regarding me and the of me of the past year. Dianne also has generated a number of questions, I would never have brought up to the provider on my own. Like my edema plagued legs and I have a weird infection on one of my legs which everyone but me got all excited about this morning. So now Katia my HCP, wants me to take a diauretic (only on the weekend—which will wreck my weekends, I am sure). I don’t know how compliant I am going to be with some of these orders but we shall see.
The upside of the morning’s events: that I will be meeting with my Physical Therapist (PT), Randy, sometime in the next couple of weeks to begin working on a cushion and a new wheelchair, power wheelchair which reclines and will elevate my feet. ELEVATE MY FEET!!!! Seriously I am becoming more and more debilitated! Is this really happening to me?!! I am becoming a total invalid. Actually, I need to step back and look at this—I don’t have to stay in the mega crip chair all the time-but maybe I should, I don’t have to wear ted stockings but maybe I should and I don’t have to take lasix but maybe I should but I probably won’t. I mean I have got along just fine for forty years. I m really afraid that by adding something new into the system, my system, can start a chain reaction which might be disastrous to my system. I guess I am just afraid of loosing my independence and becoming more and more dependent on the medical complex.
I should accept that my independence is going the wither as I age, it is only natural, it has to it is the way of things, the nature things but I find myself resistant.
One last comment: I took Dianne as my I MEDICAL ADVOCATE! I have never done that before. Having a medical advocate is kind of frightening because the advocate tends to bring up things which I would never do—but wish I could, but am too frightened to go through the steps or the RX or the over all consequence of bringing this information to light—my thought process really is kind of warped. But Medical Advocate did and now it’s done, the information is out in he open and who knows where it will go.
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I hate when people say this..Here goes ...are you ready for this one... "Do you think age has anything to do with it?" Diane is a sharp girl, she only has you and what is best for you in her interest. And we seem to think differently about different things at different times of our lives. I heard someone call it WISDOM! love you ~ LaRene
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