Remember
couple of days ago I was going on about weird dreams I was having our
sensations right after waking that might be related to the dreams? I
was really getting concerned about my well-being during this period
of time even perhaps a bit and irrationally, but even thinking that I
might be having something like a stroke are a preliminary stroke I
don't know. Sadly, this was happening about the same time that I was
beginning my OT regimen for the next couple weeks with Nikki. As I've
also indicated Nikki is also very easy to visit with and for some
reason at my last session I kind of opened up about some of these
feelings I've been having, more so then I have to anyone else. For
some reason this seemed so natural but I did see (and it could be
just my imagination) concern in her eyes. I didn't think about it at
the time but it seemed like I also noted her fingers flying over the
keyboard of your laptop. These things are going down in my personal
record, that record that seems to be all over IHC computer system.
That always shocks me when I go to the doc and they asked me about
things that I only told one person and that was another IHC
professional. Oh, but doesn't really bother me in fact I'm somewhat
glad that the system is so copious in detail. However, as I put
distance between myself and the events causing this discussion I seem
to feel that I may have overreacted. I just hope now I'm not “given
the opportunity to volunteer for the trip to a good psych counselor”.
Again afford to be an adult about the whole situation may be spending
time with a good shrink might be worth the time and energy
particularly if it's picked up by my insurance coverage. I'm
certainly not going to voluntarily suggest psychological intervention
at least not now. The flip things right for a couple months and see
where things go.
Today
was a good day. For the first time this month we had an actual Assist
meeting. I of course was the only one who showed up besides David but
he's the director so that doesn't count. We had a page and a half of
names we marched right through them. Because none of the other
participants were there we did the names in record time. I was back
out on the street well before lunch hour. I want to see this artsy
film JoJo Rabbit. I saw this film advertised at my Regal theater by
the time I wanted to see it it was no longer there and now only
screening at theaters downtown on by the Salt Lake film society, a
private nonprofit group specializing “Art-house” movies. I just
missed the beginning of the movie when I first inquired and had to
wait a couple hours. I wandered around downtown dreaming and enjoying
the downtown Ambience. The movie was a great but somewhat
entertaining I'm glad that I went, I'm glad that I had the means and
the opportunity to be an artsy kind of guy, at least to think I am…
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