Sigh!!!

Right now, this very minute my computer is reporting that it is 52 degrees, there are literally rivulets of water running off this “now mountain across the street in the parking lot where all the snow from the last decent snow storm has been dozed up. I know this is un seasonally high temperature just the warm up which is preceding tomorrow’s storm but still it great to see the people walking round with out coats and some even in shorts or cut offs. Tomorrow the forecast is calling form rain mixed with snow and a high of 45 degrees—so even if there is snow, the snow will not be sticking round.

No word on the chair, actually there was some movement a few weeks ago when I was informed that my new power wheelchair would be in last Friday , it was not. I did not even call last Friday but I did call Monday and Brent my wheelchair guy said he would get on “it” tacking down what my chairs disposition is. I have not heard back from Brent and now it’s getting to be late after noon Thursday and I don’t work tomorrow, which would make it perfect foe me to take ownership of the chair…if it is in. I am OK if the chair is not in or does not come in for a while longer, as long as I have the renter chair from the Independent Living Center. I wonder if the reason I am not more excited about the chair being in is because I am frightened that I am going to be disappointed when the chair does come. I have always been disappointed in getting things I have ordered or asked for i.e. Christmas or birthday presents what ever I wanted was never what I ever got. I am sure it was my poor communication skills or coming from a low-income environment. The best example was 10^th birthday, 1959 I wanted a rifleman, ring handle Winchester repeater rifle by Mattel. The rifle and a device in he handle you could flip forward and the trigger would be pulled every time you cocked the lever—just like Lukas McCain’s in The Rifleman and not only did the lever work but shells were ejected as you worked the lever just like Mc Cain’s but I got a knock off, a big rng which automatically pulled the trigger but no shells and you could move from “auto to single “fire operation. I was disappointed but eventuall grew to love my version of the rifle—but I have the same dread now, there’s going to be something wrong with the chair when it gets here I just know it one way or the other the chair will just not be right. The bright side of the issue is that I know that eventually I will accept the chair, make door with the chair and eventually I will grow to love it just as I have had to do everything else.