Careful!!

I have been up since 2:30 a.m. and I am still at home …sick! This is now a week out of work and I do not seem to be getting a whole lot better! I hate missing work. I have just about finished all my Z-pack: I have but one more day left and I thought I would be well on the road to recovery by now. So, it has been tomorrow all week long and I think old Frank at work is getting pretty tired hearing me call in sick every morning.

Yesterday as part of an experiment, I ran to the market at lunch to get some peppers I could use in making some mushroom pepper steak. I am trying to get back to a decent diet. I had been feeling pretty good until I got dressed and out to the van and only then realized how weak I felt-not dizzy per-se but weak, washed out as Dianne would say. It was cold out side yesterday too and the temperature may have had some effect on how I felt.

I was laying in bed about 2:30 this morning and I think I kinda spooked myself. I got on this whole death thing. My lungs are still wheezing when I am lying down and I can now see how with just the bad luck, this mess sitting in my lung could ‘bubble up’ and solidify and then I would be dead—a very bad thing for me. I have seen this kind of death happen to another quad. Granted Sheelan was higher then I but there are still many parallels, the biggest was/is she was quad and struggled and lost her battle with goop in the chest. I was amazed, I had last seen Sheelan over the Christmas holidays at a party or two then she got sick, we saw her once in the hospital before she was in full blown ARDs(Adult Respiratory Distress syndrome) and then she was gone—life support then the plug was pulled and that was that. I have seen it happen and if I am not careful I could be next.