We've spoken of my pathos before – – I seriously know that I'm pathetic and images on this page will more than justify my statement. Along with everything else in my life that seems to be dysfunctional my body is King. As I age I can almost feel my spine twisting from the spasticity which constantly grips my body mercilessly producing a possibly deadly scoliosis which not only disfigures my overall appearance but also makes were enclosed a greater challenge every day. This last couple of weeks it's been my feet. I'm going through another stage of not being able to keep my shoes on my feet. I don't know if you remember about I don't know five maybe seven years ago I was getting spasticity so bad from stenosis that surgery had to be instigated. So now, a variant of the spasticity is happening causing my body to be sitting so bizarrely in my chair that my feet don't stay complacent with my foot pedals or my shoes. Remember, I'm the person who buys one pair shoes once a decade. Remember about a year ago when I still had my last home health person Annette? And she actually took me shopping to the Walmart up the street. And I purchased a pair shoes. I've actually like the shoes quite a bit but I have to admit when you buy cheap to get cheap stuff and I can't get the Velcro strap on the right shoe to work therefore my she was always coming off. My shoes are always coming off now fighting a spasm during the day or try to adjust my chair, often the movement will cause or trigger a spasm which will yank my feet right out of the shoes and then I end up trying to stuff my feet back into my shoes and end up breaking down the heels. I think if I could get a new Velcro strap on the shoe that's all it would take and I still might entertain that solution but I also wanted to finally a pair shoes with fresh Velcro and see how that works.
Member couple weeks ago I sent away for a pair shoes when they came they look like they were too narrow? I still think they're too narrow but I am still going to try to send them back. It's the principle of the thing I really don't care about the money they were cheap to begin with I understand that that's why the risk was not very significant. Today, I saddled up in the hot 90° plus weather and took the bus up to Walmart and after a minute or two found the shoes. It's not like I can try the shoes on (I actually did this when Annette took me shopping and we actually tried to shoes on. Boy that's the way to shop. Today I did not have such support it with just me and the shoe rack and the dreadful feeling that I was burning up dollar bills and watching them fly away with tiny wings. Still, $15 for one pair and the ugly pair I got for seven dollars that's a fair crapshoot? I'm sure I'll be able to wear one of these pair for however long I need to. What worries me most however is like everything else more stuff piling up here there and everywhere. I'm not feeling bad today, however I feel like I'm on top of things maybe it's the new shoes who knows? Who cares the least the world will know I'm trying to cover my ugly feet even in ugly shoes so it all works out…
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