Hellboy Sunday

I spent a lot of time in the sun today probably even more than yesterday as far as just laying out in the sun and reading and napping a little bit. I wore long sleeves and that was all I really needed though I'm sure the Hat helped a little bit but I enjoyed being out in the weather reading this beautiful autumn day. Breakfast was usual for a Sunday morning these days. Marc Anthony was running just a little late and Jasmine wasn't able to join us this week and that's okay I'm here she wants to. But we did breakfast Mark and I and enjoy the time we had together. Mark talked a lot about his projects and things he was doing and how his life was going which I was glad to hear about. I'm sure he's got a lot of challenges he doesn't share with me but at the same time I appreciate the ones that he does have and shares with me and allows me to worry a little bit. I wish there was more I could do for him decide from just let them talk but hopefully things will turn around and he'll be able to get more in control. He's in kind of a difficult place and hopefully this will pass.

Besides being out in the sunshine I came in around 5:00 so I could do the news and grab some dinner or some sorts. I had purchased a pizza for the sole purpose that I would not have to do any cooking or any kind of food preparation for today but again it seems like I've got a full bowel and I don't want to provoke it into unleashing itself before I can get myself over the toilet. I'm gurgling stomach wise as well. It's 9:00 p.m. so that means I pretty much got the system beat hopefully. Once I hop in bed I think I'll take some of the gravitational pull off of my bowel and I should be able to make it through till tomorrow when Melissa will be back. I spent a good part of the evening watching a couple of Netflix offering. One movie had started last night then pretty much turned off in the middle of the movie so to watch the rest and then another movie about superhero but what's again not done by Marvel and the difference in the movies Productions is unbelievable. I watched the second movie till the end but it was a bit of a challenge something called Hellboy which I thought was a Marvel offering but maybe this one was one of the early ones and Marvel took it over. I have noticed a couple other Hellboy offerings that definitely did say they were by Marvel so I'll have to check it out just to see. Seems to be a weird concept however this is an origin movie but even after watching the origins I'm still not quite sure about the whole hell boy operation. This movie tonight spend a lot of time on special effects much more I think than Marvel does. Marvel also has good story lines I think this would have the potential but I wasn't impressed

Blue Beetle Saturday

 Today definitely had that Saturday feeling to it. Sunshine, a little chilly but definitely doable in a long sleeve shirt and a black watch cap. I had both so it felt good to be out in doing whatever on a Saturday morning and afternoon. I met with my friend Janet this morning over at coffee where we gossiped and talked about other people that we live with at the apartment complex. It was fun and always good for a couple of laughs. I wanted to make sure I could get in a movie today and the movie I was most interested in some rendering called the Blue Beetle which I think is a DC Comics offering. The movie could be Marvel but it's definitely not the same quality as other Marvel offerings. It was pretty entertaining however kept my interest through the whole showing. I doubt however I would be going again even if the film is free. Following the film, I was pretty hungry, so I decided that I would actually order a pizza and take it home. Interestingly the only Pizza I really wanted was Domino's. This is a weakness that I have for pizza Domino's is just playing good old fashioned honest Pizza I don't like everything about them. They are also running a half price sale till the end of the week and I wanted to make sure to take advantage of that.

Like I said there is a Domino's right around the corner from where the movies are at and I've never done this before but I actually went inside the pizza place tried to figure out how to order a pizza right there. I was informed that in order to take advantage of the half price thing I had to order online which since I had a cell phone was able to do. Sadly however I looked pathetic trying to figure out the process sitting on the other side of the counter. I found the pizza that I wanted but I just didn't know if I had to download a piece of software or I can just do it finally one of the pizza guys took mercy on me and help me place the order off my cell phone. And amazingly in about 10 minutes I had a piping hot pizza in my box that I decided that I would put on my lap and roll home. The bus I should have taken was just pulling out as I was coming up to the intersection so I decided just to roll home. They are doing construction on the side of the road that I was wanting to use so that was fortunate so I could roll inside the cones on the regular asphalt/pavement and not have to worry about the sidewalk. I got a medium sized Pizza which is really just perfect because the box of small enough to really fit on my lap securely. I had two pieces of pizza which felt and tasted wonderful. It took some real restraint to have any more but I wanted to make sure that I had something to eat tomorrow so I didn't have to do any work it being the Sabbath and everything. I had thought about cooking Salisbury steak dinner family size six steaks or got the other day. But more than anything I wanted to see if I could get the pizza home okay which I did and now I have pizza for tomorrow and maybe even Monday. I enjoyed the rest of the afternoon and the Sunshine temperature was in the mid 70s and I read my book until I started getting so sleepy I might have passed out it was time to go in

Friday's Functions

I have pretty much squandered another perfectly good day. Staying in most of the day working on the laptop or the pad whatever the technical term for the device of electronical ability. I could probably spend my life playing online and never get tired. But at some point I've got to return to adulthood/reality and start working on this apartment to bring it up to cleanliness of some sorts clearly in chaos right now. I'm not sure but I think we're technically into that concept of Indian summer where are you got a few days of bad weather feeling like winter than all the sudden a high pressure system builds in, the clouds dissipate and the temperature is rise and though it no longer feels like true summer one has the feeling that the good weather is a gift and one should take advantage of it to the full manner of its pleasure.

I really did kind of focus my whole day on trying to relieve the pressure on my butt. I currently have no lesions or skin breakdowns but I want to be totally pre-emptive if there is one happening. Tonight I will use Skin Barrier than other remedies so hopefully reinforce that skin on my butt that seems to be at risk. We elected not to put on new barrier tape this morning since the tape put on Wednesday seems to be holding fairly well. I will certainly be ready for new tape by Monday if not before. I've been thinking a lot lately of what kind of Technology would need to get myself on and off the toilet because really that's all I really need is something to get me that few inches onto the toilet and off the toilet. Between the power chairs and the chairs that rise up and down I don't see why that is such a major issue. If I could do just the toileting I would be close to where I was before the neck surgeries took place. I was certainly keep my home health person coming in at least two shower me and to keep a watch over me to make sure that she doesn't see skin breakdown that I don't. Melissa's really great that way. Whenever I visit anything like using technology to help me on and off the toilet Melissa gets a little nervous that I'm trying to get rid of her- - which I'm not! I really have to have this person in my life she watches over me much better than I can watch over myself. She's sort of like a little wife without privileges and that's okay. I sometimes feel I'd be lost without her at least as far as her taking care of me on the days that she's here and the fact that she's around for backup should I ever need such services. It's Friday which means it's the long season now before I can have another bowel movement which will be Monday morning. I suppose I could kind of starve myself and limit the amount of intake of foodstuffs into my body. The bow program this morning was less than ideal I believe I'm a bit dehydrated which makes me have little rabbit pellet poops or rpps. I thought it was actually doing fairly good liquid intake. I know I can always do better but I Focus this last week and and to increasing my liquid intake in hopes of making for a better bowel movement. I was pleased that Wednesdays movement was so large and very liquidy towards the end I thought I was doing okay but obviously not today just a bunch of pellets pretty much. I will limit my amount of intake over the weekend saving Room for breakfasst with Mark Anthony and Company come Sunday morning I still think I'll probably be feeling uncomfortable by the evening but hopefully I'll stay intact and if not I'll just have to call Melissa

Thursday Thrills

Finally we had sunshine today in significant quantities! The temperature is not necessarily cold but cool and doable if you were to stay in one spot out of any Breeze that might be happening. I actually went out and sat in the Sun for a little bit this afternoon before I did my arm bike exercise and it was basically survival. As I do a lot during the winter I had a stocking cap on and I did drag out one of my new hoods to go with me as I ventured across the street to pick up a few things at the market. This will be the first time at the market this week what you doing pretty good for me but it's also because the weather's been so poor for being out in a power chair. Speaking of power chairs I did follow up with the wheelchair shop, again, today and got the same answer the shop is being held up by the manufacturer who does not have the parts. I'm not sure if it's a result of you know the whole pandemic thing and the shortages of this and that caused by the pandemic or maybe it's the current strikes that are happening all over the country. People are trying to get better working positions and pay which I guess I understand but certainly frustrating as hell not having to share that I can use and feel safe about and be able to reach the things on the top shells a lot of my cupboards. I know I know I'm being pretty spoiled. I should be thankful just to have adequate transportation, which I do right now but still I want to have more. I want to have the elevator seat along with whatever repairs are going to provide me with.

Today was coffee social and it was pretty poorly attended. It's the gambling day. One day a month buses to a casino just west of Utah, 2 hours from Salt Lake, takes a group of seniors and head to westbound to the casinos so where they'll be gambling all day or a bunch of hours of the day. This of course will take away the seniors who are usual members of the coffee group. Today I think we had maybe five all toll which is about half of a regular coffee session. We did have good discussions and decent refreshments and I guess that's as best you can hope for on the day before Friday and the weekend. Like I said I went to the market earlier today and actually did some impulse buying I bought a whole Salisbury steak entree. You know Salisbury steaks usually around 6 or seven pieces, covered in gravy, I don't know why I purchased them except that I thought that they would be good cuz I do love Salisbury steaks and then mix up some mashed potatoes it might be a good dinner that I could have a couple of times. Now I just have to pull it out of the freezer where I stuck it once I got home and heat up the treat. Maybe tomorrow or sometime over the weekend I can make a cute little meal some sort. One to purchase some other stuff but I never do because it's either too hard to carry back to the apartments are I really don't have room in the freezer. But maybe one of these days I'll try some of the other Frozen entries they have some of the stuff looks pretty exciting especially some of the Asian frozen foods well American Asian you know..?

Hump Day

 It's 10 minutes after 10:00 p.m. and I can't believe I haven't blogged yet! The truth of the matter is I got caught up with a lot of silly tick tock type videos and suddenly lost track of time I hate it when that happens. But that's okay it's not like I did anything today anyway to report. My butt was kind of hurting today it was afraid that I might damage it further if I were to continue on trying to roll around so I felt it was best just to recline a good part of the day and hope that the hip will heal. Actually there is no skin breakdown it's just sore and I wear some baggy shorts sometimes and they Bunch up and cause some pain. Once I get everything off I'm okay but certainly limits my options as far as socialization goes if I were to be social. Luckily that's not an issue.

But can't really remember where I was at yesterday when I took this image but oh yeah sorry remember I was at the credit union and there was a long line. Luckily I have my own chair and I guess luckily for this guy he had his own chair as well it was the strangest thing. We are all standing there in line and finally his turn came up and they called him forward that's what I noticed he was carrying what I thought was a cane but on closer look it was actually a stool of some sort that I guess you can carry around with you and then just sit on it when one needs to. I would think this would be something for like sporting events other events where places to sit aren't readily available. I never thought about whipping it out at the bank and doing your business. Luckily they called me right afterwards so I didn't get to see much of what the guy was doing as far as writing and stuff. I don't know it just looked weird for some reason. I apologize for the quality of the image I think I've scratched up my camera lens too much over the couple years I've had the camera. Cell phones are just one thing I just can't keep in good condition or maybe that's what cell phones are all about wearing out as quick as possible so you can get another one. In the old days they were pretty cheap but not anymore. If I wanted to get a free phone these days I'd have to change carriers and use the free phone as a come on. I'll just get by with this phone as far as long as I can I have to forego the pleasure of great photos. The clouds are finally moved out and though the weather is going to be chilly as I guess fall weather should be, the sun will be out and temps should be in the 70s if not a little bit higher but not by much after all it's October the high pressure systems moving in and we should have clear skies for the next 7 to 10 days which I guess is good. There that's about 500 Words it'll have to do for tonight on this hump day..

Hoodie blue

 Of course it was a rainy day and quite cool for my trip into the city for my assist meeting. I was kind of excited however to wear my new hood which we ordered last week and came in on Saturday. I was worried that it would not fit but it seems to work just fine even though it's quite huge everywhere else it will go around me perfectly and it's not as heavy as I would like but it seems to be doing the job for now. So with this Hood which is Bluer Than I would like because I wanted black and with the marijuana hood that I got Saturday from Ross's which is basically a black hood pullover not with a zipper I'm doing good and I plan to keep my heavy duty black hood which is pretty hammered even though I keep it washed it looks dirty but it's very warm but very heavy. The rain wasn't significant where I went and when I went to the bus stop. Just chilly. Had a problem getting off the train when I came to the stop that I needed the ramp would not deploy and the door would not open and I had to go to the next train stop and then hit the emergency button and have the driver come back and open up the door and let me off. This put me quite a ways away from the stop that I get off at the library which is right across the street from where I have my meeting. The bright side was that there were a number of small shops in the area that I could grab coffee from and actually I went to a Burger King and got coffee there with a good enough stopper that I didn't get slashed over with coffee by the time I got to my destination a couple blocks down from where I had to get off.

I had way too much fried food today and I need to watch it. I even stopped off at Taco Time for a meat stick which was delish. I was able to get home time for my daily broadcast of marketplace. I was able to get in half an hour of the world before Marketplace started but I did get a whole hour of time in on my own bike which means I'm right on schedule. Tomorrow I'll do another hour and then I will almost have my 200 minutes for the week. I usually do a half an hour on Thursday to bring myself up to and pass the 200 minute mark. I know it doesn't look like I did very much today but it feels like I did. I tell you driving the power chair on the sidewalks of Salt Lake City- - probably any City for that matter can certainly wear a person out and I'm feeling pretty tired. Maybe get to bed early and read a couple chapters in the current book and then tumble off into sleep the weather supposed to be better at least no clouds are rain clearing up….

chilly chili

 I actually felt pretty good today but I still really didn't do anything which I blamed on the weather. I woke the clouds and rain sometimes pretty significant rain enough to keep me inside warm and dry enjoying the morning and afternoon. Of course I could have been more productive than watching Marvel movies but that's what I chose to do and I enjoyed the time I did watching the movies. There's just some kind of Magical Escape for me in those movies. I suppose had I not done all the early writing of the kids letters I would have been doing that today or at least trying to get it all squared around so I can mail it out but that's all done! One big event of the day was the actual delivery of my newest hoodie. It's size 4 X and it's a zip up Hoodie. I have not tried it on yet. I think I'll wait till tomorrow before I go to the bus stop. The rain which came in this afternoon is supposed to last the night and then rain tomorrow as well. It sounds like I should be okay going into the meeting I have downtown Salt Lake but leaving and coming home might be another issue. Either way I don't think it's going to rain very hard and I have a new hoodie and that should keep me just fine. I don't know if I can wear buy more bulky shirts but I think I can get away with wearing a regular T-shirt with the hood if I plan to keep the hood on all day.

Even though I really was not as cold as it looked I felt I needed something warm for dinner so I spent a lot of time looking inside my pantry and overlooking the tamales but just what I sort of really wanted but thought I'd better wait. I had to do crackers so I thought well I could do chili. So I opened up a can of Hormel chili that I found on the Shelf. It smelled okay and it first glance looked all right but after I cooked it and got it hot in the microwave and out of the microwave and onto my lap and I took one bite which tasted okay but on the second right a little white thing sort of stood up and I don't know if it was my imagination or exactly what but it took me by surprise and I looked closely and I still don't know if it really was a maggot or whatever and it couldn't be alive after what I put it through microwave wise and then I look closer at the can and it seemed to be riddled with these little white squiggly things. They weren't moving but it was just enough for me to disregard the whole can in my bowl. So as I put them in the sink to go down the disposal I wonder if I begin to think maybe it just bean sprouts you know how that sometimes the the bean pods or the beans will Sprout little white squealy thing comes out which could look like a maggot. That's probably what it was but it was just enough for me to get rid of the whole can and then I found a another can of chili which was a much earlier or later date as far as used by when. It was from the LDS bishop storehouse. You get a lot of that kind of stuff from the food bank but it's good food. It was just made by someone who is 14 probably some Scout Troop are young adult group of the church. We used to have a cannery around our place in Boise and many weekends and evenings young adult groups were busy canning all kinds of items and chili was always a big item. But the chili was great didn't taste like the regular run of the mill corporate chili like Hormel or whatever kind of chilly. Kind of taste like Mom's chili but in a can and for The Bishop's Storehouse…

Happy October!

 

The day actually started pretty good. I got a pretty decent amount of sleep but getting up was a piece of cake no problems there shaving goofing around, getting dressed and so forth everything look good. Even getting down to the restaurant for breakfast with the kids. I was expecting horizontal rain and gale force winds but actually the morning was somewhat beautiful. A little cooler than it has been over the summer but it is fall and it is October 1st so I guess I have to realize that Autumn is here. Long sleeve shirt time. We had a pretty decent breakfast and then went on our ways. I didn't have anything planned for the day so I just came on back to the apartment and started hanging out and then I started feeling like I need to poop and that seems to be the new regular Sunday afternoon sensation for me. It's the long time between poops going from Friday morning to Monday morning I just end up filling up the valve by Sunday night I guess. I didn't want to move to aggressively and Trigger the poop process. I did try to eat some yogurt, drink some buttermilk and some other items that traditionally of helped me get through the poop period. The sensation is still not as bad as usual so I haven't called Melissa to either come over to stand by. I think once I get in bed and get ready for sleep I'll be okay. I'll try to finagle a diaper on if I can just taking no chances if I don't have to. I mean if I did have a major blowout I don't think the Chuck's and the diaper that I get on but have much effect. At this point I just want to get through the night in the morning tell Melissa gets here then we can go ahead and Evacuate the bowel. TBI? There wasn't much more I did today actually. It cut down my caloric intake just to make sure that I didn't overstuff myself. Probably too much breakfast but breakfast at the restaurants are always good. Had chicken fried steak and that's probably what put me over the edge so it serves me right. Of course I didn't eat the whole thing I have another meal with what's left that's something to look forward to.

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It's October the real time of change. Cool days and cold nights and looks like some pretty rainy days in the next week or so which will translate to snow in the mountains. I have an old hoodie which is pretty heavy that I can wear on colder days and then I got a newer one yesterday just because I needed something to wear at the movies since they keep the theater so cold. It's a nice little hoodie, though I like it, it's a little counterculture hippie slash/ marijuana kind of way. I don't know if I can wear it I mean I don't know if it's long enough or round enough to enclose me I'm kind of hoping so but I still have the other hoodie coming in the mail that's a zip up which would be a little bit easier for me to get in and out of. Either way I'm getting my clothes needed for a colder weather. I kind of wanted to go to another movie today but it just wasn't in the books sometimes it's important to be able to read your body and do what it tells you…

Storms and Movie Screens

 There's a storm coming in the wind blew all day but it was actually kind of warm but I still were long sleeves and I was glad that I did because I know if I had worn short sleeves I would have felt chilly all day especially at the movies. You heard me right, I went to another movie today. But before that.

I actually got decent sleep last night, felt pretty good this morning when I got up, I was to meet Janet again at the coffee shop for our usual 9:30 a.m. Saturday morning coffee where we get together have some coffee and gossip about the goings-ons at the building this last week. Lost to talk about specially with the support person, Rochelle, leaving property as well as the company itself. Gave us a lot of father to talk about besides the usual items of bizarre behaviors of the other residents here at the complex. I got back to the apartment and actually then gathered my undersized hood that I ordered and actually took it across the street over to the place where they all mail back here item to the Amazon Prime place and you get credit for returning the item and in my case they're going to send me the next size larger and hoodies. It was quite a process but with the help of people I was able to get it done today and the new hood should be here by Tuesday or Wednesday next week that's kind of exciting. I briefly returned to the apartment then decided to roll up to the movie theaters and catch the movie I've been thinking about. I'm kind of getting used to driving my chair all the way up to 5400 South which is like four or five blocks from my apartment. It certainly puts the miles on my chair I don't know how wise that is but I can't get to a bus stop that'll take me South until they finish the construction work. I mean I can get on the bus and go south to Redwood Road or 5400 South by going north to the college then catching the bus the other way to get to the movies that just seems like a lot of extra work as well as time so now I just dropped my chair up alongside the construction work where there working on the road. On the weekend there's no work going on so I'm relatively safe rolling in the road where it's taped off that during the day they are actually working on sidewalks and the streets.

I had a little problem with the doofuses at the movie house and trying to get the tickets that I wanted for the movie that worked with my program that lets me watch as many movies as I want during the month for 20 bucks. They put me in the wrong movie at first and then by the time that they got all the problems squared away from it the new the movie that I wanted to go to was already in show mode I probably missed 5 to 10 minutes of the movie. That's okay maybe I can watch the movie again in the next day or so. Today however I went to a thing called dumb money which was actually pretty good. All about the major speculation Rush that took over the country back in the 90s but everybody was trying to get rich quick by playing the market or whatever. I may have to watch this movie again to make sure I understood it correctly but I remember the time and I remember how close people seem to be getting as far as expanding themselves trying to make money off of the the credit or whatever the Itchy away is. Looks pretty good movie. I thought it was well done. Following the movie that did a little shopping at Harmons got some hard rolls for the weekend then came home. The clouds have moved in by that time but the wind still blew the temperature is probably still up in the upper 70s if not eighties. The rain supposed to start tonight around midnight and maybe going tomorrow during the breakfast time we'll see but we're committed to the breakfast as usual tomorrow at 7:00 or 8:00 a.m. but it was a good Saturday. I even bought another hoodie at Ross's Dress for Less. It was 10 bucks so I figured it's worth the crap shoot that's why I'm going to have a lot of hoodies if this one fits and then I've got the big one coming in the mail pretty exciting. You got all kinds of jackets there I might even go back and see if I can get a vest I saw some but I didn't dare know if they'd fit me or not. There's another store in that area like Ross's but I can't remember the name of the other store but they sell clothes for Less probably cheap third world country knockoffs but they're pretty cheap and they look okay I'll have to just be careful and now I'm going to have to start getting rid of old clothes in my closet time to do some di runs Maybe perhaps something that's Melissa can help me with…

Friday at the Movies

In order for me to justify the movie watching program I have with Regal movie theaters I have to go to at least two movies a month to break even with what I pay a month for that privilege. I pay you about $20 a month so I can go to any movie, as many times, as I want to. It's a great program I think but it's amazing how hard I have to work to make it work for me. Today was a good day, actually probably the best day of the weekend, according to the weather people. Temperatures are up in almost to the 80s but that was okay because I was wearing my heavy Hood and a black watch cap. I look like I should have been in the middle of November and Gail force winds but I was certainly warm enough that's for sure. I had a pretty good Friday morning I was done with my business probably around 10:30 when I turned Melissa loose. That's what I decided I would hit the movies today then I at least have the two movies under my belt for the month. I might do another movie tomorrow but it's hard to say right now. November should be easy there's a number of interesting movies I've seen previews for that I might take in Plus I think I might go to some of the same movies over again a couple times. Today I went to a movie called The Creator I'm still not really sure about what it was about. I was running a little late when I got to the movie and then must have been a new guy or something behind the tell he just couldn't seem to figure things out first he got me into the movie but the movie theater that it was being shown and didn't start for an hour and then he had to switch me out of that movie theater into the one that was already going through the previews and the previews by the time I had gotten everything squared away it already ended and the movie was five or six minutes into the movie if not more. I pretty much figured out, sort of, what was going on but I might sit through it again if I can sit through that 3 hour movie about the atom bomb I know I can sit through this science fiction piece again and rather enjoy it regardless of the violence involved.

I was on quite a terror today so after the movie I decided I would take myself to dinner and I went to Panda Express. It's been a long time since I've been to the panda kind of forgot how the thing ran but I got a shrimp Bowl on top of Chow Mein noodles. It was pretty good again it cost more than I anticipated- - everything costs more than what I anticipated anymore I just have to build that into the equation of life. The food was okay I think the next time I should have get fried rice but I need to reaffiliate myself with the panda it really is good eating enjoy it. Other than thwaat that was my big Friday. Totally self-absorbed and enjoying riding the bus, going to the movies some Chinese dinner then home to watch a little Gray's Anatomy. I've started at the very first of the season when gray was still an intern. I don't think I even like the later seasons not as much as I like the first couple of years. It's supposed to rain on Saturday and Sunday most of it on Saturday night and Sunday morning so I'm not sure what I'm planning. I think I'll do breakfast for sure with the kids if they're up for it other than that maybe I'll bake something a cake, bread I' may even go buy a roast that would be kind of fun..

Dreams and Ice Cream

Something's going on inside my head I'm not quite sure what it is or I think I don't know what it is but maybe I do. All of the sudden within the last week or so my sleep pattern seem to be changing I'm waking up earlier and earlier in the night and not being able to get back to sleep. For example last night I think I woke up around 3:00 a.m. and never really got back to sleep and I don't know particularly why. As I lay in bed the remainder of the night however I begin to think that this is also coinciding with my work starting as a board member for the Independent Living Center. I don't know why this would cause so much angst or anxiety to bother my sleep but something is I remember when I woke I was in some kind of a meeting with the old Administration of the Independent Living Center. The boss was also a friend of mine fairly close and she was part of the dream but all I remember just seeing her face in the dream. Still however, as I pondered what I remember seeing in the dream I became more and more anxious and not being able to fall back to sleep. Then my mind started creating all kinds of Boogeyman like what if I'm experiencing post-traumatic stress syndrome PTSD? Wouldn't that be a hoot? I don't know and it's kind of got me a little bit worried but hopefully not too much. We'll have to see what happens tonight.

My day today was kind of busy. Of course it was coffee Thursday of the coffee social group but it was also the last day of our little social worker person who was moving on to another job after everybody fell deeply in love with her because she does such a great job. I never got really close because I knew she was a short timer. People who are as good as she never lasts long and get plucked by other agencies programs or companies and leave you just missing the person and the space they filled in your life. Same reason I don't like dogs, they always die before you do and you got to deal with the loss. In fact today this person actually hosted her own going away party in our main common area. She was going to provide Pizza and whatever for people who showed up to say goodbye and of course everybody did with the possibility of pizza. She came in with two big pizzas from Costco which are pretty good Plus pumpkin pie and ice cream. For as many people who showed up I cannot believe she got everybody a piece of pizza. I held off until everybody had a piece and they were still two or three pieces left and I couldn't believe that it was almost biblical like feeding the 500 with a couple loaves of bread and a fish or two. It's not like we got a bunch of pizza everyone got a pretty narrow piece of pizza on a paper plate with a scoop of ice cream and a slice of pumpkin pie sometimes that's all you need to say goodbye it certainly work today...

Travel Day

I Would have kind of liked to stay in the apartment today and let my stomach settle down but that was a no-go. Today I had scheduled toenail clippings down south which means I have to jump the bus go all the way down to the end of the line as far as line 217 goes then switch to another bus the 218 and go the rest of the way to where am I podiatrist works. Essentially, it could be a very easy ride but through the transit authorities wisdom they split the Redwood Road Corridor in half and so the 217 runs every 15 minutes whereas the 218 runs once an hour. That means if you really take skill you can figure out which 217 route will give you the least amount of time waiting for the 218 to take off. My problem today however is that on Wednesdays I have Melissa start my wash and throw it in the dryer before she leaves then I go down and collect it and bring it back to the apartment to fold. Well the problem is that I have to wait for the wash to finish the dry cycle and then I find that I'm really cutting it short to catch the bus to get down to the switch station on to the other bus to get to my 2:00 appointment.

I came real close to not making my time. I had forgotten the other problem right now is that it's difficult to find a bus stop that's not under construction. Most of the drivers will not stop at a bus stop that's got the orange containers in front of them, signs of construction. That means I have to find a place where I can catch the bus it's a major frustration I ended up rolling all over the area here going all the way south to the 5400 to where the construction is not started yet and caught the bus there. At the end of the line where the 217 matches up with the 218 I have the option of not waiting for the bus and just powering my chair all the way up to where the podiatrist is at that's what I did. It wasn't an easy ride and I worry about my butt being exposed to that much trauma but I think I'm doing okay. I was able to get a bite to eat and wander around the Smiths Market for a while before getting to my appointment on time. I ended up putting 4.8 Mi on my chair today that's a lot of miles when you're using public transportation. That means you are on the street a long time going from one bus stop to the next and still porting yourself on the bus for even longer distances. My bottom of sore by the time I got back to the apartment but I had fancy cut toes and a battery probably depleted almost half. Actually, I think it's more than that cuz I really go four miles in one day that's a lot of transport.. 

Taking Tuesday

  There was no assist meeting today thank goodness so I figured I would get some change since I had almost ran out of change this month and I was going to need dollar bills more specifically $10 bills before the end of the month the stuff the envelope Swift to send out on the kid letters. So even though I had more time than usual on this Tuesday I was able to finish the remaining letters as well as printing envelopes for the mail out. As soon as I finish breakfast and getting dressed and I went out to the bus stop and caught the 217 into the college then jump to 47 over to my credit union. I wish I could say something unusual happened for the trip but it was pretty benign but that's okay no problems are good problems. Even though I didn't need them I got a couple rolls of quarters just because folks need to wash clothes sometimes. I also got a lot of $10 bills just so I would be sure to have enough for the envelopes. The rest of the cash I'll stick back in my money book for the inevitable rainy day. That was my main trip for the day. Back at the apartment I took some time and read a little bit and then did my arm bike later on in the afternoon so I could listen to Marketplace.

For dinner I had jalapeno Peppers sliced with a couple pieces of bread. I could have made some soup or something but I just fished around inside the refrigerator coming up with cheddar cheese slices and and saltine crackers which is one of my favorites in the world. Not only is it flavorful and quite delicious I live under the belief that the more cheesy can eat the better plugged up you can be and after the weekend I want to make sure I've got myself under control again. I feel great however I have some feelings of pressure sometimes in my abdomen and such which I think is just air more than anything else. I should be okay with Melissa coming tomorrow and they get on Friday it's just that long stretch from Friday to Monday that kind of freaks me out but I've got to have faith in myself and Melissa that if I cannot get myself taken care of I eat the toilet I can always call on Melissa to come and clean me up and get me going again. So now I'm off to bed relatively early but I want to make sure I feel rested and assured but I jump the bus heading south tomorrow for my trip to the podiatrist and my nail cuttings. I have a hunting suspicion that there was something else I was supposed to do this week on the calendar on my computer I have a partial message indicating ribbon cutting. I kind of think it's from the Utah non-profit housing operation with the opening of another one of their low income housing projects but I'm not sure. I doubt that I'll be able to make the ribbon cutting however since my whole afternoon is taken up busting to my podiatrist and Back Again. Now I just have to finish printing the letters and stuff in the envelopes applying the stamps that I'm ready to go.

Monday Moans

 I'm pretty tired, I had a difficult time sleeping I'm not sure exactly the reason possibly the trauma of nearly pooping my pants. Just worried that more and more of these things are going to happen as I age. I try not to think about it but seriously it's not going to get a lot easier. However, I finally got up around 6:00 a.m. as usual did my business got ready for Melissa and the day. It was great getting showered and dressed this morning. My stomach calmed down and I felt myself getting back to normal. Melissa was quite reinforcing by indicating that I was not having these issues sooner than I used to are more frequent than I used to. And maybe I really need to consider having some kind of floater come in that can help me do my bathroom on Saturday or Sunday and not deal with the stress and Trauma of these evenings or days when my bowel does back up and decide to release itself all at one time. I'm just Ponder this more. It could add $100 to my monthly account as far as bow and bathing goes but perhaps that's best it's money well spent as far as I'm concerned. What's crazy is the whole thing that if I could get on and off the toilet by myself I'm pretty sure I'd be right back where I was before the first stenosis when this all started going downhill. I know I could get myself on and off the toilet if it was halfway accessible but the way it is now it's not a doable deal. I must rely on my home health professionals.

My hood came today I haven't opened up the package yet. I may wait until Wednesday when Melissa will be here and we can open it up and see if it'll work or not. I can open up myself but I'd end up destroying the package and after speaking with Diane last night I think that I'm going to have to send this back and see if I can get the larger measurement. I got the second to the largest size but I think Diane's right I should have gotten the larger size after that just so I can be sure that it'll go over my bulky clothes if I have the clothes on and I'm wearing the hood. Silly as it is I'm afraid to open up the package to once again suffer buyer's remorse and not purchasing the right thing the right way. I just hope that the return process is as easy as some people lead me to believe. And again the national news folks over the years have had the number of stories about how easy it is to return items to Amazon or wherever and that's part of the problem is that they they too willingly take back sales items. I think I ordered like a 44 and I should have ordered a 48 or something if they have it. A lot of this predicates on whether or not the organization has these items readily. Seems to me the price on this item was on sale and it was $12 and I'm figuring that's worth the crap shoot even if I just absorb the hood and use it for whatever.

TMI ?

I've been resting all evening after an explosive bowel movement this afternoon. In fact I'm surprised that I made it or that we made it to the restroom without some major incident. Luckily, I was able to get a hold of Melissa who was able to come over fairly quickly and assist me. I have been worried that I had been stuffing myself all weekend hoping that I could make it till Monday morning when I have my usual bow and shower. Even this morning when we had breakfast I was aware that I seem to be getting super full so I only ordered mush, oatmeal and a couple pieces of toast. Now before breakfast as I was going through my morning rising routine of pickled pepper juice, sliced peppers and vegetable juice and ice. I probably had two or three tablespoons sliced pickled peppers. I dressed and by the time it was time for breakfast I was feeling relatively okay. Even after we had finished and I'd gone back to the apartment I was feeling good enough to go out and sit in the Sun for a couple of hours read a little bit but the same time as the morning wrapped up into early afternoon I began to sense that the cramping and gurgling of my stomach was not going to bode well with me trying to wait until tomorrow morning. So finally around 1:00 I texted Melissa who quickly responded to me that I could get assistance if I could wait till 2:45 ish. I could feel I could wait that long however I did feel a squirt or two, just little ones but still images and shades of things to come.

When Melissa did get here I was able to get out of my clothes without incident and get strung up in the sling but that was it. Luckily we had the red bucket nearby which Melissa handily put in place and I delivered. I won't go into any further detail except for it was a lot leaving me week and a bit thirsty. The held off on the shower until tomorrow morning but I did have Melissa wrap my cushion in a Chucks and fit me with an adult diaper for the rest of the day. I wasn't going to anywhere and no one ever comes here except Melissa so nothing to worry about just having my shirt on. I took it easy to remainder of the day leading back in my chair as much as I could and watching whatever I could find entertaining on Netflix or Disney. Melissa did find a couple of yogurts for me and I had some toasted bread which together has made for some kind of a dinner and hopefully the foundation for my gut to start building some better poops. An incident like this used to really get me down but not So Much Anymore even if I'm paying roughly $20 of poop when this happens I'm just glad I have somebody willing to come over at a moment's notice and assist me. It's almost bedtime and I'm hoping that the yogurt and the bread will work its way through the night is that in the morning it will be able to start over again on another week of eating.. 

Cinderfella

Just maybe a short blog tonight I just let the day get it ahead of me. Fairly busy for a Saturday but I enjoyed the day. Probably the most interesting thing for me today was seeing this shoe along the side of the road. It was a fancy shoe it was a dress shoe one that shines up really bright like the kind you would wear if you had a formal attire. The big issue is that it's a men's shoe. It must have cost a bundle these kind of shoes do you know the glass up really nice. I sort of stuck out like a sore thumb trying to get this picture it's not as good as I would have liked but it'll do for a side of the road shoe picture. I was glad that I had the ability to take this image it's been awhile since I've done a shoe image

Since I didn't have to go to coffee this morning with Janet I just slowly gagged around the apartment even Friday a couple eggs for breakfast that was a nice change. I don't get to have breakfast like this one doing the Saturday coffee thing. But I had some toast and likes to put on the toast and I was feeling good enough and I certainly had enough time to head up to the movies and catch a movie I was interested in seeing primarily because dog-faced boy was in it Nick Cage. Fairly cute piece at least I enjoyed it and did not sleep through it as I usually do in movies these days. It was good to get out and good to spend some time at the movies. I even had popcorn but no drink that was a bit of a dry treat. I did get a drink however when I was done with the movie and heading out and stopped in at McDonald's for a hamburger a great cheeseburger and a Sprite. I'm doing a half ass job of trying to keep myself hydrated at least drinking something during the day I'm doing better but I still want to get my urine lightened up a lot it's getting pretty dark lately. Other than that and a fast trip to Walmart or I did $38 worth of shopping which isn't much but it was enough to keep me busy taking the bus back to the apartments. Got the usual for the week lunch meat some potato chips, butter and other Essentials I thought that I would need. It's a good thing I don't have transportation that I could carry a bunch of stuff with boy and have a trunk full of stuff. But as it is I just get the essentials as I see they are. Back at the apartment I figured I'd done pretty good and the place looked still fairly good from the time that Gloria was put in cleaning up the kitchen area so I watched Thor one of the Thor movies. It was relaxing and enjoyable I found a box of Milk Duds I had not used from the last movie trip that I went to a couple months ago so that was good then I realized I needed to dump some garbage as well as take the dead watermelon out of the refrigerator put that in the garbage before Sunday and then I realized I had not yet done my blog. So here it is I'm sure it's not 500 words but it'll have to do for a Saturday night 

Gurgle times

 I have totally squandered yet another day. It wasn't really on purpose though I kind of think I knew what I was doing. The only defense I have was or is that the temperature had fallen significantly, storm clouds are still in place and there was significant chance of more rain happening. It truly feels like a good day to be inside and do Insight stuff. This was a day when I would have my home health person come in for shower and toileteen which she did and a great job as far as that goes. I did kind of really get out and want to do something, I really did but I felt I just need to let the day go and see what happens. After Melissa turn me loose I tried to find something to eat and in the meantime finished watching one of the first Spider-Man movies with Toby Maguire. Netflix had all three of them and that's what I did today was watched the second and third Spider-Man movies with Tobey Maguire. It was okay sitting there in front of the heater trying to toast out a little bit. I also had the displeasure of my silly computer which goes in and out of volume control. I had to watch the first movie with the headphones on because all I could get volume wise or audio was through the headphones eventually I did something and was able to get the regular volume reestablished. At least I was able to watch the news hour without having to Don headphones. It was also during this period of late morning early afternoon my stomach begin to gurgle like I had finished my job on the toilet this morning. I shouldn't complain I've been doing quite well the last couple of weeks but now the gurgles have started which makes me want to stay close to the toilet not that would do me any good since I can't transfer myself it just makes me feel somewhat comfortable no I have a place to go and wait until I can get my home health person here. It may be a long time coming I have to be patient but she eventually does show up what I've got to do a clean up. Melissa did assure me that she would be around this weekend if I needed her.

Sadly I would have liked to have gone out at least across the street to the market to pick up a few items to get me through the weekend. Hopefully, I'll get through the night without an issue and maybe my stomach will stabilize by morning. I may have to go see if there's any yogurt in the refrigerator that I could use to repopulate my gut I really believe in these kind of things. Fortunately, my compadre or Compadres who goes to coffee with me usually on Saturday mornings texted me that she would not be able to make it this week so no problem missing Saturday morning coffee. Perhaps a small blessing or several lining depending on your point of view. I'm a little concerned about having to deal with this kind of issue up until Monday morning if I make it that long just takes a a lot out of my weekend enjoyment. I'll do good either way now that I have my home health people that well put myself back together after such a challenge in event I don't worry about it much at all.

Three Event Thursday

 

Today was the first day which really felt like fall/coming winter and of course it's a day that I had pretty much the whole day booked one way or the other. I of course woke up way early probably around 4:00 a.m. and never really got back to sleep but surprisingly this lack of sleeve did not seem to bother me as much as I much as I thought it would remember only two instances of actually yawning today. Really on of course it's Thursday which means it's Coffee Day. I just show up anymore and that seems to be about enough. Someone puts the tables in order every Wednesday night and Marsha my friend across the hall has taken on the mantle of making the coffee but she does a pretty good job for someone who has never done anything like that before. Today's event was pretty well attended sound like good conversation was being had. Following that of course was my next meeting which was at 12:00 noon.

Today was a t Council or  assistive Technology Council, a watered-down version of the council's previous self when it was a big deal attended by all kinds of folks who either represented people with disabilities or agencies and organizations and companies that provided assistive technology to folks with disabilities. It was pretty much a state agency, and still is actually, but now just a few people show up mainly some folks from Logan where the program is based these days as well as representatives from the Independent Living movement in this area as well as a few other providers like the disability Law Center, Sheldon special Healthcare needs and of course the parent Center. All these entities have interests regarding assistive technology. Traditionally as far back as I can remember and the whole program started about 3 or 4 years after I came to town but they were renowned as providing one of the best hot lunches in government/private nonprofit Industries. They started going downhill a little bit when things started getting really healthy and they stopped serving meat with the meals as opposed to vegetarian selections. I sort of Drew the line at vegetarian spaghetti or ravioli or something like that. The meal smelled great but tasted like vegetables now I don't mind so much. Now it's a free meal. Luckily it was at the buff Myers Center and as I wrote about the other day it's just down the street from where I live 30 some blocks. It was a good meeting. I really felt like I was getting back in contact with some of my old colleagues. We had some good conversations and I felt comfortable representing people with disabilities in this group. I represented folks who worked for private nonprofits let's serve people with disabilities as well as being a person with a disability myself but I was employed with the state. Now I just represent seniors with disabilities and what assistive technology can do for them to keep them in the system. It was a good meeting and when we got out I had about an hour to get home to get to my next meeting which was Utah non-profit housing Corporation unphc. I've been on their Board of Directors for years in fact they own the building where I have my apartment now. I would have liked to have gone to the meeting in person but because of the prior meeting I just had to get home as quickly as possible and tune in over Zoom which I did. I don't make as many comments in this meeting as I think I should and right now I go to the meetings as part of my appreciation for them offered me a place to live when I was desperate for housing. I'll serve on this till they asked me to stop. I was late getting into the meeting because of the rain storm that came up as I was getting ready to go home and then waiting for the buses. Then there was the whole problem of dealing with the construction that's going on around my apartment and the buses won't stop close to my apartment but luckily I got a driver who broke a few rules and stopped relatively close.

The rain had stopped pretty much by the time I'd gotten back to the apartment but it was cold now with the cold front passing through. I realized I didn't have a candy bar for my CNA tomorrow so I thought about going over to the market but between the cold weather and some sprinkling going on and the construction I couldn't face it so I ended up going to the big service station type place with a small quick Market inside and got the candy bars for my person. I figured it was time to settle back turn on the heater and watch a Spider-Man it was a nice way to finish the day. Tomorrow I just want to take it easy…

Double Trouble

 I have two CNAs, I think I've told you all that before. One CNA I had had me on Wednesdays and Fridays and the other had me just on Mondays. They give me an hour of service it's hardly enough to do but needs to be done and I think many times they go over the time limits but not by much. I love them both dearly and they seem to feel strongly about me going above and beyond their Duty sometimes to make sure I'm taking care of okay. Early in the summer the one CNA that had me on Wednesdays and Fridays was caught in a vehicular accident and broke her wrist and was not working at all and the one CNA took over which now I have her at three times a week. The other CNA who had the broken wrist has now recovered and it's anxious to get back to working more hours. And is desperately indicated that she'd like to pick up the other 2 hours that she was doing for me before the accident. The trouble is I've certainly gotten to enjoy the three times a week CNA that I have now who does a pretty good job of showering and dressing me. I wish there was more I could do for the other CNA which I do allow her to come over and clean up my place from time to time- - it's desperately needs it for which I compensate her fairly well. She seems to be holding out hope that I'll take her back for the 2 hours which I doubt that I'm going to do at least right now. I don't know how long the one CNA can survive but she seems to be a real Survivor pulling rabbits out of a hat that always impresses me. Still I hate to be put in this position that's why I'm not a good manager I hate making hard decisions for other people.

It was actually a pretty nice day for the last remaining days of the summer, I should have gotten out and done something but because the morning CNA come so late that when we're done it's like almost mid-morning and I spent the afternoon waiting for the other CNA to come and clean up my kitchen area- - and she does a great job. However I spent most of my day waiting for the CNAs. I don't know what I would have done if I did get out of the apartments. The only thing I could think of would have been going to the market to get some things I needed or think that I need to get through the next cold front which is supposed to pass through tonight bringing much cooler temperatures and rain tomorrow. Tomorrow of course the day of rains I have a meeting up the road a bit. About 30 blocks north of where I live. The bus goes right past the street so that shouldn't be too much of a problem. I would like to have gotten provisions for the rainy day but since I have to go out anyway maybe I'll stop and pick something up on the way home. After tomorrow, it's a fast moving storm, things should dry out for a beautiful weekend and the beginning of fall

Close Shave Guarantee

 It's almost 9:00 on a Tuesday evening

the wind's blowing fiercely and I hear thunder and smell rain. I didn't think it was going to rain today not until Thursday but that's okay I'm in the apartment and the relatively warm and it's a nice Tuesday night. I wasn't necessarily busy today but I got out of the apartment I went down town for my Tuesday meeting. I really do enjoy the Tuesday meetings. More than anything I love having a reason to vacate the apartment complex jump on the bus and go somewhere. I wish I could say that I had a mild to Wild adventure today but I did not. The most outrageous thing I did was buy another 10 lb can of sliced jalapeno peppers. I'm about out of the can that I purchased last week. I must be eating them too fast but that's okay I guess I'm worth it- - $10 a week.

Before I left on my journey to the city I actually got online and ordered a bunch of refills for my shaver/ razor. I've been putting this off for some time frightened to spend the amount of money that it's going to cost which is almost $40 but you know what I'm worth it. That's my new mantra. I don't know if I needed cartridges I will use them all eventually and I think this way cartridges will get me through the edge of the year. I try to use just one cartridge a month and actually that works pretty well another thing which quite surprises me. I kind of figured they had some kind of inborn mechanism that shut the whole thing down after X amount of days or weeks just so that they would be assured that I'd be ordering more … which I would but I found the razor lasted very well over the whole month and probably would have gone longer if I wasn't so anxious to pop a new blade in. I guess I could enter my name in for a subscription where they would just automatically mail whatever I asked them to do every month. So if I used just for cartridges a month or 1 a week then every month I would get a new package of cartridges. But I ordered 12 because I gave me a good deal on the side of the page for the Gillette cartridges on the internet page that I purchased it with. What really shocked me was that sometime in the afternoon or late afternoon early evening I noticed there's a blockage of light underneath the door. Of course when I opened the door there was the package from Amazon would you been delivered in the afternoon after I'd gotten home from my work at the private non-profit. So I ordered this morning and it showed up at my door this afternoon is that too crazy or what? The Next Step I have to do probably before winter now is to get myself conditioned to the concept of ordering my groceries by the internet and having my order delivered by that afternoon or evening. A lot of the folks here at the apartment complex do this but I just have a hard time accepting this kind of shopping but I'm sure it's the wave of the future and will certainly be better than going out in the super cold this coming winter if there is any super cold. Perhaps the most rewarding event of the day was turning on my computer/ music player and having the speakers work again. For some reason yesterday I did something and shut off the speakers. Eventually I figured out a way to at least listen to but I was watching with my headphones and just gave up on regular listing but this morning or this afternoon as I tried to watch the news at first I had no volume but then something happened and I got the volume back I felt a miracle that happened and I'll let it go on that and enjoyed the evening full of sound …

Monday matters

Another day of doing almost absolutely nothing in an attempt to keep as much weight off my butt as possible. I was pleased this morning when Melissa indicated that my butt looked pretty good, which we had taped last week before the weekend, and we should let it ride until possibly Wednesday if not Friday and that's a good sign. I just don't want to stress the skin any more than I need to so I spend a good deal of my day reclining in the Sun, in the back of the building, reading my book or whatever book I'm reading at that point in time. I do get around the apartment complex fairly well unless I have a prior commitment or I need something fairly desperate will I go to the market and leave the comfort zone of reclining. I guess things could be worse as far as pressure sores and other problems that I could be experiencing so I'm grateful to be in a place that I have my rent, food, in general needs met.

I would like to have a van or some form of personal transportation but if I did I know I would be broke. It's worth the trade off I just have to be patient I'll get to what I need or where I need to go. With that in mind I'm debating whether or not to attend the funeral of the late great Larry or a person with a disability that I used to work with and I'd like to think a friend and colleague. He passed last week and I can't say I'm really too surprised. You had a stroke a couple years ago and he's been somewhat recovering ever since. He managed to give himself married and they were having a nice little life until the stroke took over. His wife is a paraplegic too and so that was very interesting I thought. Actually, the neighborhood they lived in sort of took a keen interest in the couple and even remodel a home that they could live in easier than where they were at when they got married. It was one of those tearjerker kind of things that local TV news likes to get their hands on. Larry was a good guy, one of those esoteric paraplegic athlete type of folk that was always photogenic and semi-active on the disability stage locally. I was not as close to him as other folks and I hate to see his passing from a selfish standpoint which means someone else has to be next. No I don't think anyone is actually verbalizing it but I think all the other spinal cords in the community are keeping close tabs as to who is looking like they could be next. I try not to but it's certainly something that I can't help but I see my friends for folks with disabilities getting into advanced age and I'm older than they are.

This is going to be a fairly busy week for me. I have a couple of meetings besides my regular assist, ink meeting tomorrow. They are both optional as far as in attendance versus Zoom attendance. Depending on how will the weather looks towards the end of the week when these meetings will be will be how much I opt to use technology to make attendance easier. At least tomorrow I will put some real miles on the chair…

Reflections on Sunday

It's been another quiet day here at the apartment complex. If had not been for an early morning breakfast with the kids I don't think I would have done anything today except Marvel movies. I know that sounds pretty lame but it's kind of true. Well with the exception of spending a couple hours in the sunshine reading my novel that was about it for today. I'm still quite worried about my butt so I don't want to put any more stress on it than I have to and besides it's Sunday and if I went anywhere what happened to negotiate the horrible streets that are torn up right now because of construction so it's easier just to stay home leaned back in my chair and read. I know that sounds terribly pathetic they're probably even geriatric but that's good enough for the day.

I enjoyed my pickle pepper slices mixed with juice of the peppers and vegetable juice and now I'm adding a can of diced tomatoes when I have them. I have to slow the ingestion however I'm just running through these big cans of peppers way too fast. I was a little concerned I still am about the amount of acid that I'm exposing my teeth, esophagus and stomach too but Mark thinks that's not a big deal and so I'll default to his judgment. Once again I think when I'm ingesting these items during the day I often do that instead of a meal and I'm just wondering how many calories I've saved by not eating a regular meal and having a couple of tablespoons of sliced pickled peppers diced vegetables usually tomatoes but I've also chopped up a carrot and put those in the the general body of sliced pickles I've got some pickled beets and thinking of put it in there as well and maybe some cans of French cut green beans- - I've used the green beans before and they're pretty good actually mixed with the pepper juice. Not only are these other vegetables interesting inside this concoction but the additives stretch out the sliced jalapenos. Maybe it wouldn't be so bad if Macy's carried the big cans of sliced peppers but the only Market I've been able to find that actually have them on the shelves is Smith's almost 0 six blocks north of my Apartments. Then there's the added challenge of dragging these big ass cans home with me as well. I can usually do it if I hang the cans off my hook but makes for an awkward bus trip.

It's the last day of the fair today and by now the whole thing is over I'm sure people are just packing up the things and heading out to the next stop down the road. There's nothing worse than the last day of an event like the fair everybody's done just wants to get gone. Things close early people are pulling out. So I missed the fare for another year probably just as well. There's always the Hope however that maybe next year I'll have a reason and a passion to go to the fair but there wasn't one this year…

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Lonely?

 I don't think that I'm lonely. Maybe I'm not maybe I'm doing all these little things during the day and such to keep me from being lonely. I heard an interesting article today on NPR about loneliness and about how people especially seniors are suffering from loneliness and thus are more susceptible to a host of issues that could be damaging to the individual. All the stuff that's not good for you you know hypertension, mental health issues, just all kinds of stuff that the commentator indicated that is important that people need to be into some socialization ritual during the day or week I guess. Then they give examples of how some folks are creating their own little pockets of socialization- - which never existed before and now they do. Everything from small conversations with the postman to running around to different fast food/ convenience stores on a regular basis in attempt to create contact socially thus avoiding loneliness. All of a sudden, I kind of realized that's what I do. Luckily there's a market right across the street from my apartment complex actually just down the street, and I've gotten to know everybody in there almost like family. I go there at least once a week if not twice and I have social interactions from just about everybody. They're not long or involved conversations regarding the thesis of War and Peace or other pieces of literature but they asked me how I am and I asked how they are and we say hello in goodbye or if I need help they assist me. Tonight I was over at the market and I needed a cardboard box of some size to bring home my purchases. It wasn't a good time for cardboard boxes none could be found that would meet my needs but during the search I did a lot of communication from the guy that ran the produce section who I know quite well to a lot of the other staff that I've gotten to know just on site. There is Vicky who is just lost her husband last year, then there is Sharon who seems to work all the time there and then there's other folks that I don't know the names of right now but I know their faces which have warm smiles and flashing Happy Eyes. I do not spend a lot when I go there just usually what I can afford on cash. Today I got my bottle of juice and one carrot and a small bunch of bananas. There were other things I should have picked up but I only had so much space on my hook that I can hang bags off of for my trip home. I got enough to get me through tomorrow and anything I need for next week I can get on Monday or later. I got what I needed most and that was physical contact with warm happy smiles and a touch here and there just enough to keep me human