It's Thursday and of
course, that means it's coffee social at 9:30 AM. As a rule I enjoy
coffee social in fact I usually look forward to the gathering of the
old birds and me. But lately I think I'm getting a little bored with
the group … kind of. Perhaps it might be because of the sophomoric
feeling I'm getting with the group. There is a definite core group
and a really don't see any other folks. Some of the folks, I think
our beginning to dodge the group. I hope it's not because of me but
it would not surprise me. Perhaps I'm getting so comfortable the
group I'm beginning to lash out at those that don't agree with me
politically or religiously. Oh I'm not an adult about the whole
thing, I'm passive aggressive as hell which makes me wonder if this
is what is happening.
I have been here since the
election the last presidential election when the bully president got
in. I've kept my feelings fairly to myself. However, I will be the
first to admit that I often get sucked into discussions before I
realize what's going on. That's what happened with one of the ladies
who attend our coffee social or used to attend the coffee social. A
couple of weeks ago, I was not intentionally trying to attack this
person but I made an offhand comment that kind of derides the current
administration and this little old lady from somewhere in Europe
totally when I will always support the administration. The other
participants in the group work long and hard at avoiding anything
that resembles a personal standing. That's cool, I totally understand
in fact I try to do this myself but still there's something in me
that perks up when something my way comes. Sometimes I feel like I'm
the protagonist in a Steven King novel. Oh well.
Yes, this is a build up to
my blog for today. I was at the coffee social this morning and
discussions began regarding tomorrow's Christmas luncheon provided by
management and property owners and residents at the apartment
complex. Everyone is excited… Except me and I'm sure there's others
but it feels like I'm the only one. The talking about doing white
elephants, this one darling lady from Hawaii is doing the 12 days a
Christmas with replacement lyrics from the island. She even has 12
handmade cards that she wants residents to lift up when the different
lyrics are sang. To me it sounds pretty dorky but I ask he did not
say that but when asked which card I wanted to lift up I dropped the
bomb indicating that I probably would not be attending the luncheon.
I wish I had a ready excuse but I didn't maybe one will come up. Of
course everyone looked stricken when I indicated I was not probably
going to attend the luncheon but some mean side of me working in my
dark heart delighted at their response. I actually attended last
year's luncheon and I came away very unimpressed. I hope to not make
the same mistake twice.
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