Months End

And just like that so ends another month but I have to admit it was an eventful month after all I was in the hospital for 4 days! I just hope April is going to be more productive than March at least I'm looking to be spending more time outside. I just switched off the TV in the last quarter of the Jazz game I couldn't stand to watch the boys flail and Flounder another night another game. I know I should be more supportive as the boys learn to play together and develop the new team but it's just hard to spend so much time waiting for them just to be choking all over the hardwood floors. Again I'm sure they're exhausted they do a good first quarter usually fairly good second then explode losingly in the third and last quarter of the game. Really is just too painful to endure at least for me.

It was not a particularly cold or wet day just overcast and kind of gloomy however, I was fortunate enough to have breakfast with Marc Anthony and Jasmine. I enjoy spending time with those two. I'm so impressed with Jasmine and her work ethic and her study ethic. I think she's really going to do well in her academics and she just might go all the way to become a nurse. I mean I'm proud of her already but to have that are in or whatever degree she's looking at getting I'll be more than impressed. I was able to get the printed letters into their envelopes as well as with the money into the specific envelopes. Sealed up the envelopes and now all I have to do tomorrow is to run across the street purchase a book of stamps and send the letters on their way and April will be done. I really would have liked to have got them out yesterday or today but I kept forgetting to pick up the stamps when I was at the market. I'm giving up tricking all the way to a post office and then going through their stamp collection to find something unique and exotic. No I'm happy just to buy whatever stamps I can get in the book which took particularly covers me for maybe 3 months. I still Maybe drop into a post office when I find myself in the proximity. Maybe the Murray post office I don't know if I want to travel all the way to the post office on Redwood Road that's a long trip. There is a Mountain America in that area however and possibly could get rid of two birds with one stone.

I noted with some interest that the other two individuals who resigned from the board of directors at the Independent Living Center last week also submitted a formal document highlighting their resignation. I have not done so and I'm wondering if I should. It certainly probably the most professional thing to do in this particular weird scenario. It should not be too difficult just to Bootleg the letter from one of the other guys change the wording and then use it as my formal resignation from the board of directors. Feel like kind of a creep but the same time it was a creepy thing to do to Holly. 

Easter Eve

 The bleakness of the clouds continue today but the temperature is not too cold it was bearable for me anyway when I decided to make a run for it across the street. I probably should not have cuz my butt feels a bit in jeopardy however I needed at least I thought that I needed tomatoes and a few other things to get through the weekend since I don't like to do any shopping on Sunday if I can avoid it. I watched too much Marvel as always trying to have a reason to lay back in my chair and save my butt. This morning when I got up once again the foot riser mechanism was not working total frustration on my part. This is a crucial part of my power chair and when I must have working all the time in order to dress transfer among other things that are vital for my Independent Living. Fortunately for me I was able to get a hold of Melissa who just happened to be on our way over here to clean Apartments this morning and she wants against stepped in and saved my life. Perhaps I'm being a little over dramatic but still I've got to get that thing fixed at least so that it works. Melissa seems to have figured out what the problem is there's a plug of some sort on the side of the foot box that comes unplugged at some point in time during the night. It must come after I mess around with the foot box to make sure it's tilted up the right way so when I transfer in the morning I can do so safely. However whatever I do I mess around with this plug and it gets unplugged and I'm just at the mercy of for that foot box is tilted. But really kind of freaks me out is that in order to fix the chair I'm going to have to give up the chair for whatever it takes. Really makes me frustrated. I reckon I just have to be patient and hope I can get through this technological nightmare. That means I will probably have to rely on this backup chair which I don't have a lot of faith in on a bunch of different levels.

Perhaps the most productive I was today was I finally got started on the kid letters. I pretty much got them dictated and this evening I was able to print the envelopes so my day was not a complete loss. Tomorrow I'm going to try to print the letters get them folded, stuffed and sealed to send off the 1st of April.

Basketball yawn

It seems like I'm losing gas as far as my support for the local professional basketball team goes. They just started their last quarter in there just about even with the other team or vice versa, the Jazz actually has been leading tonight put you in my estimation is a bit of a rarity, and I think I know they're going to choke for the nights out. At one time it was more important to watch the end of the game as opposed to doing anything else but now updating my blog and getting ready for bed is prime in my evening routine now. Win or lose I could read about it tomorrow on the internet I actually do have a jazz peace whatever that's called and that will list whatever the results of the game was first thing if I'm so interested when I first wake up. Watching the Jazz game is about the high point of my day to say the least. I don't know why I just didn't feel too motivated today my butt's a little tender and I could have gone somewhere and done something but it was more important to just stick around the apartment. My one caregiver who is not my caregiver anymore but she does a lot of my house cleaning when she needs money nothing on a regular basis but she was over today and did a great job on the kitchen area before she had to leave that was good for me it really spruces up the place for the weekend and I'm pretending that's going to be a special weekend because it's Easter but I don't know what I'll do different this my granddaughter gets really motivated but she does quite a bit in this kind of stuff. My goal now is to get through the night without any issues at all get up without any issues and meet my friend from upstairs over at the coffee shop. We've actually missed our coffee group morning for the last 2 weeks and it would be good to get back into the swing of things. I have a confession to make and that is I am way behind on getting my kid Letters Out this month it may be even after the first of April before the letters get finished and out. I don't know if it was or is my attention to the Jazz and it's taking up more time than usual or whatever but I just can't seem to sit down and be good dictating. I am going to have to invest in more stamps but that should be a big reason not to get my letters written also I want to make sure I have enough $10 bills. I wasn't able to make it to the bank for say so I'm having to get by with just the hundred I got out of the machine the other day but that's all twenties. So I do have change so one kid is going to have to get Maybe 10 bucks in change. It all spends the same and I'm hoping the happy with it. I wish I had greater thoughts but tonight I just want to get off my butt into bed and enjoying my novel…

Of arm bikes and raindrops

Once again it's 10:00 p.m. and no matter what I do I just can't seem to really get to bed earlier than this time and even now it's probably be 11:00 before I finally roll into bed and call it a day and take a few cherished moments to read a few pages of my current Stephen King novel. And it's not that I've been lazy it's not like it's a jazz game night. I'm just busy busy busy take so much energy to keep an apartment or house going. I just don't even know how I could do a house. Anyway, of course it was raining today and I had a doctor's appointment in Murray at the Death Star. Yesterday would have been perfect since it was no rain but the rain wasn't too bad actually I didn't have much rain at all until the last part of my trip home this evening or late afternoon. My morning doctor's appointment was 10:45 it took me a while to get there and I mean like getting up getting dressed and what have you. And I did a new Twist on things today rather than struggle and struggle- - and I did struggle a little bit I need to have done so but I just didn't want to sit around and do nothing- - I had Melissa drop by and help me with pieces of clothing that I was having problems with and today of course it was the shoes. Had you come earlier she could have helped me do the button up on my shorts. I think I spent 15 to 20 minutes trying to get my shorts closed but finally I was able to accomplish that task.

I don't know if it's my imagination but today for the first time in about a week I got back on to the arm bike and peddled for about 30 minutes. It was pretty arduous because I used the hardest setting that I usually use on Monday mornings or Monday rides and I didn't do 60 Minutes I only did 30 because I didn't want to really do any damage or really I just didn't know if I could struggle for 60 minutes in all honesty. But I did the 30 minutes afterwards I think my arm is felt better than it has for quite a while as far as my fear as far as the stenosis of stuff baby it is all in my head and maybe I just need to keep working out. What are the best things that came out of my appointment with the doc today at the Death Star was that she's going to write a prescription for more physical therapy and of course I don't know how many docs I have have promised that and I've never had any I've never gotten this the script to have a Richmond of physical therapy and what I was eligible for. So I don't know if I give this person anymore Credence than the others but we'll see if I can get some more Physical Therapy occupational therapy are both it might be tons as far as my belief of being able to stay more independent in the upcoming months. Either way it's been a long day today I took garbage out and I washed some dishes and I think I just ate more than I should have I even got a dog from Costco when I realized I could go to the money machine there instead of having to go all the way to Mountain America facility get cash so I have it in case I needed to pay anybody in half $10 bills for letters this week/ month. But like I said it's 10:00 and I better get to bed.. 

Support friends

 I continue to struggle against the infirmities of this body that I am charged with. I'd like to think I'm getting big and strong and once again good to look at but reality says that it's the Autumn of my life if not the strong winter or the almost end of the winter. All things being said however I meant pretty good stay with pretty good friends and Associates and family they're making my day-to-day struggle to maintain myself at some level of credibility and responsibility and Independence. I don't know if you can use all those words in the sentence like that but hopefully it conveys the feelings that I'm currently going through. Each day I feel I'm getting a bit stronger and after a day like today where I kind of made the mistake of eating a little pizza before I went to a meeting with the writers crew which turned out to be a lunch and had a pretty decent solid then and then tonight bought a big old T-bone steak actually about two of them gosh $21 worth and fixed one for dinner and ate half of that steak. So today was a major caloric day but maybe that's good because not only will it help build some red blood cells hopefully it will also give me enough fuel to get back to maintaining myself a little bit better. I need to get back into my physical regime as far as working out everyday for an hour or so in all that noise. Maybe that will help in getting back to some level of normalcy. I meet with a physician tomorrow supposedly to go over the resolved so the night plural that I spent in the hospital recently. I want to bring up or set up an appointment to bring up the fact that I feel I'm actually losing the ability to use my arms again like I've having another stenosis. I think I've written about this already to some degree but tomorrow I need to step up to the issue and start the process of looking to make sure that's not what's Happening Here and perhaps there's some sort of regimen that I can use to combat this this loss of abilities even on a minor level. And if not fine just like the dislike the colonoscopy at least we'll get that written out of the way and we can go on to the next step. As long as I have my home health person, who came back today already I feel more comfortable and beating my day today with my life as it is. I know if I have problems I can call Melissa she'll help me. Anyway I think it was a good day for friendship enjoyed hanging out with the two buddies that I have who seem to care for me and noticed that I've got something weird going on with my body as well. I had better crash now I've got to get up relatively early tomorrow and get ready and go catch a bus to get to the doctor's office for my 10:45 appointment. I'll be glad to get this out of the way and go to the next step..

Bounce back

I must be getting better or at least stronger. Pizza and chicken and rice have been producing a pretty good result in my overall feelings about life in general. Life does not look as bleak as it had before and now with a little bit more foodstuffs things seem to be turning around also with the concept of my home health person coming back from vacation I'm putting a lot of Hope into that as well. She seems to be a constant in my life and she's there when I need assistance it may not be immediately but it comes along eventually. It's always strange when someone comes back from an extended absence whether it's vacation, Hospital time or leave for any particular reason and you're wondering if things will pick up where you left them off or will things be different. I don't know and right now I don't really care but I do hope. The last Home Health person was extremely good on one level but extremely bizarre on another and just sort of freaked me out over other CNAs. So with good luck my home health person well studly things up a little. Now I just have to commit- - even if my caregivers tend to clean up every once in awhile after they put me in the shower or over the toilet I can't depend on that all the time I'm finding out. I'm just going to have to get some house cleaning done this place is getting near zero chaos. I've spent the whole day working on trying to bring some sort of order to the chaos which included another trip to the laundry. And cooking a dinner of rice and chicken which is great which will assist me in food for the rest of the week as I still have half a pizza left that I finally bagged it through in the refrigerator. Now that I've got the food thing covered I need to figure out a way to do some more grocery shopping. I really grew much weaker than I anticipated leaving the hospital. And only now do I feel the strength that's coming back from my diet. I still have an ingested steak but I am eating the rice which the Research indicates is a good producer of iron and I just need to open a can of spinach here and there I was intended to do so with the dinner tonight but didn't work out that way. The stove was pretty well covered with dishes and frying I just didn't have a place to do easily the spinach if I opened a can- - Diane is really been insisted that maybe I should look at getting some frozen broccoli and other frozen vegetables like spinach and just pull them from the freezer and do the microwave trip without having to do a lot of the food processing I seem to be getting lost in right now. Usually it's not been a problem but whatever's going on with my body as far easy preparation is a key factor. It just feels good to get back in the saddle and being able to be getting back to my independent status or is independent as I can be given the circumstances of me…

Recovering

My care giver today once again Jeannette Same lady who covered came in to help me I think over the weekend period she was a good caregiver then but I really didn't demand very much attention just cleaning up a little bit getting myself ready to go to do the day Today was different in that it was the usual it got myself up today and then she finally shows up and she is really stickler on the one-hour thing So when we were done with the hour she pretty much justleft period we had good conversation and we didn't really have any any problems but what she'd left I noticed there was still fecal matter all over the toilet and parts of the floor in such There were gloves on beside the toilet on the floor stuff I had never seen other CNAs leave behind or they're taking care of it and the only thing problem that I can think of is that she just did as much she as she could during that one hour and that was enough period granted I did ask her to do quite a bit of stuff regarding clearing off the table because I had a pizza coming in that Diane sent me and then a few other things and that kitchen area as well as remake the bed I didn't wear shorts today for fear of pooping So I dig out a shirt she wasn't going to help Well she was going to help put it on even if I was past the time but I sort of struggled into the shirt and was okay period It was just different than genetically worked with over the weekend almost Twilight Zone stuff period I'd like to think that of getting better like I said I didn't poop I did have a diaper on a bib or whatever and I haven't felt any pooper anything period So as pretty much sentence to apartment today period and What I did do though was forced by self to get the garbage out because it was really getting full of a lot of fecal matter covered Chucks's and others things linens and stuff period So I don't know quiet or so hard for me to do that but it took me all day to get that garbage out and then I got real random bucks just and tried to actually I did I wash clothes and I want to make sure the sheets were cleaned when look when Melissa fits back to be able to put on the bed period still chilli at night and that would be very helpful to me period I just don't know what else is going on period I did make rice and cook the two hamburgers that I had in a refrigerator for some time for dinner is really quite good actually the only thing I really needed to do was have some spinach to go with it but I I still have quite a bit of feel like opened up a can of spinach tonight period I still have a whole lot of rice left and one burger which will make another great meal and I still need to use up the rest of the chicken and maybe have some either new rice made or Save some rice and have chicken gravy over rice that would be sort of good period dear reader rewear all these periods are somehow result of me say in the word period, I don't know why it all the sudden started changing from the dot to the Word seems to be driving me crazy though that does this every once in a while period the jazz lost again tonight which is kind of surprised to me They look like they might have a chance period but they don't are they didn't and they seemed to be careless But again this even retired but can't be tired for the rest of the season maybe though last a bunch of games so far period hopefully things be better tomorrow. 

Sick sick

aurday

I don't know what's going on with me but something sure is. This morning when I was trying to transfer into my chair I made a bad chance for it and didn't fall but I caught my leg in the armrest and I couldn't get it dislodged I even called the resident advisor he tried as hard as he could we eventually called 911! They came out and rescued me it was all pretty nice but certainly made me chagrined and make me want to make sure everything was in place when It again. I'm coughing enough to be sick. What's worse is that now I'm totally out of juice marks and St George so I can't get a fast just that way. I may have to rely on totally tomato juice which is sort of risky. I'm really worried about the transfer tomorrow morning I'm going to work it out as best as I can I don't want to have to run come out again or 911. I think you can only do that so many times before they start looking fisheye at you. I kind of remember when this happened before it was heading as having a stenosis the first stenosis they may have to visit with Diane and maybe see my doctor this coming week and I am going to have a doctor's appointment so that might be the perfect time. I just hope that I'll be able to make the transfer tomorrow. Mark's in St George so there's no coffee or breakfast tomorrow if I can make the transfers I might get up and make something I don't know today I made a pot of rice I still have half the chicken left so I can mix up some chicken and gravy tomorrow which I think might be really good I wish I could have done it today so I didn't have to work on the Sabbath but you know the cattle's in the Meijer. I just stayed in the apartment all day watching movies and seem to be getting more and more sick. Tried to contact Carl to see if he's gotten sick but nothing is going on now poor. I watched the jazz tonight until I couldn't stand it anymore they were losing me like 30 points it was too much pain to bear so I came in to the kitchen cooked the rice and drink some apple juice I want some more apple juice now that's it for Saturday hopefully tomorrow will be better…

I don't know why but I woke up around 3:15 a.m. this morning and I just could not really go back to sleep. I think part of it was the possibility of the excitement of having a New Home Health person today or possibly the fact I just got to poop and shower which has been too long coming. I knew it was going to be a rough day as far as trying to feel like doing anything and I'm still worried about my butt but it doesn't seem to be as painful today as it has been in the last couple and maybe that has to do with the hygiene issue of a clean rear end I don't know. I would not mind going as long as I could without the second skin. It may be causing some problems overall however I think it's helped me get along a little bit. I'm still somewhat apprehensive about the whole concept of being anemic and I'm just more sensitive to anything what seems to be weakening of my body. I don't know if I can ingest enough vitamin A type stuff or whatever it is you have to eat to increase your blood supply as well as blood content red blood cell content. I may have to go the way of medication but I sure don't want to or maybe I need to get some trance fusions. There seem to be a little bit of talk. That might be a possibility.

Jeanette was my new or the Home Health person today an older black lady very nice very bright and easy to teach. She did the Hoyer lift sling very quick very Swift she's sort of a stickler for the one hour that she was supposed to be here but that's okay hopefully Melinda will be back shortly. We did the suppository me the enemy as usual but was a little bit late in my butt was really released poop and it went all over my chair cuz I was still over the chair when I started going and it was just sort of slow her responding but she really cleaned up the chair great I thought and got me on the toilet and I did my business and I got my shower. I think what really should have got me so anxious during the night was how I was going to do this suppository thing for the ulcerated hemorrhoid. And of course she walked out and I forgot all about it. So what I ended up doing was calling Gloria who was willing to come over actually she was going to come over anyway to clean but I think she called me and told me she was going to rechange that but I begged her into coming over to do the application of the hemorrhoid enema or hemorrhoid medicine. It went just so well I gave her 20 bucks for the job she really does need the money my poor or poor Gloria. Other than that I pretty much just watched Marvel for the rest of the day almost all of the Thor movies and part of the Black Widow movie. I had to quit because I'm tired and I need to get to bed and hopefully I'll be better tomorrow. I don't feel that much better today still feels like I've got something I'm coming down with something so I'm just taking it easy. Gloria is going to come back sometime next week and do some cleaning she was appalled at the status of my apartment. It's always nice to have Gloria around…

Thursday night Blues

 I'm going through something I'm not sure exactly what it is right now I don't know if it's related to the fact that now I know that I'm anemic I'm beginning to feel what I think anemic or anemia should feel like. I know that does not make much sense but something seems to. Either that or I'm coming down with something could be I spoke with my brother tonight who helped me earlier in the week and he's definitely coming down with something so we could be dealing with a job that we picked up at the hospital. I should have been wearing a mask the entire time I was there lessons we learn they kind of drive me crazy. I didn't really do much of anything today except battle my credit union / bank and Disney Plus. I got all psyched up earlier this month when I noticed there was a charge by Disney Plus for $118. I knew that they had been charging me around 895 each month for the service which I think is totally worth it but to see this one charge all at once totally free to be out so I spent a good 2 hours today bouncing back between Disney plus and my credit unions tried to figure out just when and how much and which credit card and all that stuff and of course that means I'm dealing with third world country English speakers now and again and what seems like an AI out of 2001 good old HAL. We finally figured out that Disney plus charged me for a whole year at one time- - which is okay it just hit me as a sucker punch. Luckily I can absorb this hit had I not been able to there would have been grave frustration and trying to settle this account.

I'm trying to deal with my empty colon following the colonoscopy. I have a pooped, really pooped in a week or so except for the colonoscopy which I guess has to count. Tomorrow should be the first time. I'm a little anxious because I'm going to have a caregiver I'm not really sure about and break that person in all over again. I think I'm having some skin issues as well and I don't know if this person will know anything about taking care of skin issues or whatever. I can't wait till Melissa gets back she has a pretty good neck at least for taking care of me. So I really haven't done a lot with trying to go out anywhere. I had a meeting I was supposed to go to at 12:00 today over at the buffmyre center but I decided to do it by Zoom and then messed up the whole thing to where I couldn't get the zoom number back after I lost it and I missed the whole meeting. That was real depressing felt a little guilty but not too much. The rest of the day was waiting for the game the Salt Lake of the Utah Jazz been watching them choke again. I guess I have to take the Long View of that this is a learning experience for a good part of the team to work together and play together. It sure is a drag though spending that time hoping then watching them just throw the ball away it seems like. I know I'm not very supportive I never have been on something like this after all it's just a ball game. There's so many other problems in this world to deal with then whether a basketball team wins or loses..

Run - on I know

 This is going to be another fast one, once again I've let my day get away with me and so I'm having to do a less than adequate job of posting tonight essentially I didn't really do anything today except get back into my routine which was good which I enjoyed. I did my arm bike that's probably the most significant thing I was surprised I was able to get back into a whole hour of pumping my bike only wants to sleep once. And that was it I woke up at 8:00 this morning I never sleep that long. I transferred all right into the chair from the bed no issues to speak of took a while to get dressed I'm really wondering now that I know that I'm deficient in iron anemic that I'm acting more and more tired or weak. Maybe that's the reason I'm thinking that my strength is leaving and it's really not it's just the fact that I'm anemic I don't know if that makes sense or maybe I'm just whistling in the dark. I tried to eat my concoction today I certainly added stuff to it I was surprised to find that I had a good size cucumber here in the refrigerator so cross didn't have to get my zucchinis to me. Now watch the game tonight once again they lost but I'm getting used to that so still big deal it's what they do but they do good sometimes as well and I certainly like the players I wish they would play the ones I really like but they don't seem to do that they're all sick or something injured baby. I found out that I need to be at a meeting tomorrow Uptown Salt Lake at the buckmire center at 12:00 I don't know not having my bowels emptied and sometime but like the person the other day said that they were totally empty out for the procedure and that's only been two days now so I still should be good I'm having lots of bowel noise it's kind of Spooks me a little bit so I don't know if I'm going to go uptown for the meeting or see if I can get into it Zoom wise that's a bit of a cop out but still better than pooping my pants all the way to and from. I opened up the package from the hospital and I think I had seven suppositories in it so now I'm really confused I'm still going to go with what they said every other day and hopefully that will make a difference I certainly want to get the ulcer fixed up one way or the other asap.

Somewhere my razor has disappeared. Melissa was supposed to bring it to the hospital or she brought it to the hospital supposedly with my clothes and stuff but I haven't seen any of that stuff come home with me after the hospital so I don't know where it went. I dug around and found a really old razor it's pretty crusted over tried to clean it up and stuff this morning and got a fairly decent shave but it was hard work I was ready to go across the street and buy another one but like I said I never got a chance to go that far maybe tomorrow I don't know we'll see.

Emergency room and Beyond

 You will notice there are a couple days that are missing and that's very rare. I may go back and try to fill them in at some point in time but right now I'm kind of exhausted and I just want to sort of get back online as well as I can. I recently returned home from IH Hospital! I've been there since Saturday which started out as just me going into the emergency room trying to check something out. I woke in the morning to a lot of blood on my hand when I checked my butt before getting out of bed. I had pretty much covered my butt with bed protection sheets cuz I thought maybe I might poop during the night but instead of pooping I basically bled when I got up. When I checked the adult diaper that I had wrapped around my butt there was a bit of a blood stain when I pulled it off my rear end and then later on when I went to get up a few minutes later my hand was covered in blood and it kind of spooked me. I figured today's the day I need to go get it checked out. I had never really had blood like this before at least in bed usually a, remembered later, that I blood like this a lot in the shower and when I pooped so I didn't seem so out of place there but in bed it did and it really was just the same and really about the same amount of blood it just looks like a lot and technically it is because what they found out was that I was anemic or I am anemic. Anyway I just, suited up and headed down to the emergency room no shoes just a couple blankets and my shorts and a long sleeve shirt and that was it I expected to be home that day but they admitted me almost immediately! It was kind of surreal in the funny sort of way. I wasn't really frightened or anything just watching it unfold all the concerns and the tests and going to my room and finding the bed and all that kind of stuff.

I forget but once again I was faced with the problem of able-bodied regular hospitals really don't know what to do with people with disabilities. At least around me anyway they always think of the worst and they always are just super cautious kind of drives me crazy and that's what it was for the the week are the days that I was there basically three days and finally it ended today oh the reason why I was there for so long was because I had to get a clear poop in order to get a colonoscopy and that's what I was in there for it was a colonoscopy to see how bad the damage is really was. It took me like 3 days and 3 gallons of prep fluid to finally pooping up poop out to have nothing but water coming out that they could do a clean colonoscopy which they did Finding just hemorrhoid damage that is going to have to be cured by inserting medicated things up my rectum like an enema. It's very complicated that it got even worse just as I was trying to get out of there this evening. Like I said gallons and gallons of prep laying in bed sometimes watching TV sometimes playing with the phone just surviving the day and then the nights. It was a real challenge and it still is they sent me home with a prescription to get at the hospital of the things to stick up my butt every other day next week and hopefully that will have a healing process on the ulcerated hemorrhoid. Other than that everything looks good no polyps no other kinds of issues as far as cancer warnings go which is great they indicate I don't have to do another colonoscopy for 10 years or for Life whichever comes first. It's been a long week so far it's only halfway through I plan to rest the rest of the the days if I can get away with it…

Friday's Fare

I don't know what we did to my butt this morning after the shower. I mean we didn't do cancer anything different we actually put new tape on the right side of my buttocks but whatever we did it's made my whole back end a bit sensitive today especially to the way that I'm sitting. So much so that I spent a large part of the day leaning back in my chair to take the weight off of my hips. Of course I've had access to streaming services which helps a lot in that situation. I did go outside once to dump a load of garbage into the dumpster it was so cold I couldn't believe it. Very cold wind was blowing however the sunshine was out and certainly looked nice but I wasn't going to be able to go anywhere and do anything because I'm tending to be a Wist these days. I did work out of my bike for about 35 to 40 minutes well I listen to NPR but that was about the most productive thing I did all day except for the usual making coffee for Melissa this morning. I tried not to think about times that I might be wasting. What was enlightening however with the visit with my sister my BIOS was that my biological father actually died from cancer. I think it's the concert starts with a P but I can't put my name onto it right now. All I know is now I have to really start thinking of seriously getting a colonoscopy soon. I just got to figure out again how to do it. It's just difficult to do if you're single and you can't drive as well as do everything else that you need to do to prep for a colonoscopy. I'm trying to not let this wreck my days but I need to be more adult on this thing and hope and cross my fingers I'm not too late. That would really be a sucker punch. Oh I remember now prostate cancer which is which also took out by adoptive dad. I know it's a real thing and it's dangerous it's all dangerous.

Last night I had to texts before I went to bed of my new relationship with my bio sister which is okay but it's just a lot of contact and then this morning when I got up I noticed there were a couple more texts wishing me a nice day and how did I sleep? I really don't need to have this much texting interference with my regular days. I'm not sure what I'm going to do or if I'm going to do anything maybe it'll curtail on its own it kind of doubt that but we can hope. There's so many lonely people out there who really sometimes I think are hanging on by their fingertips trying to stay sane and they need people to support they've been doing that all I know is can wear a person out sometimes. 

Thursday's thoughts

  Another extremely full day for the old guy. It was coffee social this morning so I didn't have to move so quickly still I had to stay focused on getting dressed so I'd be ready by 9:30 which came along just fine. It wasn't too bad get together this morning I was feeling a little drug out because I didn't sleep very well the night before. No particular reason except maybe I went to bed an hour earlier than usual that could have been it.

I meant my biosis around 11:00 a.m. over at the coffee shop. I was really relieved and quite impressed to find out how good a person she is. 4 years older than I am and looking as rugged as I we seem to have a lot in common. We talked the entire time with no dead silences anywhere and we wandered from the coffee shop over across the street to this little severely Mexican joint. It's one of those places where all the locals go so it's terribly authentic and we got food to share. I guess it was kind of expensive but well worth the time getting to know each other. It's great that she lives not far from me and I think we should be able to spend more time together. She seems to be kind of alone sort of like me and it might be fun to have someone to knock around with. I don't think she really knew quite what to do with me and that's okay she'll learn over time but like I said we seem to hit it off pretty good. We only talked about the other kids minimally and she was able to fill me in on a lot of interesting things about the family that I have of course had no idea about. It's not going to change anything significantly of how I feel about the other bios but at least it feels like I have somebody in the corner with me looking out at the other family weirdos- we're just the weirdos in the corner.

We had quite a long time to visit like I said we never stopped talking the entire time but I had to finally cut loose so I could run back to the apartment get myself a little bit ready then head out for a bus to go to the Independent Living Center for the regular board meeting. Did I say at all of how windy it was today and that's not bad enough it's also cold the wind blew a chili piece of air I had the weird over the hood furry jacket thing the kids got me for Christmas or Father's Day but I was still pretty chilly as I went from block to block catching the bus and then the train. I was also having a challenge keeping my shoes on as usual and luckily finally when I got to the Independent Living Center my buddy Kim was able to put them on so they at least stayed on till I got home pretty much spasms are still pretty significant and I think I'm just barely getting by but that's all right. There soon to be a trauma going on at the Independent Living Center the new director got a notice of probation for mishandling our not being accurate on some funding issues. It was not her fault it was the way she inherited the problems going on with the financial issues of the organization. She took it in stride which I thought was pretty good it's going to be an interesting couple of months until we can get ourselves out of this financial ditch that were in right now as an organization I think we will be able to do it and we'll get along well probably have to do a lot more emergency meetings for the board. I was glad to get out of the meeting finally and luckily due to Daylight Savings time it was quite light and I was able to travel home in the daylight it was just cold and I was glad to get here. Heated up the sauerkraut and hot dogs and watched a little TV to finish out my day. Hopefully tomorrow I can rest up a little bit...

Nerves!

 I just finished texting one of my biosis, biological sister, about meeting tomorrow for the first time. It's a little strange to me how this is all coming about. I'm not all that interested in developing these relationships as much as the other bios seem to be. Oddly, yesterday I was contacted by yet another sister who had been in contact with a couple years ago and now she's making sounds like she might want to be getting together as well. I don't know how I feel about developing the whole new family relationship especially at this time of my life. I've done the family thing and I'm still doing the family things as much as I can. But there's a whole bunch of Family Folk on this biological family thing and I just don't know how I want to relate to them if at all. There seems to be some kind of tension between some of these folks I don't know very much I just sense it in how they request that I don't share anything they tell me with anybody else like I'm in contact with anybody else that they would know. It's just little things like that that make me feel a little uncomfortable. Now I'm kind of dreading the meet up at the coffee shop across the street from where I live. Now she'll know where I live. I don't need drop-ins and I don't need to be doing major therapy family therapy to a family that I don't know much about at all. I did the Seinfeld thing decided to meet at 11:00 a.m. for coffee and if it looks like it's better than coffee then maybe I could take it to lunch if it looked like it would be halfway worthwhile conversation wise. Luckily later on in the afternoon I have a meeting that I I have to be at so I can always beg off by saying I need to catch the bus down to the Independent Living Center for my March board meeting. And this is true I have a board meeting at 4:00 in the afternoon and I have to make at least one bus transition to get there. So tomorrow is going to be a very busy day. At 9:30 I have coffee social here at the building, 11:00 I'm meeting with the biological sister and at 4:00 I have a board meeting Mid City on the 3300 block. I think I'll be right tired by the time I get done with Thursday.

I really haven't done much today except work out on the arm bike and pretty much hang around the apartment oh, I washed clothes that's right that's always a fundamental project to get through. However, I must admit it's not the task that it used to be now it's just grabbing the basket in dumping on the bed and folding the clothes 23 minutes that's all that much. Thankful for that tasked to be out of the way. It's still pretty early but maybe I can get to bed early for once and read for a longer than usual and be ready for tomorrow's events..

Red flags

 I've gotten so involved in other things tonight that I put off blogging until late just because I had forgotten so this may not be a long one or the 500 words but I'll try. It's been a busy day no question about it more than I thought. I knew I was going to be out in the elements just because it was assist day. Then I saw there was a storm coming in so of course I knew I would get wet somewhere along the line but not bad. I wore my jacket a red jacket which I thought was Overkill but not really everybody else was wearing their heavy coats too. Anyway got in did my duty yet the private nonprofit then split over and spent time with Taco Time which is my favorite of the day and then I had to go home and hang out for a while for a special meeting of the board of directors for the Independent Living Center. I don't know what's really going on over there and I should have more knowledge about what I'm doing but something strange. I'm surprised we really didn't talk about that much at the special meeting but I was a little worried about the director Holly she seems so fragile I hope she's okay. I sense that she's under a lot of stress and I wish that it was easier for her. She talked about just having an automobile accident and I suppose you totaled a lot of vehicle. I hope she gets settled one way or the other.o

The other thing is beginning to raise a red flag Somewhere In My Mind is that all the sudden two of my blood sisters have come out of the woodwork. Now, I know that's not a great big deal but kind of is at least to me. The one is innocent enough the one I'm having coffee with on Thursday if I remember correctly but the other one doobie out of northern Utah just out of the blue start making contact with me and beginning to ask weird questions or just questions in general not necessarily weird but. Why both of them at the same time now? Like I say it raises some red flags. I don't even know how much I want to be involved with this part of the family my family anyway my blood family you can choose your friends but you can't choose your blood family I suppose you could work the adopted family thing into that too at least with the adopted family you could actually become invisible but with your Bloods once they found you they found you. I certainly have my guard up regarding these folks. I just don't know how much I want to be part of the clan. That's going to have to do it for today I think I might be close to 500 words but I'm not sure but it'll have to do it's late I'm tired and I've still got to do my journal and then hit the sack

Techno storm

I really do think it's odd that tonight when I went to charge my cell phone off my bedside unit for some reason I couldn't get the charger to come on. I think I only had or have 35% on the battery which kind of worries me. This morning when I packed my cell phone into my day pack I noticed it was only about 67% charged and it was on charge all night long supposedly. Now tonight when I went to my tablet to begin my dictation for today's blog entry it's only showing 27% charge. Luckily for me it really does not take much energy to do my dictation however I'm ghosted with a nine feeling that for some reason the charger for my tablet is not working as well as it should be. On the cell phone I tried pulling the connection out of the power strip which I have next to my bed that's got everything I have powered on it of any consequence and plugged it into the wall across the room and picked up immediately saying that it would be totally charged in an hour and a half. I don't really use my phone a lot during the day even when I'm on the bus just scrolling around so if I can get it at least a 95% charge tonight before I turn in I should be okay for tomorrow. But really worries me is that I'm wondering if I'm at the beginning of a tech meltdown- I tend to go through those off and on when all the sudden everything in one particular area of my life tends to fail. This could be a subtle warning that all things Tech in my life might be in question for a short space. Things like my cell phone and my tablet are a pain in the butt when they don't charge but if something happens to my power chair or my power bed then I'm in big trouble I really can be Marooned. So these times I tend to try to be as cautious as possible making sure that everything is topped off electrically that all my power in my chair is up to Snuff as well as my bed. That's all I can do just hope for the best after that.

I just got a message from one of my real blood sisters. I know that sounds weird but it means one of the family I have from the original Mom and Pop gene pool. I have just recently started visiting with her or she started visiting with me and now it looks like we might be communicating on a daily basis. We technically have not met yet physically supposedly this Thursday we're meeting for lunch or coffee or something. She's 4 years older than I am it'll be interested to see how we dovetail if we do it all. I think a lot of this is going to depend on me and how much I'm willing to give. I really do have some feelings about real family versus adopted family but I guess we all have to be aware of where we're from and who we're part of it's just weird..

Canned Delight!

I blew a perfectly beautiful day on television/movies. I don't apologize I totally enjoyed the experience but I did go out as usual. Sunday and that usually means breakfast with Marc Anthony and the kids but it was just Mark and I this morning and he was a bit later than usual. I was quite pleased with myself because going to bed about the usual time but I forgot about the whole daylight savings time kicking in and so even though I thought it was a good hour getting to bed I was really an hour later and so again it was like after 12:00 a.m. by the time I turn the light out to get some sleep and then I worried about not waking up in time to get dressed to go to the restaurant. Fortunately however I woke up really well about 3:00 a.m. 3:30 I needed to pee but I couldn't well I probably could have but I was caught between peeing and going to sleep for too long and having the pee keep me awake and then I wouldn't be late. I basically stayed awake till it was time to get up.

Following breakfast I asked Marc Anthony if he would assist me in getting some Case Lot Goods at the local market it was the sales and I wanted to get cases of the vegetables I use on a regular basis in my concoction. I'm carrying so many cans these days it kind of wears me out if I had a case being 24 cans that's going to last me quite a while I think. Mark of course was more than a happy to assist and I got everything I needed except the red beans and I usually can get those here at the apartment complex on food box day nobody seems to like him so they're easy pickings other than that I got a case of corn, French cut green beans, tomato diced, I also got a bunch of sliced pickled peppers which should last for a couple of days. I did ask about getting some of the big cans, restaurant style cans, of the pickled peppers that would hold me off quite a while I would think. It did before when I found them in a brand that I didn't necessarily like as much as the ones I used typically now. By the time we got them home and situated in the closet I was getting pretty tired so when Mark left I turned on the big screened and zoned out with my movie selections. Watched a couple good ones I was surprised to find them on Prime. The temperature supposedly got up at the 60 degree mark and I'm sure it would have been okay to be out but I was too tired I was exhausted from the weird sleep schedule hopefully in the next couple weeks I'll have another good day. Clouds are moving in tonight of course should be having Rain by Tuesday again very typical…

Sunshine Saturday

I was so concerned about my tablet being locked in safe mode that I decided I would go into Best Buy down on 21st South and get it checked out by one of the people down there. It was still kind of chilly this morning and even though my Saturday morning coffee buddy decided not to go to coffee today I felt that I needed to put in my presence anyway just to keep informed and to say that I did something today. I know that's pretty pathetic but that's me so I went to coffee and sat at the table by myself for an hour or so then packed it in came back to the apartment. By then however, the temperature was increasing, the sun was out no clouds and the wind was really minimum so I decided I would check on the bus schedule head into Best Buy and get my tablet looked at. It was a bit chilly, I must admit, waiting for the bus. Had the bus been at the same time it was supposed to be according to the internet schedule I wouldn't have waited very long at all but I almost waited seemed like 20 minutes later than the posted pickup time. I just faced the Sun and tried to think warm thoughts.

Typical as things go when I got to the Best Buy into the desk where they work on little computers and such I was assisted by a lady named Rachel who was really nice. But typically things go- - it kind of got carried away in that sentence- - When Rachel turned on my tablet and looked sure enough there was no sign indicating my system was in safe mode. I'd like to say that I had done something in the repair of this but I doubt it. I just basically turned off the system and frustration and waited to go to Best Buy support. She immediately tuned into the fact that the case that I have tablet in had slid over the volume control and so it was always on which was probably the reason that the tablet kept turning off the volume or sound. I can't believe I didn't see that. Anyway, Rachel indicated that if I just slide the tablet back into the case all the way to the top it should relieve the pressure off that volume key and the tablet should return to normal. I also had her look at the fact that I keep getting messages about how terribly finite my storage space is and then I'm about ready to run out of storage. Well it turns out I have lots of storage as far as things like entries to my tab or my and my writing. I just don't have any room to add any more applications and for the first time I started considering getting another tablet. I like this tablet so much however I don't want to go that route if I don't have to until I have to. Now that it's out of safe mode and I can really dictate freely and swiftly and with a relatively good level of accuracy I don't need another tablet. I did the pricing on the tablet that I would like to have that would have like three times the amount of space for applications or apps then I currently have which allow me a lot more options if I want to get more applications but I don't see that a big deal right now but who knows if I had access to space maybe I might. So, I pretty much accomplished what I went there for and even considered possibly getting another tablet a new tablet but not just yet. I surprised myself in that I almost did get it and I could have done it I don't think with any tragic issues. But since I spent so much this month already I just didn't feel comfortable spending $207 more on a tablet that is new. Maybe I'm cheap but I just don't feel the need to spend more on stuff I don't need right at this point in time but I'm now beginning to seriously think about the concept of more application space..

Friday Thoughts

 

I'm so frustrated I'm back to using the headset and the DragonBar software. Somehow I the tablet which are usually used to dictate my blog on “safe mode” And the machine will not allow me to do a dictation matter what I have tried to do. I have gone to the Internet or direction and of course nothing offered by the Internet seems to work on what I need done. So I'm back to talking and my headset and opening for the best.

The clouds were finally gone today, look like a beautiful day until they got out into it. The temperature should be freezing actually, it was a little above freezing but very uncomfortable Just the same. I didn't want to go out but it was finally time to freshen up the old vegetable drawer in the refrigerator. I used up all my tomatoes and cucumbers were long gone. I was going to have to make it fast over to the market. The trip over was not too bad The construction on the sidewalk but it didn't stop me. But I was glad to finally get into the market. I got my usual list: cucumbers, tomatoes on the vine,Sliced pickled peppers, corn kernel S, tomatoes in the can, green beans, a bottle of orange juice, candy bars usual. 40 bucks worth it doesn't take much anymore. My basket was pretty heavy by the time I started home. Luckily, the basket Was heavy enough that the load Pretty much stayed on my lap. There are a couple moments when going down an incline I was afraid I might lose my load but I survived okay and finally unloaded the Load on the table. It was good Provisions in the apartment and ready for the weekend.

I think the high point of my day – – actually there were 2, what was the call from my friend who now lives in Blackfoot Idaho and the other was based on with my brother,Who Found a flat piece of wood long enough To sit my new big screen making the screen much more safe it was most precarious. We averted a major heart break. Henry, written about this before in my blog. I have known Henry for over 50 years. We met at a Disabled kids camp As many years ago. Later on we met again at University being in the same dormitory actually. Our professional lives merged off and go on Over the years. Now, we are just a couple of fuddy-duddy old guys who get together over phone Every couple of years . It was good to catch up. I wish we lived closer, I wish I could travel to go and visit old friends spend the night of the places. That's not how it goes right now, but who knows…?

Shower chair fixed

 A deliberately choose not to wear shoes today. Thursday you know that's the day for coffee social and if I'm lucky not having anything else to do today except get through it. I had possibly considered maybe taking in a movie or going to one of the stores in the area and getting some more tomatoes and materials needed for my concoction. However every time I looked outside it just looked gray and uninviting. A perfect day to be without shoes. So following the coffee social this morning I decided I would go ahead and get my wash done since yesterday didn't work out for the clothes washing because I had to leave immediately following getting done with Melissa and heading out for my meeting. I suppose if I had really planned to go somewhere I would have done shoes. As it were it took me a 2 hours if not a shade longer. A time to get the clothes washed. I even took the clothes following the second dry back to the apartment and immediately folded hung up close so at least that was off the table.

I texted my older brother, Carl to see if he'd help me with my shower chair which needed some attention. I'm trying to keep it going until I either get the new Casters in and replace the old Wheels or the chair that I just did the paperwork on hopefully well I'll be enough to get the chair sent to me without further work on my part. I signed the papers and mailed them back into April over at the Independent Living Center. Hopefully, this will be enough and if indeed a chair does come and able to fix the other chair I will have a suitable backup and maybe it's lightweight enough that if I ever had to go somewhere in a vehicle it could be stowed in the back but I don't want to ask for too much. Was totally good to see my brother when he showed up after his work ended about 4:00. He was able to see what was needed then take off for the hardware store for the nuts and bolts and washers he would need to manufacture a screw for the other side of the chair. My brother was as good old self when he came over really excited to help me. We got the shower chair pretty much fixed up. My brother actually sounded excited for me when I told him that we had found a place to get the casters for the shower chair that I've gone ahead and ordered the front wheels. He sort of seemed like he was planning to put the wheels on the chair when they got here. He took the part that needed repaired home with him, to his shop, and did the repair in about half an hour 45 minutes later returned to my apartment and we assembled the shower chair I'm excited now about showering in the morning to see if my feet actually stay on the footrest. I am positive they will. Once again I'm saved by my big brother. Interestingly we talked about items requiring some memory capabilities and I don't know if he's if his is coming up short or I'm not remembering things at all the way that other folks see things. We had quite a discussion about when my older brother went to live with him and his wife back in the middle sixties. This is a hole another entry to the blog. He fixed my shower chair and then was reminded that he was to be at a movie in a few minutes so in a hurry he had to leave. It would have been that way anyway I've got a great big brother and I'll miss him when one of us goes, I think I'll miss him terribly..

Board meeting

  To be honest I almost missed my meeting today. I just happen to be checking my calendar the other day and all the sudden I saw that there was a meeting listed for wednesday, today! It was the utaf meeting, a board that I've sat on but seems like forever I'll bet you almost 30 years which is hard to believe totally hard to believe. I think I may have taken a break while I was going through that hole stenosis thing if I was in the hospital but we meet twice a year5 maybe four times a year I'm not sure. But it's always interesting. They provide a pretty decent lunch it used to be hot but now it's just sandwiches but you just have to appreciate what the economics of the new times are and I'm thankful to get the box sandwich. I was a little irritated at this group not necessarily the group itself but the organization I think I went to this organization for a loan or a grant to purchase the new shower chair which I ended up having to go through the Utah Independent Living Center for the device which of course they came in with a much less expensive piece of equipment that I doubt we'll meet the need but they were only going to allow me the $300 some dollars for the $1,300 chair that I wanted to replace the other. I didn't bring it up but when I see all the money we've let go for hearing aids like three and $5,000 Grant I wonder why I only got 300 some bucks. And chances are they weren't even aware of my need because I was going through the Independent Living Center which I guess is the organization you go through when you're working with these guys are one of the organizations. Since I got my problem fairly solved I believe I'm just letting the whole thing drop. I'll be impressed if I were to get the cheaper chair. All right about it when it shows up.

I find it just amazing that I've worked with this group of people for the length of time that I have just blows my mind I mean I am definitely old but I certainly watched these guys grow old. We look pretty decent as a group. I think I look the most hammered as far as that goes with my bizarre feet and weird dress habits I don't even know how to dress anymore as far as appearances at these meetings I should have a costume that I keep that I can dress up to go to these meetings my meeting board meeting costume. One of the members of the group is a retired physical therapist and she just sort of goes crazy every time she sees me. Today she was just super concerned about my right foot which tends to turn under and in. She asked if she could set my foot right which I strongly and quickly agreed to. Is the best my foot had felt all day long. I was kind of surprised because Melissa pretty much set my foot straight before she left I think I just twisted over as the day goes along and my spasms interrupted and I was sitting outside of my chair and my foot box is covered with that squirrely closet does it help my feet stay steady at all. Needless to say I was grateful. It was cold and dark coming home not dark dark but you know storm clouds dark. I just looked forward to coming home shutting the door eating some of my concoction and planning a very humble dinner and watching the Jazz lose again…

Time gift

I had a 4-Hour gift today. When I called to see if we had a meeting over at Assist Inc I was told that there would not be a meeting, which is fine with me for some reason I just didn't want to suit up and go all the way down to Salt Lake for the meeting. I wish I had known last evening so I could have tried to do a little more sleep this morning cuz at 4:30 when I woke for the last time I could have used some more sleep. I won't go back to sleep at that point in time just because I'd be afraid of overextending my sleep cycle and not being ready in time to catch the bus. Either way it's okay actually because I was pretty much dressed by the time I called in to find out if we are having a meeting and that's probably just as well. So I figured with my time I would finally make the trip to get a ream of paper for The copier / printer and another bag of rubber bands and just to do some various window shopping or whatever you call it when you look at stuff that you don't plan to buy that you might buy at some point.

The only struggle I had getting dressed today was really two one was button it up my shorts and the other one was getting the shoes on. And I got the shoes on as best as I could but obviously not good enough. I was pretty focused as I got to the market, the superstore just up the street from our apartment complex. I got the paper and I got the rubber bands and I had them balanced on my lap as I rolled around the building looking at various other items and of course my right foot took a spaz and then off came my shoe actually I didn't even know why she was gone until somebody brought it up to me and asked if it was mine of course it was and I graciously accepted the shoe and put it on my lap not knowing quite what to do except perhaps just roll around the rest of the day with the shoe of my lap till I got back home because there was no way I was able to get my shoe on myself especially with all the stuff on that lap and travel pack and hook. Long story short I was looking around must have been looking a little for Lauren because this one lady stopped and asked if she could help me reach something and I said no but I can sense that she was a helper person so I asked her if she would consider putting my shoe on and she said yes. I was elated I tilted back in my chair extended my foot instead of perfect Cinderella prince scenario. She put my shoe on tighten it up really tight and I felt so much better not having to go home with my shoe on my lap with the rest of my materials from the market. I'm not sure what this was about or if I had to be about anything but I sure was uncomfortable for a minute or two. Luckily well I was at the market, the superstore I remember this is where I bought my shoes the first place and sure enough there was still shoes exactly like mine sitting there on the rack waiting for someone like me to come around and purchase again for another couple years…

Ho hum Monday

 It's another Jazz game night which means it's another night that they're probably going to lose. Hate to be such a defeatist but this team is training me well I have to admit that. Not that I dislike the team the team just seems to be floundering right now and that could be with all the deficits plaguing the team but still it's a challenge to watch them play if you want to support them. Snow feel again last night and it was snowing when my home health person came this morning, Melissa. Had the day not been snowing and just cold I'd still doubt if I would have gone anywhere today but I do need to get some more paper for letters and notes and stuff. That will be a rundown to 21st South Office Max and that's not a trip I would take lightly maybe if I went to assist meeting and stopped on the way back that might be a way to go cuz there's that 21st station that I can get off and just buzz across the street.

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I spent the morning off and on making a refueling my concoction with cucumbers and tomatoes and another can of sliced jalapenos and the juice. I think I have enough now for the week but I still now need to get some replacements another bunch of tomatoes cucumbers and maybe some celery or something belts which is crunchy. A little worried about the tomatoes they seem a little soft but I think as long  I keep the tomatoes n the brine they should stand until I eat them. Perhaps the most important event of my day was getting the last two kids letter off into the mail. Early on I was able to get them signed and folded and stuck in their envelopes and then I just had to get settled after Melissa left and took them down and drop them into the mailbox as well as check my own mail. There's no bad news in the mailbox at least for me that was a good sign. I know this is not quite 500 Words but sometimes there's not 500 Words of information I can scrounge out for a day's time. Maybe tomorrow. I made contact with assist this evening and my person was not there which I thought was a little strange but the first I did visit with seemed to indicate that there would be a meeting tomorrow so I'll act like there is one until I call Andreas to find out yay or nay. So there might be more from tomorrow's challenges then the days. All I can say is the days are getting longer and it feels like it's getting warmer and the snow is not nearly as much the next day as it was the day before..,

Fluid intake

 I'm just exhausted and I really haven't done anything today to be the exhausted from. I think it's because I woke up at about 3:00 a.m. and knew that I had to be up at 6:00 a.m. in order to have enough time to get ready to go to breakfast with Marc Anthony. I was afraid I might oversleep and be totally late. I think I was still worried about the possibility of getting stuck with my transfer as well. I'm really beginning to have issues with my ability to transfer and I don't know if it's me or if it's the bed or the power chair something's not the same. I don't know how the bed could be different but it seems like it doesn't go up high enough especially for the transfer into the power chair in the mornings. This morning the chair was just about even with the cushion and I made the transfer okay but I wouldn't have had a chance if I didn't have the slick pads to get me over. Then there was the challenge of just getting ready and I was able to do everything in time there's no time for dallying  t hat's f o r  s ure.  But I was totally put together by the time it was to leave even the shoes and I had to do those once or twice. When I got back from them breakfast I finished watching my series on Prime and then watched a couple other movies and part of a basketball game until I got bored with it because the team I wanted to win was losing. And then this evening to watch two Marvel movies. What I found really strange was I intended to sleep through a couple of the movies which was sort of my intention but I felt like I had a fever or something I felt like I was coming down with something. I thought maybe perhaps I wasn't drinking enough fluids for today and I still think that might be the case so I Gluck down a little bit of the orange juice and settle back and watch some more Thor. Eventually I decided to have some dinner of the roast beef I made yesterday with the potatoes and carrot. That was pretty decent and I started feeling better at the same time I don't know why that would be I did stop by and take a couple spoonfuls of my concoction that might have had something to do with it but somehow I needed I think to increase my fluid intake. I never even got to make my bed today. That really never happens and everything smells a little pissy I don't remember pee in the bed seem like I drained everything into the bag as always. But there's a strong urine smell by the bed as well as in the bathroom. Perhaps I didn't ingest enough coffee today maybe that's why I'm so sleepy or the mere fact that I was out going to the restaurant and snow covered sidewalks rattling my teeth cuz it was so rough road. I think the snow will go in the next couple days quite swiftly.

I've decided that I don't have a fever so I don't think I have a bladder infection. I'm about due for one I can tell but I don't think that's what I had today I think mainly was I hadn't ingested enough fluids. I can work on that tomorrow and the week. It's just another Sunday night getting ready for a Monday I'm so thankful to be where I'm at...

French Cut. Beans

 Once again I had a major mishap transferring from my bed to the power chair this morning. I wanted to make sure I had enough time to be ready so I can get over to the copy shop to meet with my friend Janet. So I got up around 6:00 a.m. but as I was transferring my right leg fell between my bed and my chair. I thought sure I'd close the gap between those two areas are that area last night but my foot and leg got stuck in the crack and I spent the next 20 minutes trying to free my leg so I could skip finish the transfer and get into my chair the right way. I really was a little bit concerned I don't want to have to call the fire people any more than I have to or the resident assistant here in the building both issues detrimental to the longevity of me being as independent as I want to be. Also, in the back of my mind I keep hearing voice of reality indicating that you can't keep transferring forever sooner or later your body's going to give out. I'm in the mode of disbelief right now that this is the time. It was just an error on my part and getting my foot caught. I'll be more careful from his point on. Like I said it took almost a half an hour to free my leg up finally and I was able to do it independently thank goodness I had all my sticks where I could reach him and prop my leg up and pull my leg up and whatever I had to do to eventually get my leg free my leg had to pay the cost however a lot of damage was done to the Shin on my right leg. My skin is really taking a beating another issue I have to be careful about. I wish Melissa was around she gets to put some ointment on my wounds or something. But like I said eventually I was able to free my leg and get on with my morning. I wasn't late getting to the coffee shop even though there was great winds blowing as the next cold front settles in on Taylorsville and Redwood Road.

As always Janet and I had a pretty decent conversation talking about people here at the building and what's we feel is going on to a lot of Apartments. Really seems like many of the apartments are falling apart one way or the other. Lots of mildew and mold and stuff like that and so everyone thinks they're getting sick and just a bit of a trauma psychologically speaking for those who have to live here. I'm happy still with what I've got and I think I just have to be more careful be focused and not be afraid to call in people if I need to. I was able to get Shelley's mail out done today as long as well as Mom Hughes. That leaves just Marc Anthony and Jasmine and since Mark doesn't really care when he gets his and Jasmine- - probably doesn't either - - it's on the road with Jackson traveling I assume they're still in Florida but they may have gone up to North Carolina I don't know but at least I remember that they're on the East Coast south east coast som

ewhere. So they won't need letters until maybe a couple weeks I do have the $10 bills that I stuff in those appropriate envelopes and the most I worry about is Brisa and Denver. And I'll have time either tomorrow or the first of the week to get those letters dictated and mailed. I spent a lot of time today after and a little bit before trying to clean up a little bit around this apartment. I really messed up and let it go to waste. It kept me busy for the rest of the day actually I did stop and watch the series I'm currently involved in Mr and Mrs Smith that's cute rendition on the original game or movie. Following the Jazz's loss tonight I spent time just cleaning things up as well as cleaning out the concoction container which is pretty ugly looking and cutting up some more ingredients actually I just added cans of peppers kernel corn and tomatoes in the can. Just tired too tired to chop up the real Tomatoes as well as the Cucumber so that's going to have to wait till Monday but I have enough concoction with the corn and the peppers and tomatoes and French cut beans to get me through till then and I'm happy about that

March's entrance

 A fairly interesting day though very frustrating at times. It's the warm before the storm, yes, another storm is barreling down on the Wasatch Front promising snow and a Severe temperature drop so I figured if I do anything today I should get ready for possibly being hammered into the apartment for a day or so. It's supposed to be a fast moving storm so not too much to worry about especially this time of year each day equates to more sunlight snow just does not have a chance.

It was such an interesting Friday morning because for one reason or another my home health person, my caregiver, elected to come in and do me at 6:30 in the morning she never comes out early. That would be ideal if she came that way every work day. In fact she came today just a little after 6:00 and I hadn't even had time to shave or get any of the other things I need to have done before she gets here like having the coffee made and the bathroom tidied up a little bit. But it was nice to be done basically by 7:30. She indicated that because she has her child on Friday mornings and the kid has to be somewhere relatively early she's able to come early and get me up and going then return home and finish getting the kid ready for wherever it's going. That works for me kind of extends my weekend a little bit. I spent the morning trying to work on my kid letters to get them out. I would like to have gotten them out today but it just isn't happening. This is part of my frustration. I have one granddaughter who's in Florida this week vacationing with her sisters and boyfriend. So, I don't need to get her litter out anytime soon as far as it being close to the first of the month because after Florida she's going somewhere else for I think a couple days and it eventually will be almost 2 weeks. So then I just had to get the other kids out. All went along fine until it was time to start printing letters and envelopes. I tend to do these all at one time and don't pay attention to the documents as they come out, as I should. Finally I realized when I started looking at some of the letters that they were partially printed and partially faded and partially nothing there at all same with the address is on the envelopes. I was out of ink! Luckily, I had a Backup cartridge and then I have the issue of putting the new cartridge in the printer. I don't want to risk messing up the installation and wasting the whole cartridge of ink as well as the printer sits on the top shelf on the same level as the big screen TV and I don't want to chance pushing it off the edge, the big screen TV. So as contacting my son to see if he'd come in and help but then I realized I need to give it a shot before I start doing that which I did and it worked! The other issue was even before I started printing for some reason I couldn't get the printer to work no matter what I did it just wasn't seeming to work I finally turn the system on and off completely and I don't know if that did anything but eventually I started getting items printed and after a couple hours I got that finished. I'm going to try to get the letters to the people who are at home this week and then later on get the letters to The Travelers. And again, I don't think the people even really read the letters very closely but that's okay at least I do it which is important to me..